Love is Different

Chapter 73. My Life After Breaking Up

After everything was over, Adi really no longer contacted me. Even when Aunt Ratna asked me to go to her house to pick up clothes that did not end up in use, Father and Mama did not want to linger - long and alkaline - stale again with them. It was painful for my parents because their children were not appreciated by their families at that time. 

"Thank you, Doctor, for coming home.." Answer Aunt Ratna.

"Yes, same mother.." Father without looking at Aunt Ratna and immediately entered the car when after accompanying me to the house of Adi. 

"Almost first... Gaek left because there was a need." Answer Aunt Ratna.

"No ma'am, we'll just go home.." Sahut Mama's.

"Let's aunt.." I answered while smiling.

"Oh yaudah that way.. Yes, heart - heart.." 

Yes Adi's house at that time was still a complex with me. I don't understand why he dared to end the relationship when his house was still very close to me. We could even cross each day. 

"No longer should Ri play here.." Said Father.

I nodded.

"Don't Sir, who knows if they're a match. Want how the obstacles if the soul mate is very soul mate aja Pak. How were we doing?" Sahut Mama's. 

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A month later I graduated from koas, so I became a young doctor. After Graduation that I hoped Adi would come, but he did not come and reasoned because of work. At that time, he promised to come even though we were no longer dating. Finally I really lost contact with Adi until finally I was inducted into a young doctor Adi did not know. After I Promised the Young Doctor, I started to get busy in the hospital. The first part of me at that time was Son, falling mentally awake when I first entered into a koas in the difficult part. Children are very difficult to understand if sick, not to mention every drug should know first his age and weight. Because it should not be less dose or excess dose of the drug. Especially when there is KLB Dengue Fever in Children. Patients piling up in the ward. Even I can only sleep at most 5 hours a day. The hospital is also around, not only in the Campus Hospital, but also in the Cikini area and Cibinong area. Sometimes when I was silent myself I remember Adi and see photos of us a long time ago that I still keep on my phone and laptop. My psyche is so shaky. I don't even accept any men who want to come near me. I really felt like there was no one else to replace Adi at that time. No one else could understand me at that time. It feels lazy to think of normal men and gay men. Much the same. 

"R... Do you have a task?" Lisa asked who surprised me while daydreaming.

"Eh.. That's it. A little more done.. You been?"

"Not yet, help dong." 

"That's a lot of material can be taken from the same journal book yaa Lis."

"Just.. Help me dong. My case is hard.."

I also helped Lisa to do her job. Luckily the task was a lot, so it could make me forget about Adi because I was busy. Maybe if I wasn't busy every day I would cry remembering it constantly. 

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At the beginning of 2019, I still remember Adi. Even when I was alone, I was still crying. Until I was traumatized for a relationship that was the same tribe as Adi back then. My days at that time were just busy with studying, taking care of patients and focusing on being a doctor. So that one day I would have my own money and not ask money with my parents for my wedding. And I want to find a man who is ready for the financial cost of marriage, not like Adi yaa even though he is already S2 but the savings for marriage alone does not exist at all, he said, still asking with his parents at the time.