LOVE AND HATE THAT I THINK
cause you are the reason
The last time I met Arnaf he was cold to me, he didn't cover me at all, he didn't apologize either, now he suddenly appears before me, and when he meets he commands me, I can't accept this, “must I play him to teach him a lesson, all this time he always played me and pissed me off, now it's my turn” I said in my heart with a smile
“ no, I don't want to take you home, I haven't finished enjoying the night view, (i got out of the car) if you want to go home immediately (opens the car door) you just walk” I said arrogantly, while pulling him out of my car
He touched my cheeks with his soft hands he pulled my hand and made me corner between himself and the car, he was very close to me, I refrained from smiling, I pushed him away and kept him away from me, but he pulled my hand and stopped my step away from him, he walked over to me, I took a step back to distance myself from him, my steps stopped because there was a car behind me, again I was cornered because, his soft hands touched my face gently, he fluttered my hair behind my ears, I turned my face because I was embarrassed, he said, I didn't want him to see my face flushed red, slowly getting closer to my face, Arnaf opened the car door and sat me down, I couldn't move freely because he put his hand next to my head, his face was getting closer, my heart was beating very fast, what was on my mind, otaku was thinking wildly, what was I expecting
“Arnaf “ Say me with heavy breath
“ this is your first time right! I can tell by your heavy breathing, just calm down, I will do it carefully.”.
“Arnaf...
“it's too late to say it Maya” Arnaf said in a soft, soft tone of voice
Arnaf's face was now right in front of me, bigit was close, his nose was touching the tip of my nose, he moved his head until his soft cheek touched my cheek, he blew my ear I turned my face and closed my eyes
“ Maya “ said with a soft tone of voice
“apa?” I said nervously
“ Maya” said gently
I blew my ears again gently, my whole body was hot, I felt so ashamed, I felt like my face was now flushed like a tomato, he left me speechless, and
“Maya are you ready? I'll start, open your eyes”
I opened my eyes slowly and closed them again
“Arnaf don't you feel this ...
“ Maya what do you think perverted woman?” he said firmly
My eyes were wide open because I was shocked to hear his words, without realizing that Arnaf had put on my seat belt
“Arnaf you” I said with annoyance
“ Me! what saying? You said you didn't want to drive me, so let me drive and drive you home” he said with a smile
He sat in the driver's seat, put on his seat belt, started the car and stepped on the gas
“ Are you ready to go home dear” he said with a smile
“ do you need to do all that just to make me sit in the passenger seat, sucks” I said in a soft voice
“ You seem disappointed because of me, what do you expect from me? you better brainwash that dirty thing,” he said with a smile and held my head
“I don't expect anything, drive properly” I said in a resentful tone
“ yes you did not expect anything, I saw it earlier, when your face reddened like a tomato” he said while staring at my face
“ well my dear, take it easy, I have said it no, if I will do it slowly” he said with a smile
I hit him in the arm and we smiled together,
“While why I feel I can't be angry with her, it seems like my brain and my heart are troubled, it could be that my brain thinks that I'm going to release my virginity for her, and my heart is disappointed that Arnaf didn't do it” I said inwardly while watching him
Along the way Arnaf talk that no-no I feel annoyed but also feel happy at the same time, every time traveling with Arnaf Watu feels fast passing, and, it felt like just 5 seconds ago Arnaf started the car and now that he had arrived in front of his hotel, Arnaf stopped the car right in front of the hotel entrance, I saw Malik was watching us from a distance, Arnaf and I got out of the car, Malik walked over to us, he greeted me and took Arnaf away, I opened my car door and saw Arnaf's phone left in the driver's seat, I picked it up and rushed after Arnaf and Malik, I thought they were going upstairs to work, but it turned out they were headed for the cafe, which is why, they were sitting in one place as I was about to approach them I heard Malik say
“ stay away from him Arnaf, I seriously”
I was curious Malik asked Arnaf who I was going to be, so I decided to sit back and listen to their conversation
“ You have found your woman” said Malik
“ I can't trace her trail, if she's an ordinary woman like she used to be, I might have found her already, you've got news about Adriana”
“So please, she disappeared without a trace, I just hope that wherever she is she will be fine and happy, Arnaf I am serious when talking about Maya”
“ take it easy, I am indeed interested in him, he reminds me of my lover, when with him I always look for my lover figure on him, I will keep my distance with him, after all I do not want to hurt him”
I went from there after hearing Arnaf's words, I don't know what else they're talking about I don't care, “ it's too late Arnaf, I've been hurt, why malik is so evil to me, why malik is so evil to me, instead of asking her sister to forget her lost love she instead chose to keep away the love that was already in her life” I said while crying
I walked to my car crying, subconsciously I was still holding Arnaf's phone, I got in the car and put the arnaf's phone on the dashboard, I was driving home, somehow my heart felt like it was being broken, my tears did not stop, now I understand why Arnaf was cold at that time, the reason is Malik, why Malik, why Malik, why Malik, he used to make me hurt, he used to hurt me, now that I destroyed him he also destroyed me, I hated him, and hated him even more...
I arrived at the front of the house, I didn't feel like I wanted to get out of my car, I hit my head on the steering wheel many times,
“ why should he again” shouted me while crying loudly
“ Mahira opens her door” sounds mom voice
I lifted my head and saw mom standing next to my car, I opened my car door, I went out and hugged mom, I cried loudly in her arms many times I said
“Mother I hate him, I hate him so much,”
My mother took me into the house, I saw my father sitting in the living room, he was surprised to see me crying
“ my wife What happened to my girl, why she cried” said father
Mom just shook her head and didn't say anything, I hugged dad and said
“ father I want to go home to my house, my real home, the house that father and mother live together, I do not want to be here alone father”
Dad held me tightly and tried to calm me down, mom gave me a glass of water, somehow the water that you gave me was sweet on my tongue...
Arnaf came to see me
“ you do not need to keep your distance from me Arnaf, because I will go away from you and also from your life...
