Picking Back the Crashed Way

176 . Shame is part of Faith

"Go back to your room immediately! the next time you leave the room, don't forget to wear your hijab perfectly. So you can survive the wild eyes!" zaid said, turning his face away from Zahrana.

Zaid really dampened his lust that was almost shaky because of the charm of the beautiful angel who was now perfectly exposed in front of him.

Zaid immediately walked to the toilet and left Zahrana still in place.

Zahrana appears to be bowed in shame when she realizes her body is perfectly exposed to a man who is not her mahram.

"O Allah . - forgive the servant for all sins and the ignorance of Your servant, Lord!" whispered heart Zahrana. He was ashamed of what was new in nature.

"O Allah .. If you do not respect our lust, we are among the losers!" bathin Zahrana shedding her tears. He recalled his story with Aslan Abdurrahman Syatir 4 years ago. He did not want it to happen again with Mz Arkana.

"O Allah .O Rabb, almost tonight I and Brother Zayd did what You did not want. If there were no thunderous flashes of lightning there would probably be something bad going on between me and her!"

Zahrana recalled that when Muhammad Zaid Arkana touched his lips with his fingers and stroked his cheeks, he responded and became lulled in the whispers of his bad passions.

"O self, o lust! why are you being weak?" bathin Zahrana grumbled at his folly.

Zahrana went to his room, he was really ashamed of Muhammad Zaid Arkana who had accidentally seen the curves of his body.

"O Allah .. want me, all that is in me is enough someone who will be my priest later to see all the precious things in me, I'm really ashamed of Brother Zaid. It's a good thing that Zaid's brother can dampen his lust, otherwise how dirty and nasty I am!" great-grandson Zahrana.

Zahrana stood in front of the mirror, he saw the dullness of his body that was plastered for real. "O Allah .. how I am lost, the beauty You have entrusted to me, which I will offer to my priest. It has also been stained, though only visible in the eye, with no form of warm touch. Still I lost and sinned over all my carelessness!" bathin Zahrana's.

"Yes Allah .. deserves to be side by side with the figure of Yusuf Amri Nufail Syairazy. The figure of the young man who Sholeh can really keep his marwah from long ago to this second!" bathin Zahrana wondered.

"Sister Yusuf, forgive me for not being able to look at myself. Forgive Zahra who has not been able to perfectly close this aurat. So that another male figure suddenly appeared before me and he had seen my aura vividly and real!" Zahrana regretted her carelessness.

Zahrana threw his body in the bed, the hunger that had afflicted him was now gone. He just kept thinking about his intimacy with Zaid when he was in the kitchen.

"OMJ! that's how I was, why I was hypnotized by him. Hugging tightly, embarrassing yourself. Looks like I should really be more introspective, in order to avoid all forms of adultery!" bathin Zahrana's.

Zahrana also tried to extinguish the fire of his anger that had been gnawing at him since. He lay relaxed in his private room by reading books about women a thousand charms and other important books.

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In the toilet (Pov Zaid )

"O Allah .. forgive me for what I just did, I am no longer able to resist my desires, only in this way can I complete my hidden desires."

"From myself to destroy the sanctity of Zahrana's heart and self, let me finish my lustful desires with five-fingered gymnastics!" bathin MZ Arkana by continuing to complete his desire in the bathroom.

In a state of emergency Muhammad Zaid Arkana was forced to complete his desire which he could no longer bear. His whole life has never been MZ Arkana channeling his passion like this. He had to do it all in order to maintain his own holiness.

Whether sinful or not he was, but he had already completed his desire to be toileted because the heresy of his lust suddenly ensnared him until he did something unnatural, too, this time he did it all his life.

Onani or masturbation becomes the last solution to his pent-up desire, for most young people who are being wracked by the desire of his lust that is reaching gray hair, this is exactly what a young man named Muhammad Zaid Arkana did.

Zayd preferred to complete his desires in this way, rather than having to destroy the self-purity of Zahrana which was already in his grasp. He preferred to complete his desires with his own hands, when something unusual came out from below and Zaid felt calm and tranquility in his heart and soul.

"O Allah .. O Ghofur, forgive me for desecrating yourselves!" bathin Zaid bowed in shame. Though no one sees it, he is sure that Allah is All-Seeing in what he does.

At least, the shame that spread in his heart became the benchmark that he still had faith. Shame is part of faith.

As bad as he did to her, at least he did not tarnish the chastity of a holy maiden like Zahrana.

In fact, we look good in the human view is not because we are great. However, it is because of God's love and mercy that we look good. It is God who has covered our disgrace.

Reflecting on the experience made by the figure of Muhammad Zaid Arkana today, in order to keep his marwah he was forced to do the unusual thing, he said, so that he completes his desire in such a way, it is permissible that he avoids his devotion to God for his instincts that he is no longer able to master, congratulations from desecrating the sanctity of the angel he loved, namely Tsamirah Zahrana Az Zahra.

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The Room Room. (Pov Zahrana )

"O Allah, it is almost me and Zaid doing forbidden things, woe to me, if it is lulled by his tender touch against me!"

Zahrana touched her lips and cheeks which Zaid touched with her fingers. However, in the middle of the silence of the night Zahrana could not show the taste. Still, he was swept away by Zaid's sweet treatment of him.

As an ordinary man, even though he had adorned himself with a hijab to cover his whole body, as Islam had suggested. At the age of 17 years, he still has instincts and passions.

However, he tried to restrain her. In order not to fall into even deeper adultery.

"Yes Allah .. Thank God, Alhamdulillah .. Nothing happened between me and him. Enough with Brother Aslan in the past I fell into disobedience that misled me. Really, I don't want that to happen again with Brother Zaid!" whisper Zahrana's heart in shame.

The shame that was born of his heart and the silence of his faith, toward his Lord. Shame if His guidance is again thrown down, upon all its torment by the promptings of its momentary lust.

"Yes Allah .. Thank you for saving the servant from adultery. If you do not observe the heresy of the lusts of the servants, the servants are among the losers!" the heart of Tsamirah Zahrana Az Zahra.

Zahrana believed that the shame in his heart was part of FAITH in His Lord. The All-Seeing One will despise and humble himself for all the wrongs and filial deeds he has done.

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Pearl of Wisdom 👉 “According to the struggle of one's soul and its rejection of his orgasm and his refusal to follow his pleasure (which is forbidden), and the rejection of what makes the eye want to look at him, and the rejection of what makes the eye want to see him, and therein lies the reward and torment. A wise man is one who can master his desires. Verily when you forsake the truth, you must be on the way to error, and when you forsake the truth, you leave it to error

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