PARALYZED MASTER'S NANNY

SEASON II - Take care of you

Aarav

Els drove me home, all the way there was silence between us. I don't know what this girl is thinking. It's just that he looks better than before. Has she been able to accept my decision regarding our marriage cancellation?

"God..." I tried to say hello, expel the saturation created because Els did not also try to break the silence.

"Hmm?" Els took a quick glance at me while occasionally focusing on the road because she was driving a car.

"I've spoken to your Papa."

"What did Papa say?".

"He asked me to think again carefully."

Els nods her head to understand what I mean.

"Are you going to think about it?" asked Els while smiling wryly.

"I'll think about it."

"How long have you thought about this? A day? Two days?"

I'm shaking. "Come away, but I'll make a definite decision, once I get a mature answer."

Els smiled a little. "That means your decision today is not yet mature, right?" tanyakanya.

"Not so, I'm just considering advice from Om Jimmy" I said.

"Well, if that's the case.Let me take care of you while you think."

"meaning?" I stared at Els.

"I've been taking care of you, but it's not full. Now, since you are thinking about a decision regarding our relationship, let me take care of you full time. I'll stay at the apartment, I'll talk to Auntie Raya. I'll stop taking care of you if you make a decision."

I laughed softly. " For what, Els?" I was surprised by the answer of this woman with a big nose beside me.

"To make you sure that I was the most appropriate wife choice" Els said.

"But, Els...."

"I don't want to be rejected about this. If you have an answer, then you can refuse or continue our relationship."

"Your college?"

"I can skip."

"Els. I don't want to skip taking care of me."

"Okay, I'm staying in college. Outside of college hours I'll always be by your side whenever and wherever you are" Els smiled again. However, I somehow felt that her smile was full of bitterness.

*****

As Els said, she actually got permission from my Mama to stay at our Apartment. Somehow Mama let it go, I don't know what Els told Mama. Is it possible that Els told Mama about the decision I made? I don't know.

"I'm staying in Airish's room tonight. But, I will take you to rest first," said Els smilingly and pushing my wheelchair towards the room.

I know, this room may have been entered hundreds of times by Els, but only tonight she entered my room in a state past dinner like this. I'm quite nervous about his presence on my private property tonight.

"Come out, Els.I'll change my clothes." I'm referring to the shirt I've been wearing since we visited the painting exhibition this afternoon.

Els looked stunned for a moment, a second later she shook her head faintly. "I'll help you" he broke up in a soft voice.

My eyes are breaking. As often as Els took care of me, she never helped me with this. Change of clothes or something. This is something that makes me awkward.

"No."

"Say in the closet where do you keep your pajamas or t-shirts? I'll help find her," Els spoke with a flushed face. I'm sure she's as shy as I am but she's trying to be ordinary to keep her word to take care of me more than ever before.

"No, I can do it myself."

Els shook his head quickly. "I'll look for him." Els moved towards the closet. Open one by one cabinet cabinet doors while occasionally making a sound. "What's in this section? Above or below?" tanyanya.

I pushed my wheelchair closer to him. "Let me go" I said slowly.

Els stepped aside a little, I pulled a t-shirt and home pants from the corner of the closet.

"Oh there. All right, tomorrow-tomorrow I know," said Els slowly.

"Tomorrow?" my many.

"Yes, you haven't made a decision yet, have you?"

"Yes, not yet."

"Yes, that means tomorrow-tomorrow I already know where to take your clothes next door." Els giggled slowly.

"You don't have to push yourself this far, Els."

"I don't have to."

"Jude, I want clothes. Can you come out for a second?"

Rahelsa nodded but then shook her head.

"Why?" my question is more and more astonished by his attitude that I am difficult to guess.

"I want to make sure you get some sleep, and I'm out of here."

"I keep going until you sleep."

"God..." I clucked my tongue at him who was ignorant.

"I want to help you."

"If you stay like this, being in my room I won't be able to sleep!" I said a little bit of intonation, I thought Els would be afraid that she was getting closer to me.

"You what?" I was nervous when Els squatted in front of me.

"Help you, open your shirt," Rahelsa's hand came towards me and I immediately brushed her off.

Rahelsa looked at me with a disappointed look. "Why?" tanyanya.

"If you keep this up, I can get angry, Els!" my firmness.

Els' eyes glazed over, so I felt guilty for saying so loudly to her.

"At least, let me feel like taking care of you so far. before you break off our relationship and I'll never be able to see you again."

I was stunned to digest Els' pretty heartbreaking speech. I threw away my gaze, unwilling to look at him who was beginning to be stunned.

"You can still see me even if I've cut off our relationship" I said weakly.

"Do you think I still want to see you after we've completely parted ways?"

"You mean?"

"I don't want to see you or see you again. If we're really apart I won't see you again, I'll go, Rav!"

"Els. you-"

"I can't be naive, I won't be able to see you again. Do you think I can live just fine without you, huh?" cut Els. He shed tears again. I don't know how many times she cried today, just for this imperfect self.

"Continue your life without me..." I bent my body to hold both sides of his tear-filled face.

"No! It's up to you to say I'm selfish or something!" Els.

"Why did you get like this just for me?"

"Because I asked myself once, Rav!"

"Ask what?"

"I asked myself if I would be sincere when I saw you with someone else, the answer was no! Then why can you be sincere if one day I live with someone else?"

I was silent, actually I would not be able to see Els living with other people either. I also never thought of living with another woman because ever since I was disabled, my gaze has only been on one girl who was sincere with me, Rahelsa.

"I never said that if we split up I'd be living with someone else."

"Then? Where can you go on your own!"

"Maybe!"

"Why?

I want to answer because I only love you, Els. Just seeing you happy is enough for this imperfect me. But I chose silence.

"If you don't want to answer, yes. I will continue my work. After that go to sleep," said Els quickly. He raised his face and again wanted to unbutton the shirt I was wearing.

"For this, I can do it myself" prevent me.

"Relatedly? I think you'll have a hard time unbuttoning, your fingers aren't as deft as they used to be, Aarav!" els protest.

"I can." I'm sure I can, it's easy even though every day I do help Mama in this.

Finally Els shuffled, but she kept waiting for me in the corner of the room. He silently watched me trying to unbutton my shirt.

One button slipped off with a very slow motion, but in the button both my fingers felt numb and unmoving. This often happens in my other gestures, be it in the neck, fingers or hands.

"Why? Can't, can you? Aunty Raya had also said this..." Rahelsa came back closer, now she had managed to unbutton all the shirts I was wearing with her deft movements.

I could see the trembling Rahelsa as I looked at my plain skin behind a shirt that had been torn off.

"Wear the shirt, can you do it yourself?" I smiled a little, I offered to do it myself but he insisted. Now it's my turn to not dress even he who became nervous? I want to laugh when I see this girl in front of me.

"Yes, let me be alone."

"I'll go in again after you get dressed."

"Hmm" dehemku. "But, Els..."

"Why? Is there anything you need again?"

"What about my pants, huh?" I just chose to do it, rather than him continuing to insist on helping me. Maybe if I work on it he'll give up on his own.

"Ah, yes... How is it?" Els asked me back.

I relax my shoulders. "You said you wanted to take care of me, right? You just put him down!" my door to hold back was nervous.

"May, if we're married!" Rahelsa grumbled as she exited the room with a reddened face.

I laughed softly, rightly my guess if he would give up on his own if it was like this.

*****