KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Alone

Nia

After driving me home, Farhan said goodbye to go, I smiled as I waved my hand. The car that Farhan was driving passed away.

My eyes are still on the empty road. What's wrong ? Why does my heart feel empty? I just laughed so cheerfully ? I shook my head "Ahh time to finish2 home" I said in my heart.

I walked into the house leaving the streets deserted.

I put down my bag, went into the bathroom washed my face, and changed my clothes in casual clothes.

I started tidying up the closet that was usually full of my clothes and Ria's clothes, ahh now it looks a little bit . I just realized

that I only have a few clothes, usually I always share clothes with Ria.

"Ahhh later I can buy clothes, my clothes are all old fashioned, now it's time to clean up" I shouted out loudly to encourage myself .

Starting from the closet, bed, study table, bathroom, kitchen, to the living room that is directly connected to my bed, wiping each side, sweeping then mopping.

At 4.15 pm, finally my work is finished, the house looks neat, it's been a long time I don't see this house, usually Ria always sleeps in bed and always put stuff carelessly , now no one will make the house fall apart again.

I smiled then went to take a bath, after which took ablution and ashar prayers .

I remember what my grandmother said a long time ago "Don't fear my son, you're never alone, God is always with you, God sees, God hears, and Grandma is sure God will always protect you".

I began to raise my hand to pray, not a word yet my tears fell. I wept, I complained to God what I was feeling right now in silence, I heard nothing but my heart-wrenching voice and heart-wrenching cry.

"O Allah I am sad, I am lonely, please comfort me, O God. Mom, Grandma, Grandpa, now Ria, am I an evil child Oh God why do all the people I love go?" I kept crying until I was down, deep in my crying.

The next day I went to college, I walked alone, I saw many other students chatting. I realized one thing that maybe I'm the only one here who doesn't have friends . Why don't I have any friends besides Ria? Am I too busy studying ? Ahh must have just let me not care either.

Coming home from college I was going to the mole for shopping, I thought and went to class.

A man was sitting next to me, he was smiling and I think he wanted to talk to me, but I don't know who he is ? I think I still have a trauma with men I can't recognize him, other than Farhan's face because I met him often.

"Ahh yes" I replied awkwardly

The man frowned "You forgot about me? I told you the English assignment"

I was thinking a little bit but I really don't remember "Sorry I have a problem remembering a man's face"

He was surprised by "Really? that's why you always look so cute on guys, ahh shit I always pay attention to you but you don't even recognize me"

I looked down at feeling guilty "I'm sorry I'm really sorry"

The guy laughs, "Haha it turns out you're funny, I think you're a cold and brave girl and you have this innocent side"

I was silent not understanding what he meant.

The guy smiled and gave his hand to shake my hand and grabbed him "Well let's meet again my name is Ardan Hartadi, I'm a 2nd semester English boy"

Ahh I remember now the guy who was planted with "Oh yeah I remember now you're the guy who was secured? hehe yes salam know"

The guy smiled yahh a little sweet ehh hell hehe, "I hope you gk will forget again, maybe we will often meet for wa dong ?"

"Ahh yes" I reflexively gave my HP

He wrote down his phone number, and gave my phone back with a smile.

Lecturers come sign lessons must begin. Ardan kept sitting next to me sometimes he looked at me and smiled.Akupun also just stumbled strangely. Hhhhh what is this why my heart is pounding a little.

Suddenly I remembered Farhan, what is he doing now huh ? maybe he was looking at his computer and frowning because he was busy with his work. Unknowingly I smiled to myself, recalling the chat from him last night "Good night little angel, have a sweet dreams" haha angel? angel what I thought .

Without me noticing Ardan looking at me in wonder, I just nodded while smiling strangely.