Me, Bitterness And Happiness

This Feeling Hasn't Changed

On the way home, Angel did not make a sound.he preferred to look outside and contemplate. Exel who was driving did not dare to open his voice. Of course he was very familiar with the person they saw at the hotel earlier. The past of the girl next to him. Seeing the two's gaze that was shocked but doused longing, made Exel's hope as if breaking up just like that, because until now he still hoped to win the heart of the woman beside him.

Angel several times let out a long sigh and it was heard by Exel. Thought the girl was raging. And his mood was in a rage.

Angel Pov's

I don't know what kind of response I have to show now.surprised? happy? saddened? Pissed off? just ordinary? or grateful? The point is that the impromptu meeting really made me feel like a confused fool who wants to express what.

I even took a deep breath many times to ease the turmoil in my heart that seemed to be about to explode.

God, why do I have to see him again? why should we see you again? My mind is continuous.

All this time even I've been feeling fine and used to being without him.

Matthew, yes that name now fills my mind. In that fleeting glance, I saw him getting taller and his adult aura was very visible. Of course, the charm is also more attractive. Is this the reason my heart started beating so fast? What exactly have I kept longing for her?

I shook my head as if to throw away that thought. I can't possibly miss him. Because to me our story is only a story of the past and will not be repeated again. Yes, it's just the past, although the pain is still there but the story will not be repeated.

seriously daydreaming, I didn't realize the car had stopped right in front of the house. I was shocked when Exel patted me gently on the shoulder.

"hey... Angelo. We have arrived " Exel said and surprised me.

"oh.i.iyaa.thank you xel.be careful on the road" I said stammered.after I got out of the exel car without telling the man to stop by. right now my mood and my mind are not okay, so I think it's better to just go home.

Arriving inside, I passed by my mother who had just come from the kitchen. He brought a cup of tea. Maybe he'll check out the resto's earnings today or something. I just greeted Mom for a while and then went into the room. I decided to clean myself up to calm my mind a little.

After taking a shower I immediately diverted my mind by reopening the tasks of the students, although it was actually very difficult to focus but I had to be able to. I don't want to go back to remembering the sweetness and bitterness of romance in the past.

up to an hour sitting in front of the laptop, in fact now tears just slide from the corner of my eyes. it turns out my heart is easy to shake and not so strong.

"no Angel, you can't be like this. Brother Matthew is just a piece of the story in your life and it was in the past" I murmured to myself.

"You can't miss him. You should be angry, upset and disappointed. You're just betting on the past. Just a bet" I continued with both hands clenched so as to withstand the turmoil of feelings that seemed to overflow.

"Yes, now there is only a sense of disappointment and anger left. It just doesn't exist anymore" I'm trying to have a dialogue with myself to believe in my heart that there's nothing left after a separation a few years ago.

Until the morning before I had trouble closing my eyes, I had difficulty sleeping and continued to breathe a long sigh.

Angel Pov End's

Not much different from Angel, Matthew also since his arrival to the Hotel earlier, carrying a million feelings in his heart. Between nervous, happy, happy, doubtful and unsure. But the magnitude of the longing made Matthew immediately come to the MB Hotel after knowing the whereabouts of Angel from the conversation of Mama Vita and the restaurant service this morning. Although the intention is just to see from a distance far enough, at least miss it a little can be treated later.

But his arrival there actually makes his feelings disappointed and sad. The girl he missed for eight years, he found was with a man, even though there was no friendly treatment, but from the affectionate call pinned by the man seemed to indicate the two were in a serious relationship.

Matthew with all his might turned his steps and headed home. In his room, he was only able to suppress all the deep feelings of longing. Now replaced with feelings of sadness and disappointment.

Amidst his feelings of disappointment, there was still a slight lack of confidence in Matthew in Angel and Exel's relationship. Eventually he contacted Leo the son of Assistant Dad Marcel who also became his assistant. Leo has been working for him for two years since he was in Berlin, Germany.

"Please find out the full info about Exel" tell him when the phone has been connected to Leo.

"........"

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Matthew just turns off the call without hearing Leo's answer again.

"Sweetheart, I'll make sure you're mine. I won't let another man have you but me"

matthew's monologue with a passionate feeling. He stared at the beautiful carving of Angel's face which is still the wallpaper of his phone. Until the night of the morning, Matthew was only really able to sleep when approaching four in the morning.

This morning, at Angel's residence, she was making a Threesome Video call with Noval and Exel. The three make sure to re-prepare for a surprise for a short night. Everything is ready 70% now just wait for the birthday cake to be decorated and the food that will be finished is prepared about an hour before the event starts.

While Angel's other task is to try to invite Bestie to be taken to the MB Hotel and previously drove the girl to the XI salon to do treatment there. Angel felt this would not be easy, considering his best friend was a very noisy person. It is certain that he will ask a lot of questions before accepting or rejecting Angel's invitation.

The current Noval Residence

the man took a few long breaths. While occasionally also seeing a diamond sneak in a small blue box dongker.he feelings are now between nervous, impatient and happy. Until Maria his mother looked smiling at her son who would soon propose to a girl to be a wife and daughter-in-law for him and the husband.

"Have, do not worry so. sure everything is fine and smooth" said Maria while rubbing gently Noval's back after seeing the look of anxiety on her son's face.

"Yes mom. I just feel like time is going a little slow. I'm already impatient" Noval said with a fluffy smile.

Maria only shook her head to see her impatient son.

On the other hand, at the moment. Bestie is busy taking care of all her work that is piling up because she is doing a recap of the end of the month report. Bestie worked at a media company with a position as secretary two. In his office, he needed two secretaries.

Just before eight in the morning, Angel suddenly contacted him asking to meet at lunch. Even Angel said that he had asked permission from his Boss directly so that today was given a half-day leave. There are important matters that cannot be delayed, Angel reasoned. Although overwhelmed with feelings of confusion and wonder, but bestie still professionally complete her work.

Meanwhile, at Matthew's house this morning was also the arrival of the assistant. Leo came to the house early in the morning, wanting to see Matthew. Leo and Matthew were the same age outside the office they were used to calling names only. They are good friends, considering also Leo's father has served a long time as an assistant to Marcel and is considered a family.

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"Matt, are you inside? It's Leo" call Leo from outside Matthew's room

"come in Leo" replied Matthew from the inside.

as soon as Leo entered he could see Matthew still wearing a bathrobe.it seemed like the man had just finished bathing.

"All you want to find out about the boy is here" Leo said and kept some of his last night's paperwork.

"Thanks Bro's. You are indeed reliable" Matthew praised Leo who never let him down.

Leo soon passed from there, still accompanying Dad Marcel to an internal meeting at the office. Leo's father retired a year ago. Now he is the one who will replace the task to be an assistant in the Aerospace family office.

In his room, Matthew impatiently opened the document that Leo brought earlier.he seemed focused and seriously turned back the sheet in the document. Until arriving at the last page, a smile full of happiness adorned the face of his face, I don't know what the look of the smile.