KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Jealous

Farhan

I had not seen Nia for a week, because of my many jobs, as well as Nia's busy life. We try to understand each other just sms and phone is enough to fill the longing . Hehe but lying, I still miss him a lot, today I tried to finish my work quickly I want to immediately meet Nia, because I know she has no activities after school , I wanted to take her out to eat, but it's a secret yes I want to surprise her.

The clock is pointing at 4 pm surely Nia is relaxing in the park while studying my mind. I'm heading straight for the usual spot where Nia hangs out but she's not around, or maybe to the cafeteria, huh? I finally tried to find Kekantin but still did not find it. I tried to enter the campus ahh, at this hour must be quiet maybe Nia was sleeping in class.

I walked into the corridor looking for where the building is for second-semester students. Finally I found it, I tried to find the figure I missed, I walked into the hallway, I tried to peek one by one class from outside the window , ' he said , I met some students who might still be doing their job. I was getting frustrated because I couldn't find it, this was the last class in the corner, I wished Nia was there. The practice art room, that's what was plastered on the wooden board that was above the side of the door. I smiled to see that Nia must be here, she is an art student.

"BRUKK!!" A loud noise from within shocked me, I immediately ran over in fear of something happening to Nia, I immediately held the door algae preparing to open it. But my hands and feet stopped, as if frozen, as my gaze fell upon the figure I was looking for, lying on her stomach above the men I saw their eyes seeing each other they fell silent a moment later Nia with her loud and excited laughter was messing with other men.

I stood up straight now releasing my hand from the door algae, clenching it like I wanted to hit something, beating up someone who dared to take mine. My heart is breaking, my face is getting hot now, they still haven't stopped playing around with paint, and worse Nia looks happy with the man. Is Nia cheating now? or is he his girlfriend and I'm cheating on him ? recalling Nia never once said that she loved me too. I am constantly shamelessly saying that I love her and want to marry her, stupid I feel really stupid, I want to hit myself now, destroy whatever I see.

Finally our eyes met, Nia looked surprised, and I reflexively walked away. Look how sad I am, the memories with Dina (see episode 4) are back, the memories that I have always wanted to forget, and I can only forget them after meeting Nia, trying to open myself up to a new relationship, it turns out that this is the reply I got, he crushed all my hopes.

I tried to look back, hoping that everything was just a misunderstanding and Nia ran after me now, but it was all just my imagination, Nia wasn't there, she wasn't after me, maybe she didn't care about me either.

I kept walking until I almost got out of this University building. My mind was so full of emotion that I did not hear Nia yelling at me a few times, that I stopped when Nia clasped my arm, I looked at her.

"Mas, wait a minute, sorry everyone just misunderstood him, he's just serious" Nia with her severed breath tried to explain this misunderstanding.

"Then ...?" I said cuek, I still do not believe because he had a long time to pursue me, maybe he had spoken to his lover. Or wait, lest he come near me just because of my treasure? even the haggard mind appears.

"So I called many times you don't want to stop". He was still trying to catch his breath, he grabbed my hand trying to hold him "You believe me, right ?" He looked at me now looking for certainty.

"I can't , move aside !" I said coldly as I pulled my hand away wanting to walk away.

Nia pulled my hand back, "Mas, don't be like this, be angry if you want to be angry, but after that you have to listen to my words" he said with a clear heart.

I smiled as I approached her with a cold look, she seemed to be frightened, she walked backwards until her back was attached to the wall, but her eyes still continued to look into my eyes fearlessly. My hands started stroking her hair, then moved to her cheeks that turned red, I grabbed her chin, brought my face closer to her. "You want me to be angry, then forgive?" I said a little whisper.

Nia just nodded, I heard her swallow, making me want to laugh.

"If I forgive you what will you do? Do you want to kiss me" I said with a smile, my eyes still locked.

He did not answer just because his face turned into fear, I could no longer bear to let go. Turning my gaze away from her, I tried to calm my anger take a deep breath and exhale violently.

"Stop having a show, I know I'm stupid, confess and I'll forgive you" I said without looking at her.

"Mas, I love you!" lirih.

He closed his eyes, then opened them slowly "I can explain everything!" He turned his gaze towards my bleeding hand.

I laughed "Did you say you love me now? how many times have I said I love you ? you never answer it, you just smile, making me a fool for having to interpret the meaning of your smile".

He listened to me, he took my hand to see how badly I hurt. "Are you very angry now? Do you want to hit me?" He stopped his words that confused me, he looked at me and then "Sorry, I'm wrong, hit me, hit me until your anger subsides but don't hurt yourself" he seemed serious about his words, but I won't be easily fooled let alone the second time.

I smiled mockingly, then pulled my hand from his grasp "Look at you diverting the conversation again, you don't really love me and you don't even allow me to kiss you" I said later.

"What is the way to prove love only with a kiss? after that do you want to sleep with me? am I wrong if I limit my association with men?"

I laughed more and more at the words "Did you say limit the association with men? then what I saw earlier, you even hugged her while sleeping like that"

"It was just an accident!" He took a deep breath and continued his words "I'm wrong, you shouldn't do it, he's just my friend who acts like a child but he's nice, I just take him as a friend no more, he also has a girlfriend ask him himself" he explained.

"She's got a boyfriend, and then you have a boyfriend, so you're both having an affair?" I laughed because I felt betrayed by "Okay? there are no good men in this world anymore you are adults and the treatment can not only be called playful"

Nia began to bow her head whether she had just realized her mistake. "I'm sorry, what should I do other than apologize, so you can forgive me? Do I have to die first like the Legend of Banyu Fragrant, after that you can see if my blood smells it means I'm not cheating, and if my blood is rotten it means I'm having an affair" he said.

"Haha" it seems like he is making a joke so that my am is gone sorry, "Just do it if you want!" defiantly say.

"What?" He seemed surprised at my answer, I just looked at him with a smile. He looked confused as if looking around for objects, but he seemed to find nothing, he turned to face the wall. Haha it seems like he is frustrated, am I going too far.

Frustrated Nia banged her head against the wall so many times that I was shocked. I immediately pulled his arm away from the wall, looking at him intently at the blood that started flowing from his temple, he looked at me helplessly. My hands started touching her cheeks defending her softly. "Are you crazy? you won't die just by sticking your head out like that" I still don't believe in her sincerity.

"Then what should I do? you want to kill me? kill me if you want it" he said, staring me in the face.

"Where is the health room ?" I said later, he smiled at me saying "There must be a knife, right? or at least a pair of scissors to skin you to death" I said with a smile.

"What?" He stood away looking at me angrily and then kicked my leg.

"Ahh what are you doing?" it hurts me so much to hold my leg that I feel like breaking.

"Excession! Do whatever you want if you can walk after me" Nia walked away.

I smile at her behavior, but that doesn't mean I forgive her. My heart still hurts, my anger still has not subsided, my head almost explodes because I keep thinking about it between believing and not believing. But for sure his mistake this time was no small matter to me, seeing the woman I liked laughing cheerfully even poking each other with another man, my ego was unwilling to accept it.

Farhan you are so vindictive, sorry dong !! Hehe .