Love is Different

Chapters 2. Disconnecting

Before I told you about someone named Adi, I was still in a relationship with Dhito at that time. But my relationship with Dhito is on the edge. As if I can no longer be maintained, I no longer want to break up continuously with him. 

Today I entered half a day because it was only 1 course. And today, on September 7, 2013, I broke off my relationship with Dhito. Yep.. I'm really done with Dhito.

The next day after I cried all day because I had cut off my relationship with Dhito, today I want to heal by enjoying lazy time. 

"Ri, where are you today, right?" Ask Mom when I'm busy playing HP.

"Well, where are you going on holiday Gini Ma..." Answer me while lazing - laziness.

"Jaudah is done - dong dong girls are very lazy." It turns out Mama's sarcasm yaa mocked me for seeing me who was lazy - lazy in the recliner. 

"Astaghfirullah yaaaa iyaa patient cake, his name is also tired a full week. Wanted leyeh - leyeh first a little Ma..." My answer.

"Yaudah later if you are not tired of being done - done."

"Hmm yeah..." 

Mama also continued to tidy up the plants outside, and I still still keep chomping - leyeh enjoying a lazy Sunday. 

Dhito still keeps calling me because I asked that we stay friends but we can't be boyfriends anymore. 

"I'm sad actually Ri, can only be friends with you. But I learned to be honest." Dhito sends a chat on BBM.

"Sorry, this is the best thing for us. I can't break anymore but it's completely broken up. Rather than me a headache should the emotions continue to be the same you. Mending became a friend of Dhit... I'm sorry for the same words I said during our courtship yesterday, Oh, Dhit, if you feel offended I'm sorry... Words intentionally or unintentionally." My reply.

"Yeah Ri, I'm sorry too.. Thank you for being such a valuable person for my life for the past few months. May we continue to communicate well Ri." 

"Yes Dhit." I replied briefly, because I did not want to continue - continuing to reply to the message as if there was still a chance for me and him, for us. 

***

"Myth, call dong." I called Mytha because I wanted to confide.

"Yeah now.. I'll go in the room first." Reply Mytha quickly.

"okay."

I called Mytha.

"Hello Assalamualaikum." Answer me on the phone.

"Hello Walaikumsalam Yaaggg.... Why niih?" Mytha replied as if she knew her best friend was in need of a confiding friend.

"Mythhhhh! I broke up with Dhitooooo..." 

"Again?"

"Not again but it's done. It's really finished." 

"It's over? It'll be like a soap opera again."

"Hahaha this is fucking.. Even grimace again ah." 

"Yes anyways you guys are dating already like a sinteron, the continuous connection is not over. I although deket same Dhito and deket same you as well but I actually do not agree if you guys kayak gini, so it's not good kayak aka that's the relationship.." 

"Yeah of yaang... I also do not want to believe it continues the truth, but yes I just do not have the same heart if he broke up later he even sad." 

"You feel like you have to take care of her feelings.With you, I think you even hurt her and hurt yourself. Because you actually don't really love him."

I was silent when Mytha said that, ever since I broke my heart with Yori in 2011, I have been less than kind to men. From Fandi to Dhito I feel like my feelings are really insincere from the heart. Just a status that I live and just as bland as it feels. I could not feel my tears when I heard Mytha's words. 

"Yesang... Hola... You're good, aren't you?" 

"Hm... Oh yes, I'm fine." Answer me while wiping away tears.

"Udah now do not be regretted, in gratitude and most importantly you focus on your lecture. Do not think about romance first, maybe yes maybe your heart actually has not recovered because Yori used to be so you like gini. Throw away your wounded mind and heart, just start to know a new guy. Okay?"

So calm as I confided in Mytha, Mytha is now one of my best friends. Since I was in high school when I started to get upset about Yori and Lani, it made me and her very close. And I am grateful to have a friend as good as Mytha. He was mature enough to advise and calm my confused or sad heart. 

"Thank you so much Myth, you can always be a good listener and also be a proper reminder of me. I am grateful to know you and until now we can be friends. May our friendship last until old and also with Pran."

Pran is one of my best friends and Mytha too. I will tell you about them in my novel.