PARALYZED MASTER'S NANNY

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Raya

Either because he was hypnotized by Nev's charm, or because he still did not understand the situation, he foolishly followed the man's broad steps that did not let go of his hand in the slightest.

Nev looks very hasty, he even has to run small to be able to equalize the pace with the man.

"Where are we going, sir?" the question is interrupted by their steps that almost reached the back gate of the cafe.

"I told you not to call me Mr. Raya." said Nev. Finally he chose silence because he was lazy to argue in the street.

Nev took him across the street, and he still foolishly followed without much protest.

Not long after, they arrive at a city park that looks crowded on Saturday night.

Nev took him to sit in a typical iron chair park available there. They are still quiet with each other, slowly releasing the link of his hand from Nev because the grip was not released since the cafe and Nev let it.

He was still adjusting his breath that felt dull, as well as Nev who looked still silent even though the man looked calmer than at the beginning of the meeting.

He stared ahead, where many garden lights were lined up neatly, emitting a dim light that did not dazzle.

Then, he glanced at Nev, the man looked like he was thinking about something, then looked up at the bright sky tonight.

He just wanted to open his voice, to ask about Nev and Feli, even though his feelings are currently feeling upset due to the actions Nev did a few minutes ago.

But, Nev's phone voice first roared and the man clucked while looking at his own phone screen.

He doesn't know who called Nev, but he can hear what Nev said to the caller.

"Get it all done, get my car home" Nev said on his mobile.

He just shut up and heard Nev's chatter without being able to cut it apart.

"You have to explain this to me, Bian. You must have known about this!"

When Nev mentions Bian's name, he finds out that the one who called Nev is the man's secretary.

Nev immediately disconnected his call after snorting softly.

"Damn.." Nev said to who.

Nev leaned back, leaned his field back against the iron chair back, then looked up at the night sky that might be soothing.

"How are you and Feli?' he asked slowly, trying to regulate the rhythm of his heart that beat faster when he was near Nev.

Oh no, my heart starts again like this. I think that only every time I get close to him will my heart be stirred.

"My news is good, don't ask anyone else when we're together" Nev said in a flat tone.

"meaning?" He did not understand what Nev meant to others.

"That's it, the point is don't talk about anyone other than the two of us" Nev said calmly.

He turned his head when Nev said that, whatever it felt like he was very happy to hear that from Nev's mouth, but does that mean that he will be the destroyer of Nev and Feli's household?

"But, I think you really need to know about this. Me and Feli are divorced and we just have to wait a few more trials until the hammer is knocked," Nev explained.

His eyes were puffed up, he was quite surprised to hear that fact, he thought Nev loved Feli very much and after his departure from the house, they could fix everything like Grandma had said.

He was downcast, there was a feeling of guilt slipping through his heart.

"Why?" Nev asked while changing position to look down too - for the sake of seeing his bent face.

He silenced his face while shaking strongly.

"Aren't you happy that Feli and I are getting a divorce?" nev asked suddenly, suddenly it made him re-establish the body.

"Do I have to be happy to see others separated?" his tan looked at Nev, his voice rising an octave and Nev smiled at him looking angry.

"That's how it is" said Nev shrugging his shoulders.

"Is all this because of me?" the question is serious on Nev.

And he didn't expect Nev to question his question. "It's all because of you, and you have to take responsibility" Nev said with a sly smile.

He turned his eyes lazy by seeing Nev's irritating look on his face, he knew Nev said so to justify it. Still is ...

"I sued him for feeling tired, and the encouragement that strengthened me to dare to make that decision, one of them because of you."

He looks at Nev again, as if asking why it should be because of him?

"I said you were one of them, Raya. So this is not entirely because of you, I'm too tired of all Feli's work" Nev explained.

The situation returned to silence, silence. There were only boisterous sounds from the surrounding people who were also in the same place. While both of them were too late in each other's minds.

"How about we talk now, hmm?" Nev spoke very quietly, almost whispering, making him stare at Nev again and again for not understanding this man's intentions.

"We?" tanyakanya.

"Yes, we..."

"What's wrong with us?"

Nev exhaled slowly, then grabbed his fingers that had been in his lap since.

"I once said that I like you, Raya. It was wrong, completely wrong, because what I felt next, it was more than a taste of liking.." Nev said right next to him.

He was stunned, maybe at this time his hand that was being held by Nev had been drained by cold sweat, nervousness burst out but he was powerless to issue a word.

Nev is back.

"A feeling I can interpret after we've been separated by distance and time.I realize that, I've fallen in love with you, Raya."

He felt Nev's grip tightening on his hand, while he, himself, felt his heart weaken upon hearing Nev's expression.

If now his position is standing, maybe he will sit down in a cage surprised by the man's words.

"Raya,"

"Y-yes?" he did not dare to look at Nev anymore, his feelings became erratic. Pleased? Of course yes, because it turns out his feelings do not clap one hand, the feelings he suspects are only on the side, in fact the man has admitted that he has also fallen in love with him.

But is there something he forgot here? Oh no. he had already received an arranged marriage with Reka yesterday.

"You're surprised by this?" Nev grabbed his shoulder, for him to spin in position to return the man's gaze.

His sitting position was indeed turned to face Nev, but his head was bowed while closing his eyes tightly, as he realized he had made a fatal mistake.

"I won't force you, Raya. I'm not asking for your answer, I just want you to know, about my feelings. (about my feelings ..)"

"Sir, I..."

"Call my name, Raya." said Nev very gently.

He shook his head at the suggestion.

Nev smile. "Okay, you wanna try? (OK, you want to try it?)" nev's words sounded upbeat, while he was already lethargic with the reality.

"Come, try... I'm not asking you to answer about your feelings, but I'm forcing you to call my name without calling me Master again, okay?" Nev again asked him to name the man to get used to it.

He took a deep breath, now it was not a matter of calling Nev's name to his burden, but of thinking about how to explain to this man before him his status-which became the point of the matter.

He was afraid to make the smile that was on the back of Nev become receding because he was telling the truth, but he also did not dare to disappoint those who had expected him with Reka.

"Ne-Nev." he said, and Nev smiled more and more.

He shook his head slowly, trying to focus on saying his point, he removed Nev's hand link in his hand. "Nev, your feelings are yours. I, I mean I. I have no right to regulate your feelings, but before I wanted to convey something," he said, then he closed his eyes, too heavy to tell Nev about the reality.

"Yes? Anything you want to say about us?" asked the man then, still with the same smile.

"Well, you don't carry on that feeling." she said quietly, as her heart cried out to not continue the next sentence.

Sure enough, the smiley arch on Nev's lips, slowly disappeared, turning into a serious look and astonishment.

"Why? (Why?)" ask Nev lirih.

He shook his head again, trying to hold back the tears that wanted to run out in front of this man.

"Because, I'm getting married, in two months" she said in a trembling voice.

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