Me, Bitterness And Happiness

I'm Falling in Love

After passing the first day of the MOS drama, I had a hard night of sleep. Until moving to your room on the grounds of missing sleeping together with her. Mama just greeted with a smile full of shade. It seems like my mother knew I was not concentrating, my body language that could not calm was very obvious.

"Why son? What are you thinking, hem?" The feeling is very calm if under these circumstances, hugged by mama while being loved and asked for news this day. I began to tell all the events that happened in school, including the punishment for making poetry and what made me more hesitant to the story was the owner of two eyeballs who did not know what his name was, having stolen my heartbeat even while talking to my mom, my heart still felt like we were face-to-face. Two minutes into the story, my mom still hasn't responded, I'm starting to worry that she's going to get angry. But apparently, my mother was crying and made me very surprised and began to think, is there something wrong with what I just told you? While hiccups and a voice that raucous mama gave a response.

"Son, you're already big and mature yeah apparently, the new feeling yesterday mama same late papa you're waiting for you to come between us. Son, look, what you feel is an interest and liking towards the opposite sex, that is, this mama's daughter has started to grow up, slowly starting to feel love. Remember yes mama's message, must be able to take care of yourself from the association. Mama only has you now and you're my reason for staying this far, mama doesn't forbid you to date. But you still have to take care of yourself, son". Mama gave advice with all her sincere feelings very illustrated by her smooth and calm voice, even though she was crying. While I also cry and can only nod my head while immersing my face in his arms. Finally the night dissolved with the dream that brought our sleep more soundly.

The next morning, when I woke up I found my mom looking at me but still not letting go.

"morning son, let's pray early in the morning". Greet your mom with a big smile. I replied with a nod and while peeking at his left cheek. After praying, Mom and I went to the kitchen, he immediately prepared the ingredients and supplies for making cakes and cooking spices in our stall located in front of the house while I prepared breakfast by making two servings of fried rice and egg omelets. It's been a long time habit of us to share tasks like this, it feels good I can learn how a woman actually performs the task in the kitchen. Mama taught me many valuable lessons from all her efforts and patience during this time. Although sometimes I still often hear slander from neighbors for mama still continues. Mama is often accused of being a flirtatious woman, secretly flirting with people's husbands to support her life. Very sad, while people do not even know how you have to fight against all the sadness, pain and bitterness during this time. Struggling alone without the figure of a husband but never give up just rely on the power. From there I realized that I should be able to become a strong woman like my mother when I grow up.

Today at school, Bestie and Noval seem to be hostile to each other and both put on fierce faces. Since the morning of the cold war with each other through the gaze. I was actually confused but chose to ignore, after all they were used to like this. When there was a break in MOS activities to enjoy Snack, I chose to sit under a tree beside the library. I began to seem to think, how the words I should write to assemble into poetry, because it was time to stay another day, MOS only done three days, only, I don't want to be punished again if the poem isn't finished. Confused I daydreamed and then either came to my senses and did not start writing poems under the title

Vibrates...

not about long distance

or a fortress that limits

but my heart is shaking

it was you who unlocked my heart and mind.

and now I found you..

Are you shaking too...

It was that short, but I felt that this poem was already very representative of my current feelings. I closed the book, closing my eyes I inhaled a deep breath of air then released it slowly through my mouth. When I opened my eyes I was shocked. What I found at this moment made my heart fall. Since when was he in front of me lying down, shutting his eyes on the garden chair was only five steps away from where I was sitting. Am I being too serious or am daydreaming until I don't realize it. I was stunned, it seemed like he was sleeping soundly, the wind hit his face and hair until several hairs fell over his forehead, for some reason I felt the atmosphere around me cool but I suddenly stiffened. I was fascinated again. Is he the most wanted one told me this morning while marching. Since morning, several students have been talking about the popular man in the school who is considered by all women, he is naughty and arrogant, but apparently, his beautiful appearance actually defeats all attitudes and actions of his arrogance horn.

"Hey little rabit, come in. Why are you bengong there, want to be possessed"? call Noval to disperse my daydreams and my gaze now turns to the noval who puts on his rancid smile.

"i'm possessed because you're a demon. I really like people" I replied with annoyance.

"Whispering"!! This is not a forest, if you want debate find competition there"! I was suddenly nervous, apparently my voice and Noval had awakened the sleeping prince. Now he looks at me sharply, and I can only bow down. In my heart I protest, why am I the only one who saw like that, Noval is also one of the perpetrators. Not long after he left there still yawning, maybe he was still sleepy. I suddenly felt sorry.

"Cie apparently you were daydreaming here because of that hoodlum huh? Tempted little rabbit? Look at you blushing, hehehe". See, Noval is now mocking me, instead of me serving my friend Tengil, I decided to go to class before the committee punished me again because it was too late to go back to the MOS room.

"Hei Little Rabit, wait for me dong. How to play stay, I was here to call you". I just kept walking while covering my ears as if I didn't want to hear Noval's scream. Noval who felt neglected immediately ran after me. The second day of MOS, I ended it with a crazy heart race. Is tomorrow like this? I can't wait for tomorrow. It turns out that mama was right, the more we grow up, the more interested and challenged we will be with the new situation we find. And this is one of them, when I vibrate to find my first love.