
Chapter 244
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"What are you going to do after taking over the world and everything? Suddenly I was curious."
Amon stared at Raki for a bit before turning his face out the window to observe the celebration below. A cup of coffee appeared in his hand, and he took a slight sip.
"I thought you knew." He muttered, not looking into his eyes.
Raki shrugged her shoulders.
"I've only guessed until now, you know. I think you're going to keep taking over planet after planet after planet one by one, galaxy after galaxy, and therefore one day take over the entire universe - if that's possible."
He turned his eyes to her. "But recently I had an epiphany... Yesterday, you gave me a very powerful demon fruit."
Raki clenched his fists as he said that, and soon a half-transparent sphere the size of a sphere formed around his fists.
"No means to be ungrateful," he scowled as the ball disappeared. "But you're really selfish trash. I didn't expect you to suddenly give me a second fruit. If anything, I think you're at least keeping the process a secret."
Amon raised an eyebrow at him and a few seconds passed in silence. Finally, he laughed and patted her on the forehead. "Hmm, even if you say I'm selfish, I think you think of yourself as someone special, someone that even this selfish me has a special place. Have you changed your mind?"
Raki shifted her eyes this time. The topic of conversation is shifting, but this is not bad either.
"I don't see my differences, say, Robin. You call her your sister, and you do the same to me." He stopped and sighed and then met his eyes. "If you pretend to love her, then what makes me different?"
Raki gulped in uncertainty and looked at Amon with her lips thinned. "Who said you really care about me? "
Amon fell silent again, and the room suddenly became very quiet. This was ...he was going through some kind of existential crisis.
'What is the fact that Wyper now has more gifts than him?'
Amon pondered for a moment with an expressionless face. The silence stretched out and he stood face to face with Raki.
Raki had gone through such thoughts and crises before as well, but she quickly forgot about them within days and even hours. He had never really consulted about this directly with her. That's worrying for Amon.
His immediate answer, if he was in joke mode, would be "Why do you even think I care?", But this is not a matter of joking. What's more, it would be a lie if he said that he didn't care about her. Raki was clearly more than someone like Hancock, who was just a bag of glorified meat.
Amon knows why it happened. But will Raki understand if he explains it directly? These days, he doesn't need to manipulate people, because he has the true raw power to get what he wants. But the fact is; Amon is still a manipulative bastard inside.
He could lie to her, as usual. Or actually, tell me the truth.
Various thoughts flowed in his brain, and he saw many futures where this could go wrong. If he takes one wrong step ... Raki may be getting naughty and she may have to do an unpleasant task to kill him.
Finally, he smiled at her as he decided .. one choice. It wasn't the best choice or the most logical choice, but it was something where he didn't need to make a lie entirely. He knows, even knowing the truth, Raki will be fine.
"Hm, I see the problem you're facing."
Said Amon and Raki pouting. "Oh, so?"
An ******* in leaving Amon's lips before she gazes deep into his eyes.
"Caring for someone is just a reaction of some particular chemical mixture in our body. Sometimes, someone smiling at you can make your day bright, but at the same time someone else doing the same thing will make you frown" Amon said. "Rather than something like a soul or a will, it is all the messy work of chemicals in our bodies. At least, for the most part."
"That could cause a lot of trouble, for that reason, I turned it off. What I did using Seimei Kikan. Therefore, it was more or less impossible for me to take care of someone deeply enough. Especially falling in love with them."
This isn't a lie. He had been doing it since the day he learned to control his body using this technique. That is, since he was a 5-year-old boy. No one else but him knew that, of course.
He turned to Raki, locking his gaze with his wide eyes.
"Actually, I can't trust people" Amon said. "I can like them, but if I continue to like them, at one stage I will care enough to trust them too much. That's why, I refrain from liking people too much, thus allowing me to not care and therefore not trust them too much." He looked at her pouting face. "You think it's tense?"
Amon laughed a little. That's very tense. But there's a reason behind it.
Seeing Raki's shocked face, while looking at him as if looking at aliens, continued Amon.
"There's a reason, of course. A man, from birth, does not believe. The human brain sees everyone around it as an enemy, as a person to be shunned. In addition, for me .. 'main' reason for lack of trust is Wyper's father, Viper. I'm sure you don't remember the story because you weren't even born then, but I guess you've heard it before? ”
Raki thought for a moment before nodding.
“I was almost killed by Viper, Wyper's father who was also my uncle, just a month after I was born. You can only imagine what kind of emotional mutation a child's brain is experiencing, which I say is very careful of others from birth, which might happen in such a scenario." Amon shrugged and sipped from his cup. "I blame it for me, Dad... Sociopathy.”
It was not entirely true, but he could not explain the true truth without revealing his reincarnation. The real truth of his lack of trust and concern for anyone is his past life, in large part. His soul was injured to not care and trust anyone who was not a family, and the scars on his newborn brain strengthened his resolve.
This scar, he was able to heal with self-therapy, by going deep into his mind by manipulating his neurons and then healing him slowly. But it would destroy the entire foundation of who "Amon". It's like killing your own soul for the new one to take over you. You'll still be you, but not exactly.
That's why, even now, his Semei Kikan is working inside his body, forming his hormones to keep him calm. To just ... don't care.
"In the first stage of my life, I..." Amon sighed and looked out again. "Well, I wouldn't say I'm not a monster, but I'd be worse off if it wasn't for Isa. She saved my life, took care of me, and even gave me the impression of a real aunt. So please don't assume I'm just a computer running code. "
He then looked at her again.
"You, on the other side ..." Amon bit her lips for the words, which surprised Raki. Amon never thinks too much. "...The first time we actually met, I've decided to make you stronger, stronger than anyone in the tribe. So that one day you can be a perfect ally to me."
"Tools, you mean." said Raki flatly.
"Oh, self-conscious. I like it."
"..."
He sipped his coffee while looking at the sky casually.
"It continued for years, and at that time, people would expect my mental scars and other things would heal, but I've kept my body chemicals under control. I don't care about anyone around me, other than Jesus. ” He gave her an expressionless look, "Even you are just a tool, as you said yourself."
Raki looked hurt, but she swallowed it and thought of his words. ' What', he said.
Amon observed his face and a faint smile formed on his lips. “Then I learned something new. People take care of their creations more than anything else, even if they force themselves not to. A swordsman seems to be able to be deeply attached to the sword he made, an intimate object, enough to sacrifice a life for it. And a father who has never met his daughter before could cry at their first meeting 13 years later. That's what happened to you and me."
Amon's words lingered in the room for a few minutes before he spoke again.
"Robin is .. well, also a tool. But he was a tool made by someone else, and I just modified him a little bit. You, on the other hand, are 100% made by me. Likewise in a sense, I am like a parent to you. Your whole existence is here because of me."
He said in a relaxed tone as his last words flashed on Raki's head like a loud bell.
A few more minutes passed, and Amon continued to notice his trembling fingers while sipping tea casually.
"So, the difference between me and Robin is; he is a tool you don't care about, and I am a tool that ... You're tied."
Amon looked at him again. "You underestimate your value." He finally said. "You are someone who went through whatever mental scars I had, and managed to get my true confession."
It was more of an achievement than Raki could have known. Ammon will not be open to anyone now, for he will take over the world; that will give even those within his own army the desire for the Throne of God only a few decades.
For example, Tsumi is greedy. He was satisfied with everything he had right now, but for how long? Even a mosquito can kill an elephant by sucking blood in its brain, and anyone Amon believes will be in its brain, in its base.
Taking that into account, it was an achievement no less than finding One Piece that Raki was someone Amon trusted very much, someone she cared about very much.
Seeing his skeptical expression, Amon threw the coffee cup out the window and pinned it against the wall.
He looked down on himself. "Imagine if I explained to Robin what he meant to me, like I did to you. How do you think he'll react?"
Raki stared at the hand that clamped her shoulder and replied. "He's going to.. May be going crazy? I don't know. At least he'll start screaming in horror and disbelief."
"And compared to that, what do you think your reaction is like?"
"..."
Amon pulled his hand back and looked into his eyes. "That's the difference between you and Robin. You won't care what I think of you. Even if I hate you like how a rat treats a cat, you won't hate me back."
Raki remained silent, her face expressionless.
Amon sighed and rubbed his temple. The deep manipulative part of him didn't want to be so open with her like this, but he couldn't help it. "I stopped thinking of you as a tool entirely after 2 years on the Moon. I turned off my passive mental mechanism for you, only you can make me care more about you than back then. But it was too late by then, you know. Back then, you were obsessed with me, obsessed with lion cubs and lions."
"..."
"That, miss, is why I love you so much."
Suddenly, Raki raised her head to meet her gaze with wide eyes.
"I might sound like a lie, but I actually like your presence."
Raki's thin lips formed a barely recognizable smile and she let out a long sigh that she had held until now.
"Huh. motherfucker." He rubbed his eyelids with his fingers. "Go die in the gutter."
He was obviously sad and almost hopeless at his open confession . Amon doubts he will be naughty, but he knows Raki is almost dry and empty as if someone proved to the priest that his God is a fake.
Amon smiled at her and placed his hand on her chin. “I won't die, not yet. I have a universe to conquer, and then kill some flies in another dimension.”
Some flies would be a certain few people from his past life, but that would only be him doing when he became Absolute at least in this universe.
Raki did not know what he meant, and simply took it as a metaphor, and nodded.
He wiped his eyes with his sleeves and then walked closer to Amon. Amon knew what was going to happen, and he didn't stop it. The tiptoed Raki, was now tall enough to stare into his eyes, then stuck his lips together with his.
A sigh of relief left Amon. This at least meant that he did not need to kill her, the only person he could love for no reason that forced him to. Even the treatment for Isa started just to pay off his debt, but Raki was different.
Amon wrapped his hands around her, with his lips pressed against her as his lipsticks painted his lips red.
After a minute, he lifted his head to meet her as he looked at her with a slight surprise.
"Don't pretend to be surprised." He grumbled. "Are you even going to be surprised if the sun collapses?"
His surprised expression turned amused as he thought for a moment. "Let's see, based on the age of our sun, it would take another 3 billion years to actually die. So yeah, I'd be surprised if it suddenly collapses now."
Raki stared at her for a while, her eyes glazed over from before, and kissed her again.
After this kiss broke, Amon wiped the lipstick off her lips.
"Wait, are you wearing make-up just to fuck me?"
Raki didn't say anything this time. So Amon walked to the middle of the room and pushed her to the bed instead.
"Remember.." he said. "You made the first move."
He nodded slowly.