KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Missed you

Loving you like I breathing, how can I stop ?

Even you are gone, I am still love you now and always .

The sun was very hot, the weather was very bright, a good day for a vacation, but not with the face of Dawn the cloudy aura was very clearly visible, starting from the morning his mind continued to drift considering his first love, his first wife, his first wife, and his first child.

Given how happy his life used to be, despite leaving his family and choosing to marry a simple girl, leaving behind all his wealth and work. Starting a simple new life renting a small house, and being a farm laborer is already able to make him happy because he lives with the girl he loves.

Knowing the news that he would have children made him very active in work he promised to be a good father unlike his parents who were always busy working and curbing his son, he promised to be a good father unlike his parents who were always busy working and curbing his son, choose a way of life for his child without knowing whether his child is happy or not.

Every day he feels grateful to be able to marry a good girl, beautiful, hardworking, even though he is pregnant his wife also continues to work really extraordinary woman that is what he always thinks.

Waking up early, his wife cooked while Fajar helped sweep the floor, wash clothes, wash dishes, and do some other household chores. Everything is new to him, Alia the wife of Dawn teaches him how to clean the house. After that they went to the camp together. Even though Fajar had forbidden his wife to work because lately Alia was always pale because of her soy sauce.

Alia herself never said it out of fear that her husband would be worried. Alia is a stubborn girl who does not want to hear the words of her husband, she says working hard is a common thing she is not even used to silence. Ah how could Fajar not fall in love, he fell in love every day because of his excellent wife. Dawn likes to linger looking at the face of his wife, a cute young girl, beautiful and very worrisome.

After 8 months of gestational age, Alia felt very easily tired she could not work anymore because she had once fainted at home, her husband also forbade her to work.

That night was very cold, Fajar and Alia were lying together under a thin blanket.

"I hope our son will be beautiful like you!" said Fajar while stroking his wife's stomach.

Alia smiled "Of course our son will be beautiful because Fajar mas also handsome, mas Dawn knows how happy I am at this time, ah I can't wait to meet our son, I can't wait to meet our son, if our parents also knew, would they be happy ? They must be worried about our news now" he said sadly.

"I'm sorry, later after you give birth we visit our parents' house no matter how they are our family" said Fajar while hugging his wife.

"Yes I miss my mother and father" said Alia, closing her eyes enjoying the caress of Fajr's hand in her hair.

"It's so cold today, isn't it ? aren't you cold ?" Tanya Fajar was worried, the rural air was indeed very cold at night.

Alia smiled and shook her head "Mas Dawn is here" Alia looked at her husband's face "Mas Dawn is the morning sun for me I am always warm beside the Dawn mas"

Fajar smiled in embarrassment "Since when have you been good at seducing people ?" said mock.

"Since marrying Mas Fajar hehe" Alia smiled sweetly.

Dawn never forgets what his wife said at that time, for the first time he realized that his name was good. Dawn means sunrise.

Dawn also remembered the memory of the time his wife gave birth with great difficulty, he could not stop crying to see his wife who was in pain from giving birth to her child.

Dawn smiled in relief and kissed his wife's forehead "Thank you dear" he said in a happy cry.

Alia smiled and looked at her husband "Mas I want to rest please take care of our son yes!" he said it very slowly, hardly heard Dawn could understand because he saw his wife's lips and thought about what his wife said.

Dawn nodded and stroked his wife's hair "She sleeps I'll take care of our son"

Alia smiled and closed her eyes, Fajar held her son who had fallen asleep because he had been breastfed by his mother.

The doctor came back and checked Alia's condition, it turns out that she was gone, she died with a smile on her lips.

Like being struck by lightning, it felt like the heart of Dawn collapsed in disbelief, just now his wife was just asleep but now ? For the first time he truly felt the loss of the woman he loved had gone, tears kept raining down his cheeks.

Alia's body was delivered back to her parents' house, along with Fajar who carried her daughter. Alia's father and mother were so shocked that her mother fainted, Alia's father beat Fajar because he was so angry, his only daughter ran away with a man and now comes home with this state. Only an apology could Dawn speak and silently take the blow from Alia's father.

After the funeral was over, Alia's parents took their grandchildren because they did not believe that Dawn would be able to care for any baby girl. Dawn only gave him up because he was still not sure to be able to take care of his own son, without money and without a wife.

Fajar returned to his parents' house but was not accepted by his parents, he returned to his rented house, living with memories with his wife, some days he did not eat, did not work, did not take a bath, and did not take a bath, just lying in the room while staring at the empty ceiling like a dazed person. Not knowing what dreams and realities are, until an old man gives his neighbor his zest for Dawn. He is still young he has to work and later can meet his daughter again.

One day he meets his now late wife Destriana who falls in love for the second time though Alia's position is also irreplaceable. He lived happily until he forgot his first daughter.

Now seeing that his daughter was grown up, married, and hated him so much, he realized how evil people were like him. If time can be repeated again he wants to bring Nia to join his family but now it is too late, his days back in the past, imagining little Nia who lives hard to be left by her grandparents, going to the city for college and work, how hard life is. The Heart of Dawn felt like it was beaten every time he remembered it, he had no appetite, was often daydreaming, and could not focus on work, and now his wife was also very worried about him. But she still felt grateful that her daughter Nia had married a good man at least she felt calm now that there was protecting her daughter.

The next day Dawn and Destri visited Alia's tomb, for the first time Dawn came here, because all this time he was afraid to come, Fajar felt he was really a coward. The crying was spilled there looking at the flowers that were still not dry maybe Nia came yesterday. He apologized in silence, smelled the dirt on the tomb and cried out all the sadness he had saved for years.

I cried seeing her husband like that, jealous but also guilty of not being able to help anything.

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The clock still pointed at 8 pm, Farhan was getting tired of seeing his wife who was busy studying to finish her duties because yesterday leave permit, he wanted to help his wife's work but Nia refused.

Farhanpun gave up he did not want to bother him he let his wife to finish quickly. Farhan opened his phone browsing how to be a good father, how to take care of the baby, what to do when the wife is pregnant, somehow he felt very enthusiastic about wanting to have children soon, he said, he did not want to lose with his friend Anton who soon his wife will give birth when they used to often quarrel how they might now have children, hhhh love relationship is complicated.

Farhan smiled to himself looking at the cute baby photos, ahhh when do I have one like this ? he said in his heart.

Farhan had always hoped in his prayer that God would soon give them a boogey. But Nia hhhhh she stubbornly busy learning to maintain her scholarship. Is it okay for Farhan also can not force it, slowly, if it is time to be loved too.

Cute daddy, you will have soon ! waiting for author give you a baby ! Hehe ^