PARALYZED MASTER'S NANNY

38 - Late remorse

Felly

He used to be so proud, because Nev chose him even though Grandma had opposed their marriage. He realized, if Grandma had never been on his side.

Grandma always said that Nev was just obsessed with her, not in love with her as Nev himself had always said.

Grandma always tells Nev that Nev misrepresents feelings.

Likewise, Grandma seemed to be able to see if she did not love Nev with earnestness.

But, having Nev at that time was like a dead price to him. He can't just miss Nev.

Not having in the sense of loving Nev, but having Nev means being able to master all of the man's possessions.

In the past he was not so interested in the good looks and intelligence of a Nevan Adio Prawiraharja.

Either because his heart had been owned by an Andreas or because Nev's treasure was indeed more attractive in his eyes.

Likewise, with the plan to destroy Nev, it just happened when Nev who willingly gave anything for him in the past.

"Feli, do you want to marry me?" asked Nev at the time. At that time they were observing a place in a mountainous plain - as Alumni of Nature Lovers Students.

Nev is not romantic, that's what he knows, so Nev proposes to him quickly, even if the place is not right.

Without thinking, he nodded his head. At that time, he also had a serious relationship with Andreas. Andreas is a junior or junior sister at the same University as him and Nev.

He did not expect, the property possessed by Nev just blinded him and washed him into greed, so he forgot his status. Nev doesn't ask her to date, because from what he knows - it turns out that the man has liked her for a long time.

When Nev proposes to him, he seems to fly in the wind, meaning that he will reach for everything that has only been in his imagination.

But, his strong love for Andreas, still resuscitated him to not dissolve in the charm of Nev who at that time really wanted him.

Soon, the marriage happened - although it had to pass the blessing of Grandma who was not easy also without the knowledge of Andreas of course.

Towards the end, Andreas sneaks into the locker room of a building - where his wedding and Nev's are about to take place.

He manages to convince Andreas that this marriage is only on paper and his feelings will remain intact for his lover.

Of course Andreas did not agree, but he always convinced the man.

Until a plan is hatched that will eliminate Nev after achieving what he wants.

Andreas accepts his decision on condition that there will be no physical touch between him and Nev even if they are officially married, otherwise, Andreas threatens to destroy the event that has been on the verge of the eye.

He agreed quickly so that Andreas would soon pass from there.

The marriage also happened, but he also did not expect that Andreas was doing so rash and hasty actions.

Andreas bumps into Nev who wants to Jogging the afternoon. Though he never thought that Andreas would act that afternoon. The plan did eliminate Nev, but certainly not on the same day.

Somehow the incident happened, just Andreas was rushed to the same hospital with Nev.

She was still shocked to hear of Nev's accident the same day - she got word of the driver of the car that hit her husband. And the hitter, none other than Andreas, his lover.

So on the same day, after he saw the state of Nev to simply appreciate his status as the man's wife, he took the time to visit Andreas' condition in a different room.

He never thought Andreas was worse than Nev, Andreas was dying and it made him panic mixed hysterically.

He ceaselessly blamed himself.

On the one hand, he realized his greed. But on the other hand, he did not want to admit that all this was his fault.

He even heard a groan of pain from Andreas' lips. Rintihann is also often heard in his subconscious and often appears in his dreams to date.

Deep down in his heart and conscience, he felt guilty for Andrew.

However, when Nev is sentenced to be paralyzed, he does not blame himself for it, instead he considers all that Nev suffered was punishment because Nev was the cause of Andreas' death.

Andrew died not because of my plans.

Andreas died of Nev. I hate you, Nev.

He blames Nev, but his conscience is aware that Nev was a victim at the time.

And now, when his hatred for Nev actually presents a feeling of love, at that moment he can't reach Nev anymore.

Like a dream in the middle, he had to give up everything, especially when Grandma had known his actions in the past.

Grandma knows everything, including her feelings that once only wanted Nev's treasure.

He was too naive, thinking that Grandma would not know about it - but she was wrong.

"It turns out that my granddaughter has been raising wild animals in her house" said Grandma who always to the point without shady aling-aling.

"You're like a tame cat, but there are days when you turn into a wild tiger" Grandma said.

He could only cry out. Lamenting all his stupidity. Lamenting all his mistakes. Remembering his sin, even more so about his greed.

"How come you're still living in this house, Feli?" ask Grandma with a sarcastic tone.

Then he could still answer. "However Feli is still Nev's wife, Grandma."

"Not shameless!" granny's down in front of him. He didn't even expect Grandma's words to be that rough.

"You can still say that you're the wife of my granddaughter? What did you give him? Have you devoted yourself to being a good wife to her?"

He could not answer and finally hugged the old woman's legs but his self-defeating efforts were still in vain because Grandma's next speech so astonished him.

"Leave this house, Feli. don't bring anything but the clothes you're wearing on your body."

Grandma kicked him out, even Grandma hated him. He has lost everything. Losing Nev, also losing Grandma's trust that he had been difficult to achieve all this time.

As well as Nev's treasure, he had no taste for all that. Although Nev said he would still give him money gono-gini, but he was really not interested.

He looked at Nev with a teary look, maybe his face was pale or even could not make Nev's heart touched again.

Nev's proof has been silent since Grandma bombarded him with all sorts of rashes.

Slowly, he forced to drag his steps, out of the mansion belonging to Nev-her husband.

"Until meeting in court." that's Nev's last words before his departure, making him ringing with the heavy voice of Nev who later he always missed even though the man always spoke loudly to him.

It's a punishment for him and this is what he has to live with now.

Back has nothing, be it treasure or love. Even trust is no longer earned.

"Mothers... Are you disappointed in Feli? Feli wasted everything that was destined for Feli's life, ma'am.." now he can only wail in front of the mother's grave.

He does have his own house, although it is also the result of Nev's money which he has been using for personal purposes. But he was too ashamed to return to the house even though no one lived there, still he bought the house from Nev's money.

"Mother, even if I leave Feli to Nev, don't blame Nev for divorcing Feli, yes, Mom... Nev is innocent, Mom. Feli is a lot wrong with him." he roared while hugging his mother's grave.

He realized, all this time Nev was too generous to him. Nev knows he wants the man's treasure, Nev has given him enough time but he never takes the time Nev gives.

Nev even still gave him money, facilities and Nev kept him informed while speaking despite the cold and sometimes sniffy answers.

The pinnacle of his regret was useless, he had already completely lost a man as good as Nev. His feelings came too late, always that is what he regretted every time he remembered the man who had become her husband.

...Connect ......

Holla, why am I sad about the fate of Feli? Love is late coming 😭 no more chance.

Is there anything like me? Feel the same as Feli, is that it? 🤔 hmm...