Love is Different

Chapter 72. Finished

November of 2018 was dark for me. I was struggling to graduate to become a young doctor, but my marriage failed. A plan is just a plan. This time I really ruined it. The place I complained at that time was only Allah SWT. 4 years I survived with Adi was in vain. I survived only to heal her and make her re-like women fail everything, messy and messy. After the Adi family canceled the event just like that, I also contacted Adi to meet and talk alone. But Adi always avoids, even discussions to stay together even if he does not want to try again. What is the point of these 4 years? I think Adi really loves me even though I know his lust feelings are only for men. Or maybe I was just the one who covered up his abnormality as a rainbow? I feel so sad, I feel in vain. I always remember the times I was with him, laughing, crying, singing together in the car, confiding in each other. Even Adi was always worried about me if I didn't get home until nightfall. Queen Ponakan Adi who has been very close to me, even he already loves me very much. I feel like I have a beautiful and smart child. Adi's little family like Mama, Papa and his brother who had accepted me so much were all destroyed just because they did not want to give money to my family. 

"I want to see Brother." I sent a short message to Adi.

"When?" Reply Adi quickly. 

"When is it usually? I'll take care of the letters tomorrow for graduation to campus." 

"Oh that.. Yaudah at the gas station Ka Adi used to fill gasoline only Ri.." 

"Hmm okay.."

"Oh yes Ri, Ka Adi will next week want Singapore. So Ka Adi wants to ask for the same sick letter Om can not ya?" 

"How many days?"

"3 days to Ri. You see, if Ka Adi permission is cut Ka Adi money later from the office. So if you give me a sick letter, it's not, because it's sick."

"Jum'at Departure?"

"Depart from Thursday Night Ri. On Monday home. So Ka Adi permits Friday, Saturday and Monday." 

"Yaudah I'll try to get the sick letter for Ka Adi ya.."

How foolish I was still to help him lie with his office 

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When I asked you to make a letter of illness, you also still want to give it to Adi. I salute the Father, even though it has hurt his son, the Father still wants to be kind. Even though it was not polite even he asked her through me not to come directly to my house. Ah stupid..

The next day I brought her a letter and with a thumping heart I even felt like I wanted to be angry at that moment. But it turns out that when I met Adi, the feeling was gone...

When I reached the gas station, I saw Adi waiting in the car. And I went up to him and knocked on his car. Adi opened the car door immediately.

"Hi, how are you?" Ask Adi like a stale base.

"Hi also Ka... Yes Alhamdulillah good."

I smiled and held back tears.

"It's Ka.." I gave him a sick letter from my father.

"Thank you, yeah.." Adi smiled.

"Healthy - Healthy Ka.." 

I wept. Yeah I couldn't hold back any more tears when Adi hugged me. Adi was surprised and immediately stroked my back gently.

"Eh, how are you crying? Yes, yes it is.. Maybe we haven't made a fool of Ri." 

I hugged Adi tightly. It doesn't feel like letting go.

"Eh if you cry ugly tau. This is a shame later seen people, later thought Ka Adi doing Riri again." 

Then we let go of each other's embrace. 

"I don't know why it's all like this Ka.." I answered while wiping my tears.

"Udah.. We can still be sisters, right?" Adi replied while wiping my tears. 

I nodded and sighed. 

"What time is it? Riri's not late?" Ask Adi while looking at the clock.

"Judah I am first Ka.." I answered while turning on the motor.

"Yes, heart - heart Ri. Thanks ya..." Adi replied, waving her hand.

I also passed away leaving Adi. On the way I cried, it really messed me up. At that time I was taking care of my graduation, but I was not able to enter as a young doctor because my exam was repeated. During the exam at that time, I was stressed - the stress of taking care of the wedding was just the way in place. Even learning is not focused. 

Once on campus, I took care of the letters. I called Adi again.

"Ka.. We can't be the same, can we?" My toot. 

"Omm, have you met me, right? Mama Papa also would not agree if Ka Adi with Riri.. Than Ka Adi in the scribble of the Family Card.. We better be friends, Ri.." Reply Adi.

It was painful to read the message. How can a relationship that has been so close for 4 years be destroyed and hated in just an instant. I am sad to not be able to comply with the wishes of the lateumah eyang princess, Padahale who would love if I could marry Adi. It was all just a dream. 

"Yes, I can't move on that easily.. If we keep the same - just can't Ka?"

I was like a beggar. I was so stupid back then, just because I was so sorry for her that I begged like there was no pride in her as a woman. 

"R... If we keep the same - there will be no end. Kan Riri if you want to tell me what - can still go to Ka Adi. Or Ka Adi disappeared so that Riri can move on?"

"Yes, don't do that, either.. I need a ka process to really - actually lupain Ka Adi..."

"Yaudah, slow down... Spirit drops!! We will soon be in koas. So you need to focus more.." 

Adi was still encouraging me, again - again I cried not because of that time. Really painful it has to end like this.