LOVE AND HATE THAT I THINK

Fill the heart Arnaf

I woke up from my sleep, I thought it was morning but when I saw the clock at 02:30 in the morning, I felt thirsty but the water in my room was empty, I went down to fetch some water in the kitchen, as I went down the stairs I saw Arnaf just coming back,

“ you haven't slept” said Arnaf

“ I woke up thirsty, but the water in my room ran out I want to take water in the kitchen, where have you been cote? why did you just come back?” much

Arnaf approached me, he looked at me up close then said

“ after all this time I just heard that call again, you want to go kedapur right! All of you make me food I am very hungry, and take to my room okay switty gemuku” said Arnaf with a commanding tone then he walked up the stairs and went to his room

I was just silent at his orders, I was happy to hear the call again, I went to the kitchen to fetch water for myself and make food for Arnaf, he said, I went to Arnaf's room to deliver the food, but I didn't see it.

“the food is ready” said Arnaf out of the bathroom with just a towel, Arnaf,

Looking at her chest that field and the muscles of her body made me want to hug her, I closed my eyes so that my mind would not go crazy

“ I have kept my promise to find Adriana, she and your brother are in my house”

“ Really! I've been wearing clothes you can open your eyes”

“ I will also help you find your lover, tell me who is he? What is he...

“ can you leave this room, I want to eat and rest in peace” Arnaf cut off my conversation

I obeyed Arnaf's wishes and left his room, I felt Arnaf's attitude was different to mine since he knew I was Mahirah,

” if Arnaf is a cote it means that the lover he has always loved is not the woman should be me, if she loves me so much then why 5thn then she reneged on her promise, it feels like I'm back to square one, where I don't know anything, should I hate it or let this love defeat hate, ahhhh, my head feels like it would break if I thought of all this” I said speaking to myself

Next day.

I didn't want to wake up this morning, but I opened my eyes and smiled

“ good morning world” I said to myself, I got out of bed and prepared to go to the office, I did not go to exercise because my legs still hurt, if the wound bleeds again mother will scold me again I do not want it, I walk slowly, walking like this is exhausting, I walk towards the dining room, approaching the mother who is preparing breakfast, I walk over, Adriana and Malik were also there to help mom, I hugged mom and said good morning as usual, I also said good morning to Adriana and Malik, Arnaf came in with gasping breath

“You are from where so early Arnaf” Malik said

“I couldn't sleep last night, so I went to exercise” said Arnaf

“Arnaf yesterday where did you go to get home in the morning? Maternal

“ I finished my job aunt, aunty my job is done here, I will be back with Malik and Adriana” said Arnaf

“cote why are you?, you're angry because I didn't tell you that I'm Mahirah, the person you're looking for, or because of what?”

“not because it's a switty, I have to say what, I believe so much in myself, I think I can recognize you if one day I meet you, I think I will continue to love you, I think I will continue to love you, I don't think I'm going to fall in love with anyone else, I think....Never mind... Forget my words, I'm not mad at you, I'm angry at myself” he said in anger

“ You're looking for me, aren't you, why? “ my words while holding back tears

“go from my room switty,”

“not before you answer my question, why are you looking for me? And why has your attitude changed?”

“I have to say what switty, I don't know who is in my heart right now, Mahirah or.”.

“Or what's cote? Say it! Are you looking for me to say that you love other women” I said as I shed tears

“ You want to know the truth, then listen to me, from the beginning I searched for you because I love you, that's right, I put all my strength in search of you, that's right, that's right, I even looked for you in someone else, that's true, before a month ago I was looking for you to keep my promise to marry you because I wanted to, but since a month ago I realized my feelings were not for Mahirah anymore, you know how tormented I was because of that, I was looking for you and he who suddenly disappeared without a trace, I

“If you love her so much then go, haven't you since 5thn then you don't care for me” I said in a high tone while crying

I wiped my tears, took the key out of my pocket and opened the door then went to my room, I locked my room and cried loudly, I couldn't help my heartache, I pulled the blanket, I pulled the blanket, throwing things and shouting as loud as I could, this pain was the same as 5thn ago, I heard his voice from behind the door,

“don't look for me if we're not together, I may cross your mind, but don't worry about me, believe me I won't care even if you hurt, I gave up living this story, I'm giving up, do what makes you happy Cote, I have no power to hold you back, I can't keep my love, maybe until whenever I won't be able to hate you, if you love her so much leave me alone here, go cote live your life.”.

“I can't do it, I can't leave you alone, I can't see you get hurt like this, Switty open the door I beg you, how can I leave you after what you did to me, I'm sorry, I'm not leaving before I teach you a lesson, open the door or I'll break it down switty I'll count it... One.two.ti...

I opened the door before the cote finished the count, he went into my room he pulled me up on the bed, then he beat me with a pillow I snatched the pillow from his hand and avenged his deed, we hit each other until the pillow was destroyed and all the contents flew into my room

“ Gosh, what are you two doing, Arnaf , Mahirah what's wrong with you guys, what's all this?” said mother with an angry tone

“ he started it” answered us compactly while pointing at each other

“God... You guys, do you think you're kids, look at your bodies, dirty because the word is off, you're looking like a bird, you're looking, quickly clean yourself” said the mother with an angry tone and pointed towards the bathroom

Me and the cote went into the bathroom at the same time, the cote doused me with water, and I did too, mother yelled from the outside

“ stop your fights now also”

“ Arnaf out of my bathroom, I want to shower”

“ I do not want, if you want to take a shower, I will not forbid you, besides your mother did not ask me to take a bath too, let's take a bath together my dear...