LOVE AND HATE THAT I THINK

Return to S Country

The days are passing very slowly, there are always new questions every day, the stock price continues to decline, the board members and shareholders continue to complain to me every day, every day, reporters were calling incessantly and the sound of the phone ringing all the time infuriated me

“Enough already, my patience is no longer able to withstand , it’s showtime. Frida prepare for departure to country S, we leave this afternoon too, quickly you also have to prepare”

“ Miss what should I also come with?”

“ If you don't come, who will take care of my needs, do I have to find another assistant?”

“ No need miss, I will come with miss”

I returned home to prepare my things while Frida also returned to her house to get ready. I asked the waiter Did mom come home or is she still at the restaurant? they said that Mom was still at the restaurant and not back yet, then I called my mom and asked her when she would be back from the restaurant, I also said that I would go to S country with Frida, mother said that she still has some business to do, she asked me to go first and will follow tomorrow, she said, all the items that must be brought have been completed, all files have also been prepared.

In the afternoon I went to S country with Frida, I went straight to my house, the same place I lived in when I was in college, frida and I decided to take a break from being tired after 3 hours of flight, Dad was surprised to see Frida and I at home after returning from the project site, Dad asked me why Frida and I had arrived earlier than I should have, I told my dad I was upset to hear complaints from the board members and shareholders, I'm also tired of hearing the phone calls that don't stop, I told my dad that I was ready to perform in public at the opening of the GF.

After talking to my father I went to sleep

*I woke up in a field of flowers, I walked towards a big road, the sun was so hot the light turned pitch black, everything became dark that I could not see anything, I started to feel scared, I was afraid, I screamed but my voice suddenly disappeared “someone help me, I don't want to be alone” the voice of a frightened heart scream in me, I heard the sound of a car from behind me, I heard the sound of a car behind me, I ducked and closed my eyes for fear of being hit, but I heard the sound of the car stopping, slowly I opened my eyes, the light from the car lights dazzled my eyes, I closed my eyes with my hands, I watched from my fingertips a man get down from the car, he stretched out his hand and I grabbed him with a happy feeling, she said, I couldn't see her face but I could see her warm, familiar eyes...

Suddenly the surroundings became bright, I saw Arnaf holding my hand.*

I opened my eyes and the night was over

“Not...dream it again, why do I always dream the same thing, until when the dream will continue to come.” I said to myself

I get out of bed and get ready for exercise, I exercise with Dad while Frida stays at home and prepares breakfast, after exercise I clean myself then breakfast together, and then breakfast together, after breakfast, Frida and I went with my father to the GF location, Dad reduced the driving speed when we arrived, so we could see the beautiful scenery adorning the roadside, then Dad parked the car in the parking lot, the parking lot seemed familiar to me, the forest in front of the parking lot was the same forest that was behind the Hill, he said, the place where the arnaf once pushed me to the sea, we continued our journey on foot, Since the first time I entered, I saw a very far difference compared to the first time I visited this place, the once shabby place is now a very beautiful place to visit, in addition to the beautiful-looking buildings the flowers and trees also thrive, flourishing, I saw so many people who were busy preparing for the opening of the GF tomorrow, When I was walking around I saw Arnaf by the side of the road, he didn't turn around, I was thinking Whether I should greet her or keep going, I broke away from my father and Frida walked up to her and decided to greet her, but as I approached, I saw her on the phone, I don't know who he was talking to, but he looks upset and angry because of something. I undo my intention to greet him, then I take the mp3 player in my bag, I want to listen to music I like, I walk through it,

“ I'm here cote, Can't you see it” I said in my heart

Arnaf then held my hand, my steps were stopped, he ended his conversation on the phone, smiled at me, a beautiful smile that I had never seen again since he left that day,

“Hai dear how are you?”

“should our love story not end like this”

He removed the earphone attached to my ear then repeated his question

“How are you” arnaf greeting while touching my shoulder with his arm

“i'm fine, How about you?”

“aku also good “

“I know you better than that, How not, if you get someone you love and you can break a promise you can't keep, How are you not going to be okay “my words in heart

“Have you met him?” say

“who”

“lovermu”

“ I saw him today he just arrived in the country last night, do you want to meet him?”

“No! I don't want to meet him and don't meet me with him, because if I get out of control then he'll be gone in my hands”

“Really! you won't be able to do anything to him, He's so great, he won't be able to touch, even if you try you won't be able to eliminate him, He's my lover”

“Whatever you say, continue What you are doing, I go”

I left Arnaf there and went back to my father and Frida, Arnaf just kept looking at me but I ignored him, I asked Frida how much she had understood about this project, frida said that she already knew enough, but she still had a lot to know again, from behind I heard the voice of someone calling me

“Mahirah....