Me, Bitterness And Happiness

You're Not Alone

Angel Pov's

I am currently looking in the room. Two days ago I decided to go back to school. I had to get up and get out of the black hole that was always scaring me, because by continuing this will not make me one hundred percent recover that there is even more difficult to interact with many people, especially men. Brother Matthew is right that I must fight my fear, dare to go out to fight the violence of the outside world, because difficult problems are not only like the things I feel there are even more painful than me. The world will get harder if I keep quieting it. Remembering that man, it feels like my heart is always diligent in exercising. Imagining all the attention and support so far somehow now makes me miss always wanting to repeat our moment together. However, the name Laras suddenly crossed my mind. She's a beautiful and graceful girl very much in tune when juxtaposed with Matthew's sister. I was always discouraged to remember that.

Angel pov end's.

At this time, Matthew arrived first at Angel's house, from the car he saw Mama Vita, Bestie and Noval were chatting on the porch of the house. The arrival of his car had become the center of attention of the three people. Matthew came down with a box of Angel's favorite brownies.

"Sore aunt, Bestie, Noval" said Matthew while kissing Vita's mom's hand.

"Now, Matthew"

"So afternoon"

" Come on in, son. Want to see Angel?" Ask mama vita. Actually it's a rhetorical question because Matthew's definitely there to see Angel.

"Yes aunty, if you don't mind. I want to talk and take Angel back to school. I hope he dares to go out and meet the crowd, not to be afraid of his situation anymore.

"May son, but slowly. Aunty also often chatted about this with him. Bestie and Noval also yesterday have started to invite him to study in the park next to the house. Praise God he wants to. Thank you son, this is also a lot of your intervention" said mama vita sincerely after sitting on the sofa while stroking Matthew's shoulder.

"I didn't help tan much. More comes from the efforts of Angel himself who wants to quickly recover from his trauma". Reply Matthew with a sincere smile then handed the brownie box to Mama Vita. His arrival was indeed greeted with a warm smile by mama Vita and Bestie. Noval is just flat-faced. He actually still questioned all the attention of Matthew and 3M friends all this time. If the matter about Matthew's help at that time, it shouldn't have continued like this. Does this guy like his best friend or is there some other purpose? Looks like he needs to remind Matthew of Laras' existence as his lover. Noval doesn't want Angel to be branded as the guy's girlfriend. Realizing Noval's expression, Bestie took the initiative to take the man home.

"Tan, let's go home first. It's late afternoon, I haven't had a bath" that's just the reason she, anyway since when bestie visited Angel's house using the time limit usually also do not remember the time even spent there. He just did not want Noval to make an awkward atmosphere and make Angel depressed when he saw Noval continue to put on a face of dislike towards Matthew.

"Aren't you looking forward to dinner?" ask mama Vita.

"Not to tan. Come on Val, don't be dumb. Salaman first" Bestie accidentally pulled Noval's hand and parted with Mama Vita then dragged by force Noval to step outside the house. Mama Vita, just shakes funny look at the action of Bestie who always everything with Noval.

"You want to talk to Angel? mama vita's question resuscitated Matthew from his view out of the house following the steps of the two people. It was not that he was unaware of Noval's gaze, it was just that he didn't care much about her.

"By tan."

"Come, auntie take her to her room. You know, he's hard to take out when he's taken a shower" Take mama vita to Angel's room. When he gets in front of the door, he knocks on her daughter's bedroom door.

Tok.tokk....

"Son, can you, mama in?"

"Just enter ma, not locked" Angel said from the inside. Mama Vita turned the door handle and saw her daughter again seriously reading the textbook.

"Look, who's coming" Angel turned her head and immediately put on a smile after learning Matthew visited her again this afternoon. He got out of his chair and greeted Matthew.

"Hi brother"

"Hi, big brother doesn't bother you right" Angel replied with a slob and a shy smile. The two stared at each other as if there was a longing there.

"If so mama stay yes" mama vita's intrusion made their eyes on each other.

"Yes tan"

"Yes ma"

Mama Vita came out while opening the door of her son's room wide. That was one form of his vigilance. Believe we can give to people but be vigilant still must join.

"How about today" Matthew asked, starting the conversation

"all good and I've decided, brother, that I'm going back to school next week and so on" heard that, there is a sense of pleasure and amazement in Matthew towards the girl in front of him because he has the spirit to return to struggling with world violence after experiencing events that shook his soul.

"have you thought about it seriously? Don't make sister's advice yesterday for you to decide so quickly. You really feel ready, hem?" Matthew asked softly while looking fixedly at the face of the girl in front of him. Being stared at like that made Angel feel ashamed. Matthew smiled broadly and felt anxious.

"I am ready and sure, brother. I felt that what you said was true, that if I continued to hide until forever I would be afraid to meet people there. Then I have to push myself to dare to come out and continue to live my life" Angel explained with honesty. Hearing that, Matthew's hand lifted and stroked the top of Angel's head gently.

"this is good progress for you. Remember you are not alone. There are so many people who support and love you, ha.." Now Matthew's hand turns to hold Angel's shoulder as if channeling power to the girl.

"sister included? love me too?" whether we realize it or not, Angel asks such a question.

"Sure" replied Matthew convinced. 'even more than that' he continued that only expressed in the heart. They look at each other with feelings that only they themselves know. The greeting from the door made them startled, actually just Angel, because Matthew felt ordinary with the presence of others.

"Well, it looks like we came at the wrong time" said Melvin, who now folds his hands at the door and mocks two people inside.

"yuk, mar. We just go back, it looks like we're bothering them" Melvin continued. But Martin did not respond instead to greet Angel who is now blushed with the words Melvin.

"Hi Angel"

"Hi brother"

Mama Vita appears and advises them to chat in the living room. Angel agreed because she was determined to dare to go out and meet the crowd.

"Hey rabit rabit, how are you?"

"as you see. Melvin's question was answered with a funny smile by Angel because Noval's affectionate call was actually on the fox by Melvin. If only the noval were still there he would probably protest and be angry at Melvin.

"Sorry, I heard a little, you want to go back to school, deck?" it was Martin's turn to ask.

"Yes kah. I started missing school and friends.

"thankfully. Brother is happy if you dare to take the road still stepping like this deck. Spirit yes, you are not alone. Many care about you"

"Yes brother. Thank you"

mama Vita showed up with a drink for them there.

"Sorry tan, it's been troublesome" said Matthew sungkan.

"Thank you tan already want to be bothered by guests do not know themselves like us. But I'm still happy because I saw his sweet aunt's daughter beat all kinds of sugar" said Melvin, whose goal is only to tempt Angel to keep cheerful. Mama vita just smiled at melvin's words just now.

"Already, silent, from earlier you are noisy mute, you do not see the Angel has blushed, his face has been reddened. Thank you tan" continued Martin who also teased Angel.

after a long chat, mama vita finally invited them to dinner together.an hour after they decided to go home. Matthew was the last person to be with Angel. Matthew's hand again stroked Angel's head crest affectionately and said,

"Tonight's a beautiful bobo, a beautiful dream and waking up early tomorrow should be even more vigorous. See you at school"

Angel nodded and blushed. Tonight, he would definitely sleep with a smile on his lips.