Love And Wounds (Bara And Selin)

Chapter 12: Cry

Anet had lost patience after hearing Selin's outrageous remarks. "Lo why the hell? Come immediately angry. Don't worry, you never care about their career! Why be a sewot! It must be because of Barra, right?!"

"Why bring Barra!" Selin said he didn't want to lose.

Juna let out a long sigh, since his hand was used to cover Jeno's ears so as not to hear Selin and Anet's conversation which was quite rough. "Why would Bun work there? Why has Mother always denied us being a model there?" Juna asked softly with a gentle look.

Selin gave a look from the face of Juna who was so peaceful. "Because Mommy does not want to see you the same people who have hurt Mother."

"Emang Om Barra is wrong what is the same Mother? Why did you never tell me anything about us? How do we want to keep him away if we don't know anything. Who is this Om Barra?" Ask Juna gently.

"Hiks, hiks, hiks," Instead of answering Selin even sobbed.

"Why do you always deny Juna the same Jeno school? Or an artist? Why Mother always forbid we are famous by the outside community? Though it is all the ideals of Juna the same Jeno. Whys? Why can't anyone else, why can't we?"

"Hiks, hyx, hyx. Because Mother is afraid you are ashamed," replied Selin cf. Iir.

Juna's gaze began to glaze honestly he was a little disappointed by Selin's reply. "Then what? Is it because of our unclear identity? We don't have a father?. Why Bun if there is no Dad, for us Mother is enough. We never feel ashamed because we have a Mother, or maybe Mother who is ashamed of having our kayak children?"

"Yuna!" Shouted Selin full of pain.

Plaque!

"Aware lo! On what basis do you have the right to yell at children! Don't because there's a personal problem you can vent to them." Said Anet gasping for breath as he held back the anger.

Selin slowly froze her outstretched hand to touch her cheek that had just been slapped by Anet. Tears were unceasingly drenching his face. Selin slowly got out of his seat and walked out.

"Cell! Where are you going?!" Shouted Anet who was not touched at all by Selin.

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Selin pensively alone in the corner of the cafe, clothes that were originally wet had begun to dry by itself. A cup of hot coffee has slowly turned cold. He breathed heavily with a slightly claustrophobic feeling. In the time when his world was destroyed, he could only silently shut up with raging thoughts. Since he was like this, he often spent time doing nothing with a cup of coffee that serves as a scent of relaxation.

As long as you know, Selin is not a perfect mother for her children. This conversation was not the first thing in his small family, many simple things were always debated by them. At a young age to have two children at once is certainly not an easy thing for him. Moreover, she struggled alone to raise her two children without the presence of a husband who should be beside her to strengthen each other.

When young people his age are busy reaching their careers and studying, Selin must take care of his two children while thinking about the future. While other parents share the task of keeping their children Selin struggling alone, others complain and sulk at her husband Selin having to endure.

Drek!

The sound of a chair being pulled, someone without permission sat in front of Selin. The man sat down leisurely, his hands folded with a straight look towards Selin full of warmth. "I came to your house to take your appointment this morning to take me out to eat, but things don't seem to be in favor. At home I saw Jeno was busy crying and Juna was busy being an older sister trying to calm her sister down. And here I see you turning into a statue." Farel said at length.

Selin let out a long sigh and grabbed a cup of coffee that was no longer warm. "Sorry for forgetting my own promise," Selin was still pensive with her blank look.

Farel grabbed Selin's hand on the table, he grasped her full of warmth. "What made you lose control? What was your first day working so hard?"

Although Farel is famous for his messiness. But behind it all he has a warm and mature personality. When Selin's life is down, he is often the wisest medicine and advice giver.

"The company was acquired by the Ailian corp, and unbeknownst to me Juna and Jeno had signed a contract to become Brand Ambassadors there." Selin replied wistfully with both eyes.

Instead of being upset, Farel chuckled, "Waw the twins are indeed out of the way. Hmm, I'm sorry that I'm not careful when I give you work" he said a little guiltily.

Selin shook his head faintly. "Don't feel guilty because you didn't do anything wrong. I am even very grateful on the sidelines of your busy life, you still have time to find a job for me. I met Kania earlier," Selin let out a long sigh before continuing.

Farel was just quietly busy being a good listener for Selin.

"Actually I don't care if Barra will admit Juna or Jeno, what I'm afraid of is the feeling of Juna and Jeno who would be very devastated if they knew their father didn't acknowledge them as his son. Maybe you think I'm overdoing it, but as long as you know. I'm the one who knows best what it's like to be dumped and not be considered by Dad himself." Selin said with great pain.

"Juna and Jeno are my only source of happiness, I'm afraid if Barra finds out about their status she'll take on Juna and Jeno. I was afraid that Juna and Jeno would prefer Barra, because of my bad attitude. I'm afraid I'll lose them" Selin said with a glazed-back look.

"Cell," Call Farel heartless. It felt like Farel was eager to pull Selin into his arms and give her strength. But his courage is not big enough to do it all.

"Mmm," muttered Selin in response.

"Sometimes we think life is very long, but it is not. Life is short enough Cell," Farel looked at Selin and resumed his speech.

"So,"

"Throw away your negative thoughts that are in vain, and be true to yourself. Do what you want to do, give what your children want, without having to think about the uncertain."

"Hiks, hyx, hyx..." Hearing Farel's advice managed to make Selin back sobbing.

"When you hide the truth about your children, what if one day they find out about it from someone else. Not from their beloved mother? I'm sure they must have been very hurt."

"They're adults, I'm sure they won't leave you if they find out about her father. You don't have to worry that their love for you is bigger than you think, I'm sure they'll be hurt to know that you doubt their love for you."

"Cell.." Call Farel while the one he calls is busy crying while immersing his face on the table.

"Arghhh.. Hix.. Hicks.."

"In this life you have felt a lot of loss, do not let because of your over-thinking attitude that you lose Juna and Jeno."

"Heuu... Hix.. Hix.. Hicks.." Farel got up from his chest and moved to sit beside Selin.

"Cry.." Farel said with his hands busy patting Selin's shoulder channeling strength.

"Huuu... Hix.. Hix.. Hicks.."

Drek!

"Jain just keep going, it's a rich crybaby gini right!" Said Anet who suddenly came.

Farel rolled his eyes lazily. "Net, don't dong on stoves continue."

"Haaaah," Anet only let out a long sigh and took Selin's cup of coffee. Without asking for approval Anet vertical coffee it up to the toilet.

Anet stared at her best friend with an unbearable look. "Come home, apologize to them."

"Mmm," muttered Selin in response on the sidelines of her cries.

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