KEEP THE FAITH (Believe in God)

Jealous

I'm not perfect

I'm make mistakes

Have jealousy issue, and trust issue

I can be moody sometimes

But I promise you, if I say I love you, I mean it

I'm faithful, I'm loyal, and I will do everything I can to keep you

Don't confuse my caring for being controlling

Don't make me put in all the effort

Don't ingnore me

Love me back like you mean it, or don't stay

Together, we are strong enough to welcome the worst of the worst

Alone, we struggle to find the meaning of the relationship.

For a month Mariam had never met Nia, she got the news that her best friend was pregnant with her first child. Mariam was happy even though she was a little bored because she had no friends, she spent her rest time eating and reading the Qur'an.

Anybody wonder what the newlyweds are doing ?

Everything went smoothly as usual they got up early for the morning prayers. Zain cooked for their breakfast, as well as the dinner he kept in the refrigerator. While Mariam washed clothes, swept the floor, cleaned some furniture that looks dusty. After they finished, they had breakfast together. Talk a few things about family, work, or just a crunchy joke. Finished, Zain drove his wife to college, after which he went to his office, for just information Zain just bought a new car because he did not want to take his wife on a motorcycle. (Another reason may be that he is an over-protective husband type like Farhan hehe does not want his wife to be someone else's sight.)

Mariam had to take a taxi to go home, because her husband worked until 7 pm sometimes until 10 pm if he was overtime. Mariam is getting diligent studying now she wants to graduate and work immediately, so as not to continuously ask for money on her husband.

Today, Zain said he could pick up Mariam at college because Zain was on a work holiday. It turned out that the police were not good, his days off were not always Sunday, he had to adjust the schedule with others, he only got one day off in a week, he just got one time off in a week, if you do not take the day off, you will get an additional salary.

Now that Mariam understands what her real husband means, Zain once said that she is not ready to get married because she has to focus on her work. Because the work is so much, they are rarely together, when Zain came home from work already exhausted, eating and sleeping, if he came home early he was busy with other criminal cases. Huh deserve a wife who wants to accept a husband who works up to that, sometimes Mariam thinks if there is only one policeman, why her husband is always busy, sometimes Mariam thinks if there is only one police officer, or maybe there are too many criminals so there is too much work to handle.

Today Zain is going to pick her up, Mariam little hope that her husband will take her for a walk because it has been more than a month Mariam does not go anywhere other than campus and home.

Mariam also never went shopping because her husband always bought groceries when he came home from work. Although Mariam had never gone anywhere before, she used to have friends talking. Now he feels lost with his mother and his brother. Her husband once said that Mariam could be free after marriage but the problem was that Mariam had no friends and she had no place to go but to go home, if she came home to her parents, her mother would be angry if she came alone without her husband. Hhhh life is not easy. Especially now that his best friend is also on college leave, he feels very lonely.

On the other hand Ardan secretly watches over Mariam someone he loves, because he knows that Nia is on college leave because she is pregnant. He wanted to get close to Mariam because he felt sorry to see her alone. But he remembered Mariam saying that they should not approach before they were ready for marriage. Finally Ardan could only guard it from the side.

As usual, Ardan watches over Mariam until she takes a taxi home, not wanting anything bad to happen to her lover. (Thou art like a stalker!)

Ardan stared at Mariam waiting for a taxi in front of the campus, a black Avanza stopped in front of Mariam. A man came out and opened the door for his girlfriend. 'Who is he ?' Ardan knew for sure that it wasn't Mariam's sister. Out of curiosity Ardan quickly picked up his motor and followed them.

Various prejudices arise in his mind, is Mariam cheating, who is she ? didn't Mariam have promised to wait until the two of them were completely ready for marriage. Feelings of anger, confusion, fear, everything mixed in Ardan's mind, whether this is the end of their love of separation with just a sweet promise. But Ardan tried to believe in his lover, he tried to throw away all dirty thoughts, hopefully the man was just a brother instead of a girlfriend, let alone a bad person.

At first glance: Nia forgot to tell Ardan that Mariam was married, due to being betrothed by her parents.

Mariam's car stopped at a restaurant, and Ardan stopped and followed her from behind. It turns out that Ardan's reconnaissance efforts have been known by Zain.

Zain was already suspicious that the motor behind him was following his car, while Mariam did not know anything.

Zain waited in the car accidentally not getting into the restaurant waiting for the man who followed him to come in and look for him.

"Why don't we go out ?" mariam asked confused.

"I'm waiting for someone, he's coming soon" Zain told his wife.

"Who ?" mariam asked, still curious.

"Srush !" Zain looked at the man who was following him on the motorcycle, then the man entered the restaurant but not long after that the man came out again in annoyance.

Mariam looked at her husband confused, she also looked at the direction where her husband's eyes were fixed.

Ardan why is he here ? Mariam is shocked to see Ardan.

"Not wrong, he's following us !" zain said, opening the door to get out.

"Where are you going ?" mariam asked fearing that they would fight.

"You wait inside" said Zain and went out to meet the stalker.

"You, are you following me ?" Zain asked the stalker.

"Did you go with Mariam, where was she ?" without wanting to answer the question of the man he faced Ardan chose to ask back because he was curious about the state of his lover.

"What business do you have looking for him ?" ask Zain again.

"I was just wondering why Mariam came home with you ?" ardan said firmly.

"Is it because I'm her husband ?" zain said with confidence.

"Husband ? don't lie Mariam is my girlfriend !" Ardan was angry.

Without words Zain immediately hit Ardan's face, until his lips bled.

Mariam, who knew about it, got out of the car to break up their quarrel.

"Wait, this is a misunderstanding let me explain !" mariam said, until Zain and Ardan looked at her.

"Get in the car" Zain ordered his wife.

"Wait a minute, don't fight I can explain everything !" mariam said she would not leave.

Zain was angry to see his wife who seemed to be defending the man "I said get in the car" snapped Zain.

"Hey can you talk softly to a girl she told you she would explain everything !" ardan said he could not accept that the man who claimed to be Mariam's husband even yelled at his wife like that.

Zain turned to Ardan and pulled his collar "I don't care what your relationship is, Mariam is my wife, don't bother her anymore, and about how I talk to her, you don't have to teach because I know what I'm doing" Zain said with a deadly look.

Ardan instead laughed "What kind of man treats his wife like that !" ardan said he would not lose.

Zain again beat him, while Mariam tried to stop them.

When the police officer came to see the commotion, Zain immediately pulled his wife's hand back to the car before more serious problems occurred.

While Ardan tried to stand aided by the security guard, Ardan let Mariam and her husband go because he did not want Mariam to get in trouble again, although he did not know the reason why suddenly his lover was married, he decides to find out about Nia.

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Zain drove his car without saying a word, Mariam wanted to explain today's incident, but she was afraid to open her mouth, she was afraid that her husband would get angry and something happened that she did not want.

Arriving in front of the house, Zain parked his car into the garage, then opened the car door for his wife he pulled his wife's hand to get out. He violently unlocked the door of the house while his left hand continued to grip his wife.

The door opened he immediately entered and closed the door unlocked. He went into the room and pushed his wife into the bed. She opened the veil and veil of Mariam violently, and when Mariam began to cry she did not know what her husband was thinking.

Zain kissed his wife's lips for the first time after their marriage, but not gently, until Mariam had trouble breathing after all this was her first kiss. While Zain's hand was trying to take off his wife's shirt.

After the shar'i shirt was released now only the underwear is still attached, Zain kissed his wife's neck while muttering.

"Do you know how long I've been waiting for this ? I gave you freedom, because I thought you could take care of yourself. I waited until you could love me. But what do I see, a guy who says he's your girlfriend ? Tell me what you did behind my back, since when did you get into a relationship with him ?" Zain was really angry, he felt betrayed, he waited for his wife to answer but only sobs were heard.

Zain stopped doing his activities, he saw his wife who was crying without a fight. "Why are you crying, what sin are you doing quickly say !" Zain said in a loud voice he could no longer control his emotions.

Mariam had no idea where she should explain it from, she looked at her angry husband "What sin ? what do you think, what do you think I've committed ?" Mariam sat down and kissed her husband, now her hand trying to unbutton her husband's shirt.

"Stop !" zain said as his wife tried to kiss him on the neck. Zain encouraged his wife to stop she looked at his seemingly innocent wife's face.

Mariam just cried, she let her tears flow, begging her husband to believe her.

"Sorry, stop crying !" zain said, wiping away his wife's tears.

Mariam looked at her husband "Why, why don't you trust me ? hiks hyks" Mariam cries harder, she wants to be a baby now, has a lot of tiredness in her now she wants to get it all out.

Zain's heart melted he felt guilty and hugged his wife to be silent "I'm sorry !" zain said, kissing his wife's head.

"Why don't you listen to my explanation ?" mariam said again, he wanted to say a lot of complaints but it felt like his throat had been choked by tears he could only cry, without being able to say anything.

"I'm sorry, I'm wrong, sorry !" Zain was completely guilty, he kept hugging his wife until she fell asleep tired of crying.

Mariam fell asleep in her husband's arms, slowly Zain put his wife to sleep on the bed, wiped away the tears that had not dried up, stared at at at the glimpse of his wife's helpless body, his gaze turned into an ache when he saw his wife's arm turn red due to her overpowering grip. Zain cried "What have I done ?". Zain covered his wife's body with a blanket and then came out of the room to calm down.

For husbands never do this !! so sad to write it ! hix **