KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Ria Wulandari

Someday everything will make perfect sense.

So for now, insight at the confusion, smile trought the tears, and keep reminding yourself everything happens for a reason.

Ria

Now the stories is about me.

Many people say you will be happy as long as you are beautiful. It's true ? No, I don't think so !

I forget the last time I felt happy, everything just passed, I sometimes confused as to what the real feeling of happiness is not just pretending to be happy or looking happy.

I was born with a beautiful face and had rich parents, I had many friends, and of course everyone loved me. Until I entered elementary school, my parents began to be busy with their own work. We rarely get together, eventually they often fight for only minor reasons. In the end they decided to divorce when I was in 6th grade SD. For some reason they each couldn't take me and leave me to my aunt, my mother's sister.

At that time I was sad why my parents did not want to take care of me is it because I was a bad boy ? I began to become quiet, learned a lot, in order to be loved by others. But my efforts were in vain they never cared about me, they always yelled at me for minor problems. I always ask if it is my fault ? Does God not love me ?

Until I met Nia, a friend who I consider to be my family, I became no longer lonely. We always play together because I think only he can understand me. We shared happiness and sadness together, you decided to move to the city to continue college, I sold my parents' estate as well as Nia we had no one, she said, even my aunt didn't forbid me to leave and she looked happy as if one of her burdens had been lost.

I realize I'm not a good kid like Nia, I'm just a little naughty and lazy, I like changing girlfriends so that someone can give me more money. But I never forced them, maybe this is the first time I am grateful to have a beautiful face.

I lived with Nia for 2 years. Then my mother told me that she was married again, and my mother moved to Hong Kong. Mom called me because she wanted me to live with her now that she had more money to support me, she also said that she was sorry for leaving me. I approve of his wish however I love my mother I miss the affection of the parents, I do not want to live hard life like this. With a heavy heart I left Nia my best friend alone lucky she already had a boyfriend back then and now she is married.

I moved to Hong Kong, our house was in a 7th floor apartment, a simple, comfortable house, I was happy to see my mother again, and I was introduced to my stepfather. We lived happily for a while, mother always told me how good her husband was and how much she loved him.

After I stayed more than 6 months, I started to get used to my new college place, My mother and stepfather also went to work they would go home in the afternoon.

Today I came home early because there was an event on campus, and I was lazy to follow it. I opened the door, I heard the voice of someone in my mother's room, whether my mother and father had gone home, I thought. I just want to see it without having to bother, the door is not closed tightly I can see clearly my stepfather with other women. My reflexes went out of the house, and I didn't want to go back until the afternoon.

What have I seen, since when did my stepfather have an affair ? Do you know about this ? I kept thinking of different ways to tell my mother.

2 Weeks since the incident I just dared to ask my mother because my stepfather was working overtime.

The thing I never thought, it turns out that mom already knew all these things from the beginning and mom accepted it just for the reason that mom loved her husband so much. I was angry I wanted to take my mother back to Indonesia but she refused. I finally decided to go home alone I couldn't live with people like this even though it was my own parents. I can't even tell Nia this because it's so embarrassing.

With tears in my mother's eyes leading me to the airport, my mother apologized for her mistake but she couldn't stop. I just wish I could find my happiness. How, my friend is married, I have no girlfriend, from now on I will live alone, is this karma because I have left my best friend and choose to live with parents who have abandoned me. Life is so complicated I don't want to think about it anymore, all I need to do is keep going forward hoping that God still loves me and wants to help me. Traveling for 3 hours on the plane I spent with sleep, I feel tired, tired of all things.

At the airport I saw directions, it seemed like everyone had a family to pick them up. I just smiled and passed by who am I waiting for ? Nia will not be here because she is pregnant, after all she has apologized for not being able to come.

I stood waiting for a taxi, a man called me . I looked over and saw my ex-boyfriend with another woman.

"Ria you're alone ? Where did you just come home from ? Oh yes introduce this is my wife Ana, we just returned home honeymoon from Singapore." said Reza introduced his wife.

"Oh congratulations, I just got home from Hong Kong, my parents were assigned there !" my words are just mince-talking.

"Have you met your parents back ?" reza asked, I forgot that Reza knew I was living alone with Nia.

"You don't look well and I'm taking you home !" reza asked, looking at his wife for permission.

"Ah no need !" I looked in different directions for an excuse. I saw a handsome man get out of the car, and all I know for sure is the uniform of Farhan's company. One idea popped into my brain in order to avoid the ex "That's my boyfriend coming, I'm going first huh bye !" I said and then left.

"Oh ok bye !" reza said as he stared at my agony as possible.

At least I can feel calm because I do not feel humbled, I look back because Reza still looks at me unlucky, do I have to act now ? Foolish he was Farhan's employee, later asked Farhan for help to be able to solve this problem.

"Hay dear !" I said as I clenched the arm of this man I did not know.

He tried to refuse. I immediately stomped his foot "Help me for a moment !" I said as my eyes signaled that someone was looking behind me.

Finally he looked at me. "Who are you ? what do you want ?" said slowly.

"I'm Ria Farhan's friend, you know your boss, now I have to get out of here please take me somewhere !" I said while pulling him to open the car door.

He seemed to be sighing but he followed my directions. We got into the car, leaving a happy ex with his partner.

"Anything he wants to make me jealous by introducing his new wife ! All men are the same." My gertutuku in the car.

"Ehem !" it seems like the person next to me is uncomfortable. "Miss where to go, I still have business in the airport, I have to pick up client !" said polite.

Is this the power of Farhan's name? He spoke politely to me after I mentioned Farhan's name.

"Whose name are you ?" curious says.

"Why are you curious about my name ?" said cold.

Anybody who is curious !

"Down me here, I can take a taxi !" angry say.

He stopped the car and I got out of the car and closed the door.

It was unexpected that he actually dropped me off on the side of the road like this. Had I turned ugly, she should have been happy that a girl as beautiful as I was hitching a ride in her car ! You weird guy ! Ahh why the first day here is so annoying, taxi also why no one showed up !

I started playing with my phone looking for a taxi online even though the pay was more expensive. As if I didn't bring a suitcase this big I could definitely take a bus !

Ria's story end

Sorry if the author changed his point of view. The author is just trying to convey the story to be easily understood.

Ria's welcome back !! Hehe^