Scratches of Past Wounds

The endless debate

In the afternoon, the fever began to fall. Leave a sore and tired feeling on his body. The light chose a warm bath to refresh his tired body. With the help of essential oils and candles aroma therapy Light felt his body back in shape.

Light out of the bathroom complete with long-sleeved pajamas with trousers. Her wet hair was still rolled up with a towel. The light sat on the edge of the bed checking his phone. There was a longing that suddenly burst in his heart at his two little angels.

Doni who was loyal in front of his laptop. His concentration slightly broke when he inhaled the fresh scent of the bathroom as the Light came out from there. But Doni had to hang on with a flat screen in front of him as he was checking important reports. Although occasionally his eyes steal a glance at the woman who has now become his wife.

Facial joints Light caught can sense of vision Doni. The grim roar looked sad to hold back the tears. Doni's heart felt uncomfortable seeing his wife sad while pecking a flat screen in his hand. Who makes the light sad? The question was raised in Doni's head.

Doni tries not to be affected in order to quickly finish his work. I don't know why Doni is so annoyed at that number sequence right now. In the past Doni loved his job very much. Even until late at night Doni often do it.

The light returned to put his phone and moved to his dressing table chair. Light painfully dried his black hair. All the movements of the Light did not escape Doni's sight. Until finally Doni closed all the scattered sheets in a map. And don't forget to close the laptop.

Too engrossed with his noisy hairdryer makes Light not realize that Doni is right behind him. When he felt a hand holding his hand, the light looked up at the mirror that reflected the image of Doni there.

" Let me help. " Say Doni while taking over the hairdryer from the hands of Light. There is no rejection of the Light. Doni does his job carefully and carefully. And the Light faithfully took that handsome shadow from the mirror.

" Why look at me like that ? Just realized that your husband is very handsome, hmm ? " Donis ignorant smile looks seductive.

The light spontaneously casts its gaze in the other direction. His red face held the embarrassment of being caught looking in awe at the figure of the perfect man behind him.

" Perfect... ? " Light again questioned that designation for Doni. The light has not been able to touch the heart of the owner of the athletic body. Light has not been able to understand the original character of the owner of this large, wealthy company. All are still ashes.

" Your hair is beautiful and fragrant. " Doni took a pinch of Light hair and inhaled the refreshing fragrance of those beautiful strands.

" Thank you, you helped dry. " Speak Light

" I like doing this a long time ago... " Doni's voice choked to realize his mistake. The view collides with the Light in the mirror reflection. Doni stared at Light with guilt, while Light looked at the joint but covered it with a fake smile.

" Sorry...

" It doesn't matter...

" I won't repeat it. "

Light cast his gaze on the comb located on the dressing table. Light chose the temple to be busy combing her hair while neutralizing her feelings rather than punching Doni's words.

The atmosphere became awkward and stiff. Doni was still faithfully staring at the changing mimic of the face of the Light from the reflection of the mirror. He could catch a blank eye of Light. And the sad look that the Light tried to hide had already been captured by Doni.

" Don't do anything to me that reminds you of your ex-wife, Bang. No woman likes to be a substitute object . I do too. This marriage is a symbiotic relationship. " The Greeting of Light was soft-pitched yet there was a resolute aura emanating from the look of his eyes .

" I didn't mean it. " Donishe said dishonestly. He had indeed suddenly wanted to do so earlier because he had indeed missed the time when drying Tiara's hair.

" Sometimes the mouth can say anything, without knowing the taste of the person who hears it. But the look in someone's eyes is hard to lie. And it's so easy to read "Light throws a sweet smile. After finishing combing her hair Light rose from her seat to the bed to avoid Doni's gaze.

Doni was still fixated on deciphering the Light's speech. She cut her own face while questioning her heart. What the Light thinks of him. Why the meaning of the Light is so deep. Has he hurt the Light so much .

All of it just floated away without daring Doni ask. Because Doni felt something made the Light say that. And Doni doesn't know what it is.

" Roles of substitutes, substitutes, or perhaps fantasy objects. While you only remember one name while doing anything with me . " Speak Light explained firmly.

" I never meant to ? " Sounds Doni's voice began to cool and full of emphasis.

" That intention and reality could have been different . If you want to fill a room with a new bed, you have to take out the old one. You may want to sleep in a new bed. But the fact is you feel heavy to throw out the old bed. " Say the Light calmly.

" Are you asking me to forget and throw away all my memories with Rara ? " Doni looked at the Light with a slanted smile as if disdainful.

" Deg "The Heart of Light throbbed at Tiara's loving call from her husband's mouth.

" No ! But if you force the new bed in without taking out the old one, you can be sure you will have trouble yourself . It may even hurt or it may hurt. " The light is still trying to calm down, even though this conversation is quite draining his emotions.

" I can make a new room for a new bed. And I can still keep the old bed. " Said Doni with a triumphant smile feeling the answer was right.

" That's what I want to hear. The answer of your heart or the picture of you as you are . " The light smiled wryly after being able to slightly understand what Doni really looked like ." It's just a bed about a bed and a room, Bang. You can move where you want. You can also choose where to sleep. And you can put it on display in the living room if it's worth it ." The light paused his speech.

" But not with heart and marriage . If you don't empty it then don't expect you to fill it with a new one. And this household will run without taste. " The voice of Light that was once firm now sounds weak . His face looks sad too.

" I'm not asking your heart to be whole, just give it a corner. Nor do I want to be greedy by expelling its inhabitants . I just don't like it when you imagine I'm him. Everything you did to me was just to remember. Everything you gave me was because you felt it was for her. I'm sorry, even though I'm just a bone to you, but I respect myself enough. "

The light now began to tremble. There was a grievance implied in every series of words he spoke. And after his last word Light opened his cell phone averted his gaze and brushed off the tightness that was crashing at his heart.

" I'm sorry if you feel that way. I won't do anything to you if you don't want to. " Doni misinterpreted the meaning of Light.

" It seems you misunderstood my point, Bang. "

" I don't know. I think you misunderstood me . To interpret all my treatment. I can't let Tiara out of my heart yet. But I'm trying to accept you. Is that wrong according to you. "

" You're not wrong, I'm wrong. Accepting someone who is not done with his past. All right. We're going back to the initial mode. This marriage is only for the sake of the people we love. Like what you said at the time. " The light throws a thick smile as if he were happy. While his hopes had just been crushed he was crushed to the brink.

" You think too much, why don't we just enjoy all this without thinking about something that doesn't matter. I'm your husband and you're my wife. We carry out our respective roles then all will be happy. Is that hard for you ? " For Doni everything can go well if everything goes on its own path.

No need to think about feelings, feelings, thoughts, shadows or hearts . For all these let it be his secret with the Heart-Reflector. Without anyone knowing not to hurt anyone else.

But to Light he would only be considered a puppet, devoid of colorless taste. The light just smiled blandly almost bitterly. His salivation was hard for him to swallow.

" No ! Let's go all the way you want. You're the captain I'm just an insignificant part for you to think about. The main passengers are Ibuk, son and Rania.

Doni was silent again. The words Light made him think again. What's wrong ?Why does the woman he calls his wife feel as if she is hurting on this new journey. What the Light wants, why is it so difficult to understand its words.

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