LOVE AND HATE THAT I THINK

So beby sister Arnaf!

Arnaf opened his eyes and held my hand

“sorry for wasting your hard work”

“No it's not your fault, but if you're sorry you can eat the juice and porridge that's next to you”

“you made it?”

“ yes for the juice is not for the porridge, the porridge is your housekeeper who made it, the doctor said your stomach can not be filled with solid food for a while, so the next two to three days you can only eat porridge and juice, actually what's wrong with you Arnaf, I know you love your brother but if you're like this how can you help him”

“ how can I help him? The question also kept swirling in my head, what happened to Malik also happened to me Maya, I also lost my lover, I don't know where she is? Is she okay? What the hell is he doing? And does he think of me like I think of him, I don't know, honestly I don't know anything about my lover, he looks like a black shadow, there is but can't be felt”

I unconsciously hugged Arnaf

“ I can't help myself to find my lover, how can I help Malik, tell me Maya what should I do?”

“ if you want to obey my orders, I will help you solve your problems as well as Malik”

“ what you will do”

“ hold my hand and just trust, how”

“ok! Tell me what should I do?”

Arnaf was willing to obey my words, I asked him to eat and immediately recovered, after making sure Arnaf ate and rested I rushed to the campus, entered the classroom and attended the lesson, and after that I had to go to school, after the lecture was over then I stopped by the library looking for materials for my script, after I finished getting out of the library, suddenly some people were blocking my way

“Maya,Shanti,Tian,Dion, and Ibas, long time no see, how are you guys?” say

“ our news is bad because we have just been deceived by our friend” said Maya

“you're being tricked by who” your lot

“ You,” said Shanti

“ I” Say

“ this morning we planned to take you to breakfast together so we came to your house, there we met your father, uncle said you were menenui your lover Mr. Arnaf” said Ibas

“ we went to the hotel Mr. Arnaf but the receptionist said you no longer work there but he knew to go to the house of Mr. Arnaf” said Tian

“I can explain friends-tenan, calm down first ok!” My speech

“what if you come first with us now” said Ibas

They pulled me to the cafeteria, we ate together and chatted, I told them I didn't work at the hotel anymore, because the job there took my time, while I also had to work on my script, and it took me a lot of time, I said I didn't know that my father thought I was in a relationship with Arnaf but it really wasn't, I also said that there's a rich man who's gonna pay for all my college money if I want to be a baby sister for three days for his son's cote, unknowingly I mentioned Arnaf by the nickname I gave Malik when we were kids, I honestly felt guilty for lying to them but what could I do, my identity still had to be hidden, we chatted so long that it didn't feel like the time had shown at 13:45 I said goodbye to them because I wanted to take my father to the airport. When in front of the campus it turned out that my father had picked me up, my father and I went to the airport, Dad got on the plane, before leaving Dad asked me to stay for a few days to help uncle take care of Malik I also obeyed Dad's words, I went home to my uncle's house but instead of taking care of Malik according to my father's orders I took care of Arnaf according to uncle's request, not because I was a dissident but I felt strange if I had to take care of Malik, I dropped him into the abyss, if I helped him get up I would have made my hard work with Ali, Zian and Luciana go to waste and I didn't want that.

Unexpectedly digging a hole for myself, I asked Arnaf for a break and he made it as a weapon to play me, he continued to lie like a helpless sick man, he kept ruling me and it was like a king,

Maya peeled fruit for me, please,

Maya where's the porridge for me,

Maya made me juice, too,

Maya I'm tired of reading books to me,

Maya I want to see the news turn on the television, please,

Maya scratches my back, please,

my back is itching, though,

do I have to scratch his back too?

Maya prepare warm water I want to take a shower, please,

Maya, come to the bathroom, do I have to do this too?

Maya where is my shirt,

Maya help me put on clothes,

Whahuh? I don't want to...

Take it easy I've been wearing shorts, but if you want, I can take my pants off so you can put them on

No.kkk..... Don't try to think of it or you'll regret it

Maya this is Maya, ahhh. I really feel like a real baby sister, it's just that this baby is bigger than what it should be, somehow I sighed in a day, I know how many times I sighed in a day, very annoying, I get annoyed every time he plays me, but on the other hand I feel lost when he no longer bothers me, occasionally to comfort myself I go to the room malik, but on the other hand I feel lost when he no longer bothers me, seeing her suffer made me feel happy, only when I went to college could I escape Arnaf's restraints, she said,

Three days of fast walking I went back to my house and back to my old life, there was only a campus and a house, because I now have friends, the campus became a fun place, it was a fun place, sometimes I go to the hotel to meet and have lunch with Ezzah and just have coffee with Abdul

Malik remained silent in his room and mourned the passing of his wife

Arnaf is back in life, he's back at the hotel helping uncle Rai, sometimes he comes to my campus and my house to see me, he also helps me with the thesis.

My days became beautiful and colorful, all my burdens and pains disappeared instantly, all my sorrows were now borne by Malik

People say when you're happy time goes by faster and I feel that way, three months go by but everything is still the same as it was three months ago, my script assignment is over I started preparing for the graduation hearing, I feel a little anxious not because I am not confident with my script, but I do not know what will be asked at the hearing, he said, whether I will answer it well, facing the professors is much more difficult than writing the thesis.

Professor why are you shaking your head? Didn't I graduate....