KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Tears

Farhan

The road started to look crowded by vehicles. I don't really care like half my life is still missing somewhere. Staring at the street with a blank stare as the traffic lights turned red, and the sound of car horns behind that were impatient to run because the lights had turned green, woke up my daydream.

Still not aware of what just happened, still not believing what I saw in the University earlier. Nia is a figure that I admire, and I believe it actually betrayed me.

Going home, taking a shower, having dinner with my mom, it all still looks like a dream. Mama looked worried about my attitude She asked about a lot of things but I forgot and just answered her question. Tired, my body feels exhausted I lay my body in bed forgetting all my work, and trying to forget whatever happened today, until I fell asleep.

The next day I woke up, opened my eyes that still felt heavy, I tried to remember if I had a dream last night. I'm looking for reassurance by looking at my wounded right hand, plaster ? the thing I was afraid of was not a dream. What I did yesterday was jealous while angry, to make Nia hurt, and cry, after that I still left her angry without listening to the slightest explanation.

I curled up in this warm room, but it was cold in my body I tried to pull the blanket to drive away the cold. What is Nia doing now is she still crying like me? Has the wound improved? If the guy is just his friend, then no one else can comfort him. At a glance yesterday's scene, when they look at each other and laugh back across my mind. My anger is back, Shit!! What I'm worried about is clearly a look of love, Nia won't cry now, only I'm here like a fool lamenting this relationship.

Today I didn't go to work because I couldn't control my emotions, my mother went to the room to bring me breakfast. Mama saw me crying like a baby. I don't care, I want to say everything to my mom like a child complaining to her parents when her things are forcibly taken.

Mama didn't respond much, She didn't defend Nia in the slightest, She just hugged me patting my shoulder and I still kept crying in her arms.

I don't know how long I finally realized and I apologize for acting like a child.

Mama smiled as she helped me wipe away the remaining tears with her hands. "Love you son, you won't let anyone hurt your only child, even if it's Nia!" . Mama stroked my hair gently then looked me in the eyes "Did you love her until you cried like this?" .

I just nodded, "But he betrayed me ma!" coming back to cry I didn't even care how childish I was, if only Nia knew this she would have laughed at me.

"You want mom to teach her a lesson ?" said mama again.

"Don't! Just let him live his life I wonder if he can be happy without me "my answer is confident.

"Well, eat your food!" mama said as she let go of her arms, offering two slices of bread with milk, "You must have the energy to get revenge !"

I took it and ate the bread. I still think what can I do to get revenge with him? seeing her tears yesterday had already cut my heart. If I want to hurt him it's the same as trying to hurt myself.

A few weeks passed, I never saw Nia again, even she did not come to apologize, ahhh what do I expect from her ? I called my closest friend Anton to take him out to dinner together, which sounds a little weird when grown men eat dinner together.

I invited her to dinner at the hotel where Nia worked, I don't know what I was thinking, maybe I just wanted to make sure it was, she said, past events about I who was angry were not clear to him, maybe I can work on it again now.

Anton continued to talk about his wife, who rarely quarreled now, and he proudly showed off that he would soon become a father. Sure enough it made me jealous, I congratulated, but my body was still not calm, my eyes were still looking for the figure I missed.

"What are you doing again ?" ask Anton to surprise me. I didn't answer. "You're looking for that waitress who's Nia, right, you're still fighting ? in the relationship of the quarrel is common, you're a guy sorry to solve your problems anyway you want to be single for life" Ejeknya laugh giggling.

"Ehh realized I'm your boss" I replied sadistically.

"Haha okay sorry boss, so what are you here to do?"

"I want to teach him a lesson".

Anton laughed, "If you're a grown man, don't be ashamed of what you want to do with a girl".

"Damn lo, can not be diem" said I was still busy looking for the whereabouts of Nia.

"Udah stop ajalah, I have a lot of girl acquaintances want me to know, besides you will have a lot of employees beautiful girls again they must be happy to give themselves".

"Beautiful what an ugly all that is!" cold answer.

Anton laughed "So you think only Nia is so beautiful, or artist you can even choose them, artist of today is beautiful, sexy-sexy anyway".

I didn't answer just looking at him with a murderous look. It kept Anton quiet.

But not long after a while he again nagged "Young master, you are very handsome, rich, smart, and also very charming, why do you chase such a servant ?" I didn't answer, and then he came back to tease me "Don't your favorite type is indeed a sexy waitress so" he whispered, amusing me.

"I said shut up, want you to fire me!"

"Don't you young master, my wife will definitely kill me if I don't have a job, let alone soon I also have children surely our needs will increase!".

I just smiled, thought this was the life of the household, even Anton had changed because of love even he wanted to beg me.

Anton called one of the maids to come closer, to my surprise I didn't know what he wanted, the maid walked over and stood in front of us. Anton whispered to me "Look at her body, she's also prettier than Nia, want to try acquaintance?".

I glared angrily at him "You want to die huh! ".

Anton laughs and asks the girl to sit next to Anton.

The waiter nodded "Yes sir, he quit two weeks ago" he replied.

"Why ?" I was curious, which made Anton laugh at me.

"She said she wanted to focus on college, so she couldn't work anymore" she replied.

"Are you close to him?" ask again.

"I only know him sir, he seems to be quiet he has no close friends here "

"Why? are you guys hostile to him?" I'm still curious.

"No sir, he himself confines himself that he only comes on time and then comes home when the time of work is over, he never attends the party even he does not join our group" Fearingly answered. "Why sir does he have a problem with you?"

"Yes he dared to cheat on my friend" said anton to surprise me.

The waiter slightly thought her expression was like disbelief "Sorry master you seem to have misunderstood, it doesn't seem like she's that kind of girl!"

"What do you mean?" it managed to make me curious.

"All I know is that Nia is a good girl, she never even talked to the waitresses here. Actually I used to try to get close to him, because he once helped me beat up my girlfriend who is also a waiter here, my boyfriend trying to fuck me, my girlfriend trying to fuck me, but I was very lucky because there was Nia at that time who could save me. That was the beginning I wanted to be close to him. I kept following her and asking a lot of questions, and all I knew was that she was a nice girl she told me once that she couldn't recognize a man's face".

"What ?" making me jump in shock, that's the reason, he didn't recognize me when we met in the college park. "Continue !".

It seemed like she was surprised but continuing her saying "I feel like she is the only person who is difficult to approach, I once asked her if she has a boyfriend or not, she timidly answered yes, she said, and he told me a lot about his girlfriend, and I heard clearly that he said that this is the first time he's been dating!"

"What's his name ? nia's boyfriend "

"It looks like Farhan" he said later.

It made me smile.

"You know the reason why he can't recognize a man's face?" I was still curious, even Ria never told me this.

"She said she hated men let alone jerks, too many men who teased her often, even many of the servants here were also after him but they did not dare to approach because Nia was very good at martial arts, they were already scared before trying".

"Are you his only friend?".

"I'm not her friend sir, the lady-servant here doesn't like her either, because they say that Nia is too cute and arrogant so they don't want to be friends with her, it's just that I've used it once when everyone else is busy".

"All right, I understand" I said.

"Is the master his girlfriend?" the tanyanya surprised me.

"Yes !" my answer.

"Are you guys fighting?" I didn't answer. He lowered his face "Actually I am afraid that many people out there will disturb Nia I hope that you can get better with her soon! ".

"Alright I'll think about it" I nodded as I picked up my wallet taking some money wide and gave it to the servant girl.

"No sir, thank you, I'm happy that you want to believe my words and can make up with Nia again" he said.

"Take him a lot of money so don't hesitate" Anton took the money in my hand and gave it to the servant by force. "The windfall must not be denied, now you can go" said Anton again.

The waiter thanked me and left. Finally the burden on my chest that had been piling up started to evaporate. I miss Nia, I want to meet her now hugging her tightly apologizing without any more embarrassment. I immediately grabbed my phone and stood up "I'm leaving first, I have to resolve this misunderstanding" I told Anton.

Anton just smiled to understand "Success bro, uh don't forget to pay for the food".

I smiled and hit him on the head slowly "Eating a lot of rare free food".

Without waiting for an answer from her I immediately ran away, towards the place I always wanted to go, forgetting all the past and trying to get her love back.

Now here I am under a two-story boarding building. Gazing from under the building saw Nia's room lights on. He was in the room, what should I do later, would he accept me with joy? If he gets angry and rejects me how , do I have to cry and beg like he did to me first ? Many questions filled me, but unable to reduce my spirit to move forward, it was time I fought for my love, left my ego and tried to hear my heart !.

Farhan I love you !! Hehe .