LOVE AND HATE THAT I THINK

Longs

This was the first time Arnaf ignored me, I chased after him and pulled his arm to stop his steps

“Arnaf “

“ What's up? Quickly tell me, I don't have time to mess with you?”

“ Arnaf what's wrong with you?, why are you being cold to me? Did I make a mistake to make you angry?”

She left without answering any of my questions, no matter what, it was so annoying. Look, I'm not gonna come and see Arnaf again before he comes and sees me. I went back home but I didn't know what to do, I thought about going to Uncle Rai's house and seeing Malik, maybe my mood would improve, upon arrival there I heard uncle Rai yelling at Malik, his voice so loud that I could hear him from the door of Malik's room

“ until when will you keep silent and do nothing, do I raise you only to see you slumped just because of a woman, aware of yourself with what you're doing, do you, you've neglected your responsibilities and obligations, if you don't want to do your duties and responsibilities again, I'll throw you on the street, you can do anything as you please”

Uncle Rai walked out of the room and was surprised to see me standing at the door

“ Want you here?”

“ Sorry uncle looks like I came at an inappropriate time?” say

“ you came at the right time, I happen to need a friend to drink tea”

My uncle and I were drinking tea together by the pool, we were talking about a lot of things, suddenly someone patted me on the shoulder

“ What is this beautiful switty”

I was shocked and turned my face away

“ Aunt Rana” Saying while hugging her

It turns out that she is Rana Raizada's aunt the wife of Raizada's uncle Malik's mother, during this time he was busy taking care of business and organizing fashion shows in various countries so every year for 6 months he was not at home, going from one city to another, I talked to my aunt and uncle, talked about my time, my aunt told me about Arnaf's high school and college, Arnaf like this, Arnaf so, but he didn't tell me anything about Malik, I didn't ask either because I didn't want to know about his life. I saw Malik dressed neatly, he walked out of the house, I said goodbye to uncle and aunt, then I followed Malik, after three months this was the first time he left the house, I want to know where he went? , it turns out he went to the hotel, he who usually smiles kindly now his smile disappears, seeing him I feel like seeing a robot that was created just for work, he said, I rushed out of the hotel because I didn't want to meet Arnaf.

The days changed, but I was still lounging at home, I don't know how long I haven't seen Arnaf, he didn't come to see me either, I wonder if Arnaf didn't realize I was missing from him, I wanted to see Arnaf, look him in the face but I had no reason to see him, plus his attitude last time was so annoying

“ This feeling of my longing is unbearable, can't he come to see me” I said in my heart

What I just expected, why I wish Arnaf was here, laughing with me, usually he always played me and pissed me off, I saw the photos of Arnaf I secretly took and I kept in my phone

“this longing feeling is not enough just to see his portrait” I said talking to myself

What's wrong with me, should I keep my ego, or forget it and meet it.

I closed my eyes and I saw the memories of the past, recalling the memories I had with him only made me miss him even more. I wasn't sure Arnaf would know, but when I first met him, I hated him so much, as much as my hatred for Malik because he had ruined all my dreams, he was in my first hug and kiss, but as time went by her being by my side made me feel that I had found the missing part in my life, would Arnaf know it, I wanted her to come and be present in every one of my dreams

I can't even take a nap because I keep thinking about Arnaf,

I decided to drive under the hot sun, escape from the city for a while, without me noticing I was on the beach, I stared at the edge of the water, saw the line where the sky met the ocean, and I saw the line where the sky met the ocean, seeing the sunset, the light that seemed to shine on the ocean, beautiful though dazzling, no one knew how deep the light penetrated the water, no one knew,

I didn't want to see Arnaf but the voice in my heart said something different, I sat in the car pulling my seat lever so I could lie down in the car, and I opened the roof of my car

“ when he was there I was always annoyed with him but when he was not there I just missed him, the darker the day I would stare at the moon and enjoy the sprinkling of stars for a while, after that go home” I said talk to myself

I saw Arnaf standing near me

“ What are you doing?” said Arnaf

“ there is something wrong with me, it seems like I have to forget my ego and meet him before going crazy”

“ Who do you want to meet, Ibas?” said Arnaf

“Wah amazing, even in my imagination Arnaf looks handsome when being angry because of jealousy” I said while looking at his face

“ fantasy, I am real and I am not jealous” said he while sitting in the chair next to me

“ hahaha... I'm really crazy if I think this is all real, after all Arnaf where he might be here, he must be busy taking care of his hotel” I said as I continued to look at him

“ Wake up from your sleep” said Arnaf while pinching me

“ Aww... You're real? But what are you doing here” I said

“I am here to work not like you who always relax all day, huh (sighs) my car tire broke between me home now” he said commanding arrogantly

The last time I met Arnaf he was cold to me, he didn't cover me at all, he didn't apologize either, now he suddenly appears before me, and when he meets he commands me, I can't accept this, “must I play him to teach him a lesson, all this time he always played me and pissed me off, now it's my turn” I said in my heart with a smile

“ no, I don't want to take you home, I haven't finished enjoying the night view, (i got out of the car) if you want to go home immediately (opens the car door) you just walk” I said arrogantly, while pulling him out of my car

He touched my cheeks with his soft hands he pulled my hand and made me corner between himself and the car, he was very close to me, I refrained from smiling, I pushed him away and kept him away from me, but he pulled my hand and stopped my step away from him, he walked over to me, I took a step back to distance myself from him, my steps stopped because there was a car behind me, again I was cornered because, his soft hands touched my face gently, he fluttered my hair behind my ears, I turned my face because I was embarrassed, he said, I didn't want him to see my face flushed red, slowly getting closer to my face, Arnaf opened the car door and sat me down, I couldn't move freely because he put his hand next to my head, his face was getting closer, my heart was beating very fast, what was on my mind, otaku was thinking wildly, what was I expecting

“Arnaf “ Say me with heavy breath

“ this is your first time right! I can tell by your heavy breathing, just calm down, I will do it carefully.”.

“Arnaf...