LOVE AND HATE THAT I THINK

Should i...

I went to the hotel escorted by uncle Rai's driver, upon arrival at the hotel I met Ezzah and met Arnaf's client in the meeting room, I was surprised to see the client, it turned out he was my own father, I was surprised, I was so happy that I unconsciously ran off his arms,

“father I miss you so much” I said

“Dad also misses this naughty father's daughter” said the father while pinching my cheek

We smiled together, I was grateful that I went to see my father instead of Arnaf and Malik.

“Dad wants you to stop working and focus on your lecture because your lecturer told dad you often come late” said father

“ it's not true dad, I always come on time”

“sorry I should go from here” said Ezzah

“Ezzah it...

“Rahasi right, I know, just about Miss Mahirah” said Ezzah

I smiled at him and thanked him, I took Dad home,

Arriving there we enjoyed tea while chatting , I asked the news of my mother because I had not seen her for a long time, I also asked about mistress hesti and many more, Dad says he'll only stay one night, tomorrow dad will return to country F, dad says before dad leaves he wants to see uncle Rai, I'm afraid dad will meet with Malik, I'm afraid he'll meet with him, so I asked my dad he was going to see my uncle at the hotel or at home, I was relieved because he said he was going to see my uncle at the hotel

Next day.

I wake up in the morning, and prepare to go to sports, I'm happy because today my father accompanied me to sports, this exercise habit I got from my father, he said, since childhood my father made me used to exercise in the morning before doing other activities, while exercising alone I can eat anything after finishing sports, I can eat anything, but while exercising with my father I was only allowed to drink juice or milk at breakfast, I remember that sometimes my mother secretly put other food in my room, after sports I prepared to go to the hotel for the last time, I honestly hesitated to quit because the hotel job was quite pleasant,

Arriving at the hotel I met you with uncle Rai,

“ Good morning Mr. Rai zada”, I said with a smile

“ good morning son, where is your father?” uncle said

“Daddy is still at home, when I left dad was busy with his leptop, uncle you came alone” I said

“ yes, Can you help uncle nak” said uncle

“Just say uncle?” say

“ Help uncle talk to Arnaf, uncle want him to live his life as usual, I do not like Arnaf take care of Malik to ignore himself, he also ignored his work” said uncle

“ Well uncle later in the afternoon I will go to uncle's house and talk to Arnaf”

Why do I feel that something is awkward, uncle's words make me think that uncle cares more about Arnaf than Malik who is his own biological son, or maybe it's just my feeling, that's it...

I went to my room to tidy up my things, Ezzah and Abdul came and stood in front of my desk

“you will really go” said Ezzah

“What misses can not rethink the decision of miss”, said Mr. Abdul

“ honestly I still want to work, but I will face my script, if my mind is divided I fear the results will not be satisfactory, I only have three months left, I will have to work, relax I will often stop by if there is free time” said I

“ you've tidied up your stuff, son?, you're in college by noon right! Don't forget to stop by my house when you come home” said uncle

“Alright uncle” I said with a smile,

After finishing cleaning my things I came out of my room, my steps stopped when I saw my father and uncle talking in front of the elevator, I somehow hid from them, I also eavesdropped on their conversation

“ How is Malik now”

“ lately he has not eaten properly, I heard he went to F country to meet you, is that true”

“ Yes, unfortunately I was not there to see him, but he met my son Ali, from whom I knew Ali would behave like Mahirah's brother to Malik”

“ you rest easy, let your daughter finish her education first, you have asked your daughter to stop working, today I asked your daughter to come home to see Malik, there are still many things I want to talk to you about, we should talk in my room”

My uncle and father left from there, I came out of my hiding place, stood in front of the elevator and thought, Something is wrong with their conversation, but what is with me today, what is wrong with me, otaku can't digest the words of his uncle and father.

I went to my uncle's house, and when the housekeeper greeted me at the door, he said that Mr. Arnaf was in his room, Mr. Malik, and I went to Malik's room, when I saw that Malik was silent as a dead man, I wanted to jump around with excitement, but when I saw Arnaf was sad on the other side of my heart, I didn't like him, Arnaf's face was pale, I went to the kitchen and asked the housekeeper if Arnaf had eaten or not, because he said Arnaf had not eaten I made a simple meal and a glass of juice, I pulled Arnaf out of Malik's room towards the dining table,

“since when are you here” said Arnaf

“ Since last” I said while forcing him to sit down

“I don't want to eat Maya, I'm not feeling” said Arnaf

“ are you happy to see Malik continues to grieve like that (Arnaf looks at me with a sharp look) well you don't like it, don't look at me with that look, listen to me, listen to me, if you don't eat you'll get sick, if you get sick who will take care of Malik, not just Malik you have other responsibilities too, your father and the hotel need you too, if you don't take care of yourself how can you take care of everything?” say

Arnaf obeyed my words he finished the food I made, not long after I finished eating Arnaf regurgitated the food he had eaten, then he fell unconscious, and then fell unconscious, I called the housekeeper to help me bring Arnaf to his room, I called the doctor to check on him, the doctor said Arnaf's condition is declining because he does not eat and rest properly, the doctor said he just needed rest and no need to be treated, I felt relieved but on the other hand I was also anxious, Arnaf fell ill, Malik's condition was not good, too, there is a lot of work in the hotel and uncle no one helps, if uncle works hard alone he can also fall ill, he can also get sick, should I stop now or work to help uncle at the hotel until Arnaf's condition improves, but what about my script, I can't think well now,

Arnaf opened his eyes and held my hand

“sorry for wasting your hard work”

“No it's not your fault, but if you're sorry you can eat the juice and porridge that's next to you”

“you made it?”

“ yes for the juice is not for the porridge, the porridge is your housekeeper who made it, the doctor said your stomach can not be filled with solid food for a while, so the next two to three days you can only eat porridge and juice, actually what's wrong with you Arnaf, I know you love your brother but if you're like this how can you help him”

“ how can I help him? The question also kept swirling in my head, what happened to Malik also happened to me Maya, I also lost my lover, I don't know where she is? Is she okay? What the hell is he doing? And does he think of me like I think of him, I don't know, honestly I don't know anything about my lover, he looks like a black shadow, there is but can't be felt”

I unconsciously hugged Arnaf

“ I can't help myself to find my lover, how can I help Malik, tell me Maya what should I do?”

“ if you want to obey my orders, I will help you solve your problems as well as Malik...

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