Love is Different

Chapters 1. Halfheartedly

At that time my heart was upset with Dhito, because again - again he made me emotional. We just got back together. But it felt like I was no longer comfortable dating Dhito, making me more emotional. 

"Do you want what? It's hard to tell. It's bad I'm right now with you Dhit." 

"Just yesterday we reversed Ri again, why so suddenly the emotion again gini anyway you? I was wrong, were you?"

"Banyakk. Keep lying to me about cigarettes. Keep going!" 

"Yes, I was wrong... Sorry Ri. I'm stressed out a lot of work. That's why I keep smoking. Please understand me this time." 

"Oh yeah??? Should you know someone who smokes? Never want to think about me or think about me.. Keep thinking to yourself, Dhit....."

"God is not Ri.. Why are you so like this? The more days you do not because of his emotions the same as me. Plus I have a lot of work now. We are equally tired, you are busy and tired of college, I am also busy and tired of work. Let's dong together - same understand."

"You know when do I know you who are always smoking or an alibi about smoking? There are people who run stress does not smoke, there are people who are closer to God, more diligent worship, there are those who pursue their positive hobbies. It's your base that won't stop. No need for an alibi. Very free I want you to reduce one cigarette every day if you bodo very difficult. Do not seem - will I be the evil yaa always the same emotion you are smoking constantly - continue fainted in a day run out almost 2 packs of cigarettes!" 

"Honestly I'm confused to answer what else Ri, I'm so sorry about you Ri..."

After last Dhito replied to my last BBM chat, I no longer returned the message because I was too emotional to face it. As long as I was in a relationship with Dhito, there was more emotion than peace. I am looking for more mistakes because I was upset when I knew he lied with him always smoking a 2 pack a day. 

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"R...Whoa!!" Call Tami when I'm daydreaming.

"Eh. Yeah why Tam?" Reply jerks.

"Lo why Ri? From that day on I was like a lot of people thinking. Lo kesambet?" 

"Gue again dizzy with Dhito Tam, make his innate emotions when communication with him." 

"Gue was also confused as to how Tam should be... I've been so full of fuss about him for almost a year."

"Especially your relationship broke up right Ri?"

"Yes Tam, actually all this time I've also the same he's like half-hearted wayinnya Tam."

"R.. Don't pity Dhito. If you like it mending already your relationship, rather than getting toxic later fuss continues. It's not good Ri." 

"I think I should find the right time to finish my relationship with Dhito deh Tam. I couldn't come - I broke him up again. I don't have the same with him either."

"That lonya is also still pretending to be affectionate and kind to her. The more you like it, the more it hurts her heart to know Ri." 

True said Tami, if I continue to persist with this relationship. The longer I'll keep hurting Dhito. I have to end it immediately but I have to keep her heart strong after we've really parted ways.

"What's the matter with Dhito again?" The voice of Mily who arrived came to me and Tami.

I also looked towards him. "Hmmm yes Mil." Reply slowly.

"Udah sih than gini keep kelarin aja Ri. Do not make it difficult yourself and do not make people hope that you will continue to be good - well in the future. That I'm sure Dhito expect a lot of the same lo, let alone the story yesterday - yesterday I was the same about him who wants to be serious as you later. Don't Ri, I know him." Mily counsels me like a sister.

I was indeed too evil for Dhito, for almost a year I maintained an unclear relationship because I half-heartedly lived it. Everyone gives advice if I stop for this relationship. But I chose to continue to endure just pity and just give it a chance. Does Dhito know what my heart really is? Or he just pretended not to know so that he continued with me. 

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This time I will tell a story that was not expected to happen in my life. When I was upset about my relationship with Dhito, I met a man - a man who was good, quite tall, glasses, neat and very fragrant. Here's my next story with a new guy: