KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Pain

Farhan

You think you are strong when you want to cry but you don't. It is a torture to me when I can't do anything to help you !

The morning began to come, I opened my eyes and saw Nia still asleep in front of me. I looked at her like something was missing she really didn't cry last night. I don't know what to do, if Mr. Fajar is his father shouldn't he be happy. Yesterday he was very enthusiastic when he thought that if he were his son. But her words sounded furious her gaze yesterday for the first time I saw such a Nia. Is there a secret I don't know yet ?

I stroked Nia's hair, gently dyed it several times. He opened his eyes and looked at me, smiling at him.

"Morning let's get up !" sayang .

He hugged me tighter, "Ah it feels so lazy that I still want to sleep"

"We have to shower, then pray later you can sleep again" I said as I stroked her hair. There was no answer from Nia, was she asleep again ? I smiled and whispered in his ear, "Want me to take a bath ?" he still did not answer, I bit his ear of course his cheeks immediately reddened haha.

"Ih amused to know don't bite dong" he said while pushing my face away. I clasped his hand to stop, peeling his eyes to wake him up. "Haha stop you so kayak cat know not !"

"No, you stopped me!" I said with a meaningful smile.

"Ah base !" Nia immediately got up and ran towards the bathroom, I followed her and our laughter filled the room again as if forgetting what happened yesterday.

Three days passed after that incident, Nia never told me anything, although I was curious I did not dare to ask her, waiting for the right time that was what I thought.

It seems like lately Nia has been busy learning whether because she wants to avoid talking about her father.

Today I deliberately went home early, Nia was surprised to see me already in the room.

"You're home yet ? why don't you tell me ?" asked Nia while putting down her bag.

"Here !" I said, patting an empty spot on the sofa I was sitting on. She smiled and sat next to me. I kissed her "Of course because I miss you ".

"Haha looks like Mr Farhan doesn't have a lot of work huh ?" said teasing me.

"Haha do you want me to think about work when you're with you!" I open the veil and kiss her now. Nia doesn't fight much she just serves me sakarang hehe.

After dinner, Nia sat down at my desk and studied, she was always like that when there were a lot of things I wanted to ask. Haha suddenly I want to disturb him. I sat in my own chair, put my face in my hands that had been resting on the table seriously watching him who was studying, damn it had been 10 minutes he did not care and focused on learning.

"Darling !" call me friendly

"Hem !" he said he didn't want to look at me.

"Why are you always busy studying anyway, even though I am here" said I hope he will prefer me than studying.

"In the near future, my grades continue to fall if my test is bad maybe my scholarship will be revoked!" the answer is still without looking at me.

"Let me pay, you're my wife now!"

"No, I'm going to college on my own, I don't want to depend on you!" What does it mean to make me angry.

"What do you mean you don't want to depend on me ? I'm your husband, you've always been like this not to accept the help of others, but I'm not someone else you can ask me anything for!" I screamed at him, he finally looked at me.

"Sorry that's not what I mean, I just ..."

"Just do whatever you want !" I got angry and left and lay in bed.

Nia came up to me trying to persuade me not to get angry. "Sorry, that's not what I mean, I just want to do whatever I can, I don't want to look pathetic, poor girl who can only depend on you" I kept silent not answering. Nia was trying to stare at my face, I still did not want to look at her.

"Darling don't be angry, if you're angry what should I do? if you throw me out I have nowhere else to go ?" Nia was crying too.

I gave in and sat down "Hey listen, who wants to kick you out, even though I'm angry I won't let you go "I'm holding her.

"You didn't kick me out, but if you shut me up what I had to do but leave, I have nowhere else to go but here" she cried even harder. I guess she was just acting so I wouldn't get angry but why does her crying feel so slashing like this.

"Sorry, I won't do it again. I just want to seduce you into choosing me over studying" I said as I stroked her hair.

"Of course I choose you, where there may be people who like to learn, I also do not like.uhu I just want to be a wife who deserves you not only to please you in bed, but also not just to please you in bed, but I want others to see me standing alone, not standing in your shadow "he said still crying.

"Sorry, I don't know, what do you want to do now ?" ask me in the softest voice possible.

"Let me go to college on my own, I want to be a graduate, I want to work in big companies, I want other people to see me that I'm cool too, if you marry me because I'm an amazing person not because of the feeling of a hix, a torch" he said still in his sobs.

"Lied !" said it.

I also smiled "You are so cool, you can live alone without the help of others, while I only live in the shade of my mother, I also can not choose my own path I was born to continue the company papa, papa, you can also fight, you can also scare me" I said.

"Fearful ? why should you be afraid of me ?" ask again.

"Fear that you left me hehe" (lying when afraid of being kicked by a bird haha)

Suddenly Nia pushed me and ran to sit on the other side of the bed she picked up a tissue and wiped her tears and snot haha funny. "You lied, even now I must look embarrassing" he replied seriously.

"I told you you were cool, here !" I stretched out my hand so that he would return to my arms.

"No, you even hate my snot torches" He cried again.

It turns out that she still remembers what I said, making me feel bad "I don't hate her, I used to say it to comfort you, so you don't cry anymore" I said honestly.

"You evil it's not comforting at all, I'm so ashamed now, I must look so pathetic" . I stopped listening to her words, somehow my heart hurts, my tears come out why ? I don't care anymore.

"Sorry !" I said Nia was looking at me.

"Why are you crying too ?" said wonder.

"I feel like a failed husband, I can never help you, you're too strong to not need a backrest, you're the one who's hurt but you're the one who's trying to comfort me, I don't even know if my words hurt you, now who looks pathetic ? am I not the more pathetic ? I never looked down on you, you always looked great in my eyes, I, I was just too weak to make you feel safe next to me" I said, not daring to look him in the eye.

Nia approached and hugged me tightly, I cried in her arms, like a mother protecting her child. I didn't even have the strength to return his embrace I just quietly drowned my face in his chest.

"It seems like everything is just a misunderstanding, I respect you a lot, you are my backrest, I also need you a lot, how could you think so far ?" Nia cried and drowned her hair in my hair.

"You, I know you're feeling sad right now, you don't want to tell me about your father either, why because you think I can't help you, because I'm not as good as your father ?" I let go of all the burdens I've been thinking about.

"You're wrong you can't compare to him, you're too good Mas Farhan, I love you so much" he said, peeping at my head.

"Then what's the problem why you don't want to tell a story shouldn't you be happy because he's your father ? don't you also want to have a father like him ?" say again.

"Later to tell you, now stop crying first !" he said while wiping the tears on my face.

I couldn't stop my desire, trying to get rid of all this sadness, I pushed him to lie on the bed kissing him lovingly, wiping his tears with my kiss, we did it once again.

Now that we were lying together under a warm blanket, I did not let go of my embrace, Nia was also leaning against me, having let go of all this burden now we started to be able to think clearly.

"Darling you're sleepy ?" I asked while trying to look at Nia's face.

"No, are you very curious about my past ?" she asked and now she was looking at me, I kissed her forehead softly.

She smiled and closed her eyes again and began to tell stories. "I used to be very hopeful of having a father, especially when my friends said I was an illegitimate child, I hoped that my police father would come and arrest them and punish anyone who dared insult me" Nia smiled and looked at me "Haha that was when I was a child, even Ria dared to threaten the bad boys by saying that her father was a policeman, he said, so the kids are scared even though they finally know we're just lying"

Nia took a deep breath I just silently looked at her. "When I was growing up I still hoped that one day my father would come and pick me up to live with him, especially when my grandfather died, I felt so sad that everyone looked like I loved me I hated it but until the end my father didn't come. When I moved here I started getting to know the outside world, there was no such thing as an easy job, no good people let alone a haha guy how many times I saw a jerk, no one, fortunately I could martial arts I really wanted to crush the birds one by one" he smiled and looked at me.

"You're really nailing my words, is that why you can't recognize a man's face ?" tanyaku later.

"Haha right, I don't know since when it started, I still can't believe that I'm married now. When I look at this sad world I sometimes think of my father, how hard his life was so that he could not take care of his own son, or how much his hatred would be to not visit me even once, I also wanted to see his face, if he had lived that hard I would not have been this angry with him I would have forgiven him. But when I found out that Mr. Fajar was my father, I couldn't admit how it was possible that someone so kind to someone else would do something like this to her own son" Nia tried to hold back her tears.

I hugged him and felt his sadness. "Cry if you want to cry I don't mind taking it all out !" soothing words.

A moment later Nia cried she grabbed my back. "How could the man live happily with his family, while I am here suffering while thinking about how much he suffered, for what I used to admire him so much, if I knew he was this bad I might have cursed him a long time ago, I'd rather see my father die than see him live happily like this. And so she easily apologized like that, she could admit to me because I was already someone's wife so she didn't have to take care of me anymore hysterics "Nia kept crying.

My heart aches for not knowing anything, is it ? he always hid it with a smile. I also dissolved into his sadness without realizing that my back was bleeding from Nia's scratch.

The next day while taking a bath with Nia saw a scratch on my back she panicked, "Why can your back hurt like this ?" ask Nia worried.

"That was yesterday a cat scratched me!" my words are holding back laughter.

"Kok could be careful next time yes" said Nia still in a state of worry.

Nia did not know that the cat was herself !! Hehe ^