Me, Bitterness And Happiness

Because Now You are Mine

Three days passed, the activities at school continued to run normally. Approximately 3 days, more precisely in the following week Angel School will carry out the Midterm Exam. Therefore, he really prepared himself well including pursuing material lag. There was one thing that kept bothering his mind at the moment that was the answer that Matthew was waiting for from him. In two days he would meet Matthew and tell him the answer at the school rooftop at Matthew's request on the beach. During the week waiting for answers, they will not give each other news, both through short messages and also mobile phones. Not only that, in school as much as possible they avoid not to meet. Though Matthew's actually the most tortured person here. For three days he was unclear. At home even he was suddenly very spoiled and asked mom Helena whether it was ready to accept the daughter-in-law who made mom Helena and dad Marcel widen their eyes to hear the calculation of their son who was considered ngawur. Life is still riding the same old man but already intend to bring a daughter-in-law. Dad Marcel had thought his son had started Sinting because of free association.

Angel was the same, as long as they did not tell each other, He felt that something was missing from him. honestly he misses but prestige to be honest let alone that he remembers that Matthew is still in a ceremony with Laras. This was one of the reasons he had trouble deciding on the right answer. He wants to be honest about his heart, but is afraid of hurting other women regardless of what form of relationship Matthew and Laras are currently in, Angel does not want to be a destroyer of other people's relationships.

Angel Pov's

It's been five days since Matthew's brother expressed his feelings on the beach. Now I am worried, nervous, doubtful and missing. Now is one more day I have to give him the answer he asked for. If I can be honest like a teenager in general, feel the vibration of the opposite sex, blush and misbehavior when nearby, longing when far away but do not dare to express the taste. That's how I felt about Matthew from the beginning. When she intervened to save me from the abuse some time ago until it was always there during the healing process, it made me feel very comfortable with her being by my side. But I do not deny the feeling of anxiety that my feelings are getting deeper because the person who is currently the lover of another woman. Her gentle treatment and attention further made my comfortable feeling so deep. Hearing his confession at that time, when he drove with the sun to the contest in witness to the roar of the waves, Honestly I was very happy, it turned out that feeling I did not have alone, in fact he also felt the same. The feeling of nervous, anxious and indecisive was more in control of me at that time, because I was shocked also on the other side he was Big Brother's Beloved. I feel inferior and insecure when comparing myself to his Beloved who from all sides is very far above.

Tonight, it seems to be long, since then I have had trouble closing my eyes because I was worried about the answer I said tomorrow and how the attitude I had to show so as not to be obvious if I missed him so much this week.

Angel Pov end's.

Saturday after the division of the room and the exam number (SMA Jaya conducts the exam with a student exchange system between classes per level) Bestie, Noval and Angel get a different room. They'll split the room for a week following the test. Every moment the clang of time passed, Angel's feelings were increasingly hit by nervousness which led to his attitude not focusing when chatting. He daydreamed more until several times surprised by the sound of Bestie's bells.

"You're why the hell you've been fighting all this time" asked Bestie with squeaking eyes.

" Hey, well, Friday again" continued Bestie when she realized Angel had not heard the call since.

"Eh, sorry Bes. I was thinking about the exam" Elak Angel covered her nervousness. Worried that his friend to know the cause of him is always daydreaming because the situation he is experiencing at this time he did not tell his two friends.

"Again kangen someone, for not meeting this week?" This time Noval asked in a joke mode but Angel actually responded seriously.

"What the hell, besides who misses Matthew's brother. I didn't miss him. Noval's question made Angel flutter until accidentally gave an answer that actually seemed to represent his current feelings.

"Hehhh, to be honest also you are finally. Who asked you if you miss Matthew or not" said Bestie with the corner of her lips raised while Noval put on a flat face after hearing Angel's answer.

"Let's tell you what's going on? Tumben you two haven't been seen together this week. I mean Brother Matthew did not even visit your house" said Bestie curious because of his surprise, unlike usual Matthew was very attentive just this week even did not look at the trunk of his nose.

"Not now, but then" Angel tried to keep it a secret until she would choose the right time to tell a story.

"Do you like her?" Noval's statement that was so right on target made Angel just silent and lowered his head. The bell rang, Angel finally breathed a sigh of relief despite the intimidating and curious gaze of her two best friends. When opening the phone when there is an incoming message from Matthew.

'I'm waiting at Rooftop. Noval will take you here' the contents of a short message from Matthew just make Angel confused, why Noval who drove him there. Does noval know? When he was about to ask, the noval first invited him up to the top floor of the school building.

"Come, I'll take you there. Don't get confused. Then just think about your explanation that we are waiting for." said Noval who saw the confused face of Angel and more confused is Bestie who is also ordinary at this time. It seems like the two best friends already know, but still want to hear Angel's honesty. But from where they knew, did Matthew tell, it felt impossible.

"You wait in the car, here's the key, I'll go upstairs first. Not long" Noval explained to Bestie while handing over the car keys answered with a nod and a thin smile by Bestie. When he reached the rooftop door, Noval told Angel to call him or Bestie if anything happened. Angel nodded in understanding. After making sure Angel walked toward Matthew, Noval returned to the parking lot and waited there with Bestie.

At this moment, Angel was standing right behind Matthew. The position of the man was facing the School Square with both hands inserted into his pants pocket. From behind his sturdy shoulders, Matthew's tall body and athletic body dazzled Angel. Longing and nervousness dominated the girl's current feelings. For some reason he was suddenly mute and unable to call Matthew. Before finally Matthew's voice interrupted his heartbeat getting hoozed and not since when the man now turned to face him. Their distance is so close.

"Have you arrived, hem?" matthew's question was so subtle. His gaze was so deep it pierced into Angel's heart. Seeing that Angel was nervous and hurriedly turned her head in the other direction.

"iiiy.aa Brother" replied Angel nervously.

"I miss" Honestly Matthew

"the same with you" He continued. Angel was out of breath. His face was heating up because of the blushing.

"My brother,... I'm.." Angel was confused to express his heart especially after hearing Matthew's sweet call to him, he was getting wrong.

"Why, hemm?" Matthew asked gently with a look that could not be separated from the face of Ayu Angel.

"I'm confused, I'm afraid my feelings right now are just a little amazed by my brother" actually this is what Angel wants to say, he's afraid of misrecognizing his feelings for Matthew.

"What do you feel right now and during our time together yesterday baby, as long as we don't have any news during the week, huh? Don't worry, whatever it is, just say it" Matthew tried to ask calmly so that Angel could freely convey his heart.

"i'm comfortable with my sister, don't want her to go far, miss, miss, worry, and worry, and" for this one, Angel nervously says. He's back down.

"and what, honey?" Matthew asked with happy eyes after hearing some of Angel's confession

"I'm Jealous, but I also feel inappropriate, sister's boyfriend, Kak Laras is much better than me, she's beautiful, and very elegant, why do you even like me?" Honest Angel with a soft voice for feeling inappropriate. Hearing that Matthew mixed feelings between happy, warm and anxious towards his girl. Both of her hands held the two sides of Angel's cheeks with a soft and deep gaze.

" Listen baby, me and Laras are over. There is no more love between us. And for the feeling you feel it's not just awe, baby. It is a form of feeling, liking, affection and love. Thank you for your honesty. I love you too Angel Abichail" Matthew explained at length which makes Angel only able to wink funny. An anxious Matthew immediately pulled Angel into his warm embrace.

"So now you're my girlfriend, you hear baby?" matthew said with a happy feeling and got closer to hugging his girl. Angel looked up while saying in confusion.

"But I haven't said yes, I don't necessarily want to" Angel replied with a frown.

"But I don't accept the rejection dear" Matthew said with a deep look

"Then why should I wait for my answer" Angel was upset to hear Matthew's answer

"Because I want to know your true feelings baby. Although I actually know you have the same feelings" Matthew said confidently

"But I can ask you something, brother?" ask Angel again.

"You ask me what hem is, Let alone one, more is also possible" said Matthew again.

"If we're going out, let no one know except our friends, can you?"

"Why?"

"I don't want to be silent with all the big brother fans, let alone the fans of Kak Laras they must think I snatch the big brother" replied Angel who is now tucked in anxiety.

"OK doesn't matter. Brother there's also one request and you have to promise to do it?"

"what brother?" Ask Angel curiously

"Don't smile and be close to other guys besides me" Matthew said

"why" asked Angel confused

"Because now you're mine" Matthew's unequivocal answer made Angel's feelings warm up happily and made her misbehave both cheeks now as red as Chery Tomatoes. It was so cute in Matthew's eyes.