KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Strangers

Nia

It's been a week since my fight with Farhan. I thought he'd be back looking for me soon but? Just like when he walked away from me without looking, now he really left without wanting to go back.

I didn't even dare to contact him first, because I realized I had made a big mistake, I didn't dare to hope that he would forgive me again. My only way to make amends is to change, so Farhan will forgive me one day.

Last week after Farhan left, Ardan came back to me and apologized. I told her it wasn't her fault and I asked that we not be friends anymore, because I told her honestly that I wouldn't do anything that would make Farhan hate me again. As I thought Ardan was a good guy he understood and prayed for happiness for us. I was relieved that Ardan wasn't angry, but still when we met, we still felt awkward just saying hello and leaving that's what we did. I also stayed away from Ardan's friends because I never really had any friends. Well it doesn't matter to me, it's not the first time that a person I care about has left. It is only my life back that there was only me and God.

I told the instructor that I wanted to quit art classes and I wanted to move to Bahasa Indonesia. My lecturer was so good he understood that I had no painting talent he even wanted to help me to move majors.

Next I went to the hotel where I worked, gave a letter of resignation, at first my boss refused but for various reasons I said he could finally understand and allow me to stop even my boss also gave me severance money. It may be true, said Grandfather, correct your intentions, then God will fix your affairs.Okay one by one the problems are played out.

'Today Is Sunday Yey !' I said in my half-conscious heart, as usual I could sleep again after the dawn prayer. I grabbed my phone on the pillow and saw that the clock was still at 7, 'well sleep again!'. I closed my eyes again and fell asleep in laziness. After living for 20 years it seems like I woke up until 10 am this time.

The beginning of my new life began, waking up, taking a shower, having breakfast, making my bed, then preparing a laptop, note book, and pencil, don't forget one bottle of mineral water and my favorite potato chips. "Yup, everything is in order, it's battle time" I smiled in satisfaction and immediately sat down at my study table.

Tik tok, tik tok clinking sound clock that sounds loud when the room is quiet, especially when we are alone. One minute, five minutes, ten minutes, thirty minutes, up to an hour passed.

DOOOONG!!!

I haven't even written a single sentence yet, my kent chips have run out of it, but my brain remains dead-end as to what I should write, what kind of interesting story to talk about. All this time I was just busy with my own business to forget about the outside world. Well relax first, calm my mind, I took my phone and opened it up want to chat with friends for a while, ahh I forgot I don't have friends, even I don't have a social media account, man of the age when the hell am I, why not just die, I murmured annoyed.

"There is no other way!" I stood up and encouraged myself. I immediately took a hair tie tied my hair up and rolled it up like a conde, and started cleaning the house as usual.

At 1 o'clock I was done, I threw myself into the bed, lying down to stretch my stiff muscles. "Well, the house has to be like this" I smiled satisfied with my work. I'm tired of being hungry too, praying first and then looking for food, that's what I planned.

Now I'm enjoying the meatballs on the side of the road somehow I feel bored at home. After that I walked around the school campus, without caring about how I look now, only using long training pants, shoulder t-shirts, messy fizzy hair, and without the slightest bit of makeup.Some teenagers glanced at me like they were mocking me, haha I don't care anymore whatever they think because now the purpose of my life is only my own happiness.

Arling* . I heard a text coming in, I opened my phone, an unknown number, I thought I was just opening and looking at the message.

"Hay Nia, it turns out that even though your holiday looks beautiful too!"

Wh who? could it be that Ardan I'm looking around looking for the whereabouts of whoever sent this message to me.

Arling* . One more sms.

"You looking for me, baby? do you know who I am?"

Due to frustration looking but not finding ready about the perpetrators of this text I also reply. "Who showed you?"

Tried*b*. "I'm the one who always loved you, but you never cared about me"

The deg! I'm starting to get scared. "Sorry, I don't know who you are, please don't scare me"

Tried*b*. "Haha, I scared you baby, be patient for now I just want to love you like this looking at you as I please"

Triing* ahh who the hell sucks once I open my phone and see the text "You've arrived home safely, i love you hehe". It's weird, he can't be Farhankan.

I tried to ignore the text of the freak, trying to calm down and live my life as usual even though he kept texting me every day to this day.

A boring Saturday as usual college study, lunch alone, go back to college and go home. I walked lazily home because I had no other destination. I saw a motorcycle speeding towards me, I was surprised without thinking of dodging. I also fell onto the asphalt on the small road next to my boarding entrance. Ahh it hurt so much my knees and elbows were scratched by the asphalt, the blood flowing out was quite a lot. I looked around, since when did this road become quiet, where is everyone when it was still afternoon, and where did the motorcycle come from , ahh shit I'm trying to stand up and walk slowly to my boarding house.

I finally got home, tired of taking a short break sitting on the floor next to my bed, breathing out to gather all my energy. But I don't know since when I've been asleep unconscious.

When I realized, the clock was pointing at 8 pm, my head was a little light now I saw my phone and there was a text there.

"You're okay, baby, are you hurt?" at 04:49, this was when I just got home.

"You're hurt bad? Why don't you read my text, I'm coming to your boarding house!" 07:40 .

The deg! My heart was about to jump in shock, my body suddenly felt limp, my head hurt, who is he ? what wrong? did he intentionally want to harm me? Quiet in all my own questions.

Tok, tok, tok ! There was a sound of knocking on the door up to 3 times I remained silent. I'm afraid I don't have the courage to meet him. Until the sound of the fourth knock I could hear someone's voice from outside.

"It's you inside! open door!" Farhan's? I'm sure it was Farhan's voice, I looked at the phone that was in my arms.

Is he Farhan?

Is he here to kill me? What crazy plan does he have?

Is his hatred for me that big?

What am I supposed to do, should I beg him for forgiveness?

I took a long breath.

All right let's see, whatever you want I'll do, even if I have to die in your hands. O Allah I miss you I am tired if this is my destiny please accept me by your side.

I tried to stand up, wipe my tears, and try to look strong. I opened the door and saw Farhan standing there smiling at me. "Hay how are you?" sapana.

I looked at her trying to smile but unable, with a cold expression I asked her. "What do you want to do here?"

He smiled and walked forward, I also slowly retreated because we were too close, Farhan grabbed my chin with his hand until my face was lifted up, now I can see his smiling face satisfied. "For what else? Of course to see how much you've suffered without me!".

I immediately let go of his hand that was holding my chin and walked backwards. It felt like my heart was slashed, split without bleeding, his words sounded like lightning coming without rain. Destroying my hearing, blurring my eyes, crushing my feet even I feel like I can't stand up anymore. With my back on the bedside table I tried to stay standing, looking at him with a threatening smile, grabbing a pair of scissors that I knew when I was there, pointed it at Farhan's face even though there was still a distance of about two meters between us. I screamed though it might sound like a desperate cry that no one else could hear but the two of us "Don't come closer please, I don't want to die in your hands, I don't want you to regret your whole life for killing me!" my threat is helpless.

Farhan what are you doing? Are you really want to see her going mad ? Hehe.