KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Make a decision

Nia

Back into my quiet and comfortable boarding house, it seems like my life has not been collected all. I was still standing at the door remembering all the events of today.

It feels like my face is hot, and this heart, ahh noisily can not be silent what? I smiled looking at my hand, recalling Farhan who had been snarling it earlier, closed my eyes wanting to feel the lingering warm feeling.

"Can I kiss you?" farhan's red face again appeared before me. I held my cheek that was starting to get hot, I smiled, jumped up and down, then threw myself on the bed. Grabbing my roll and hugging it, drowning my face there.

Get into my own imagination, man,

You want to kiss me like this? muah . one kiss on guling haha

Or do you want to hug me like this?. I tightened my embrace still smelling his scent.

I opened my eyes when I realized I was pushing my roll. Nia you are crazy, he is not your husband, ahhh if I should have just answered his proposal . So stupid anyway ? but if he thinks I'm a matre girl how ? Damn it ! I kicked my roll until it fell on the floor . Then take it again. He looked at it as if it was Farhan.

Do you really like me ?

Are you too perfect for me ?

I'm nobody, I'm not that pretty either !

Later if you are bored will you leave me ?

Ahhhh, I don't understand anything about you ?

I can't believe it, can I?

Where is blind love ?

I've never even felt it ?

What does it feel like to be loved ?

If you leave me too, how?

I'm afraid, open something too beautiful it will disappear easily ?

Farhan I love you too !

I want to kiss you too !

I re-hugged my guling, and grabbed my hp, no text from Farhan did he come home safely?

This is even a text from Ardan, it seems he was disappointed because I canceled our appointment. Should I try to be honest with him? If I already have a lover, so that he can get a little away, I also do not want to give false hope. But we're friends, if he gets angry and doesn't want to be friends with me anymore what? I don't know whatever happens I have to talk to him.

The day kept changing, something I was worried about didn't happen. We are still friends even though sometimes a little bit. I told him about Farhan and he also told me about his girlfriend Sinta, Sinta's name reminds me of my childhood friend (see episode 2). Actually I was a little curious but I did not ask him further anyway if it was true that his face must have changed maybe we would not be able to recognize each other if we met . He might have changed and forgiven me.

After eating with the group members, Ardan accompanied me to relax until my part-time work began.

He looked at me trying to paint a scene, looking at me in focus, like he was smiling.

Half an hour passed and I was finally done with my painting. Ardan looked at it and laughed. Really not in line with the expectations of my painting being destroyed really like a child's painting, this is all because Ria at High School time she saw me working on PR painting. He looked at me in awe, and he said that maybe I have a talent for painting, while giving condiments that painting is expensive so if I were a painter then I would be successful.

Maybe because I used to be too innocent I just followed Ria's words. But see the reality now? I wasted my money on art and the results were nil, even my paintings could not be identified, it was a pretty sight but if I painted it all looks abstract really disappointing.

Now I question Ria again when it must be that she was just teasing me, and she could laugh happily because I really did what she said. If I ever see her again I'd love to grab her hair and fight to hold her accountable.

"Are you serious, you're drawing this sight ?" Ardan laughed as he looked at a picture on the paper that I was trying to draw.

I'm ashamed maybe my cheeks are blushing now. "I know I don't have any talent at all, I shouldn't have wasted my time and money on art majors "I'm pouting.

Ardan kept laughing while sticking pink paint to my nose using his index finger "Haha so you want to stop ? Do you want to study English with me next year? hehe I will help you" he said then did not stop laughing.

"No way, I entered the Department of Bahasa Indonesia alone maybe I can become a teacher or maybe at least I can become a writer" said I confidently.

Still laughing Ardan re-attached various colors of paint on my face "Looks like you're funny I think you're more suitable to be a clown haha" his laughter grew louder because he was satisfied to tease me.

"Damn you're the clown!" I took a lot of dye in my hand preparing to attack him, I wanted to stand up and run after him, yet had time to move my legs I tripped and fell on Ardan's body.

The atmosphere became silent for a moment I tried to lift my head which had hit his chest. I saw Ardan he was looking at me ! For a moment I forgot because I admired his good looks. But not long after that I started attacking his face without moving my body first . We laughed together, and then we stood together.

Ardan looked at me I felt ashamed trying to take my eyes off, I stared out the window, a man I knew standing there with a dislike look. His eyes were emitting a murderous aura, I was afraid that never once had I seen Farhan get angry. He just stood there after our eyes clashed against each other he just left me.

A sense of regret filled my chest, it felt so tight I had difficulty breathing how is this ? Since when was he there? He must have misunderstood. I turned my eyes to Ardan who seemed to know who he was.

"Fast after him !" His words awakened my daydream .

I realized without answering I ran out to chase after him. O Allah, do not let Him misunderstand, may he hear my explanation.

Nia you will die now !! Hehe