KANGENS

forgave him. .

. .2 weeks later....

I was still in Bandung, , actually I was bored every day at home.I started kangen hotel, but I was lazy to go back to Bali..

today I decided to go out of the room, I sat on the sofa.seen mama is opening 2 fashion magazines.I sit back, I eat a snack at the table.I watch my favorite drama, I watch, korean drama. .

" *you don't want to go back to Bali? "ask..

" no .." I said flat

" how bad you fight so you don't want to go back to Bali" asked the curious mama. .

" no, we don't fight.I just need time, this marriage is based on matchmaking.I just need time to understand it. that's all." I said a little emotion.

"antonie, last night called my mom to ask about your situation, yaa mama said it was quiet. "

"do you know I'm sick? ' ask me

" yaaa.. dya often call mama, but dya said the end2 is busy so can not come here, most tomorrow here."

" oh "my words are short.

mama got up from the chair and headed to the park to see the son, I was still cool on the sofa.

while smoking..

I feel calm if I smoke, somehow I can't stop. .

mom is seen coming in with the son..

" you can't stop with cigarettes? "didn't antonie ban you? " ask my mother a little cynical.

I looked at my sharp mom. "why keep antonie and antonie, I'm sick of it.! "my words are half screaming..

" you scared the son, zivana" mama looked angry at me. .

" oh. I'm sorry.." I said flatly.

" just take care of your favorite child.mama never understood me even when mama betrothed me. It's only marriage that will make the business of mama's husband bigger...

" Zivana." cried my mama

I looked at him sharply, for some reason the soul re-contacts*.

I then rushed to my room. I took my bag in the room, then I went with my car. I don't know where, my house in Bandung has been rented.I'm right2 confused, all the way I was driving out of focus.

" did I call you, but I don't want you to know about my problem. . "my murmur..

" where am I going? "do I have to keep running..

finally I decided to go to the cafe where I used to hang out. It was raining very hard, I did not bring a jacket..

I ordered coffee, to warm my body and then I smoked..

my phone rang continuously from mama, kak vano and mia.mama must have contacted kak vano to find out where I was..

I have to go home or go, I don't know I'm confused. .I keep smoking cigarettes, I don't know how many cigarettes I spend.

It's late afternoon, I'm still at the cafe..

I couldn't keep running I had to face it, I decided to go home. When I got home, I saw my mommy, my stepfather and the familiar man, antonie..

I ignored them, I headed to my room.antonie pulled my hand..

" wait" he said..

I turned to look at him sharply.Our eyes met were very full of emotion..

" let go" I said

" zivana, let's talk good2" said my stepfather.

" don't interfere, who do you think you are? I said look at him..

antonie still holds my hand..

" zivana.." cried my mother

it was like I was being attacked by 3 people..

Antonie was silent, and I couldn't believe what I was saying. I walked over to my mom and stepdad.antonie followed me and then we sat down on the couch..

" you want to talk about good2 ..

okay, then I want a divorce. "I said flat...

my mother was surprised by my word2

my stepfather stared intently at me

as for antonie, her eyes were flushed. I think she wanted to hit me or whatever it was I didn't care..

" why are you silent...? "

if nothing is talked about, I'll go to my room. "

I went from the couch to my room, I closed the door, my heart was beating, maybe I let my mom down but I couldn't keep going.

they only care about their interests never thinking about my feelings.

I sat on the bed, my eyes empty..

clekkk....

the sound of someone opening the door, I saw that antonie. dya approached me, I think he was very angry with kata2ku who wanted a divorce..

" *you're leaving me? " ask antonie

I just fell silent, I was still hurt by her kata2 which likened me to a bitch.

" answer me" antonie shouted..

I was shocked and then looked at him..

" yaaaa. "I said flat.

then he knelt down,,

" i'm sorry, I'm selfish..

I don't understand you. "his voice is starting to hoarse..

" what turned you antonie into a melt and again kneeling before me, I was fed up. "I said annoyed.

I rubbed my face many times2..

" where have you been all this time? " having 2 with your lover is the same2 strange to you. Do you feel dissatisfied and end up looking for me? don't you want me no more because I'm no longer a virgin." I said and cried..

" you ask how many men are fucking me? I answered 2 ..SATISFIED you!! "my words are full of emotion..

now I ask, how many women do you sleep with and get laid with your disorder.??? replied mr. antonie? " i said looking at him...

dya....

" i. I. admit I was wrong, I think you're just like my mother and the other woman2 that I slept with, but you're different.. mama Grace also loves you very much "she said she was still on her knees..

" either antonie, I was too hurt. "then I cried a mouthful*..

Antoni stood up and hugged me. I tried to let go of his embrace but he hugged me very tightly.

" i'm sorry, my anger overcame my love for you. "I really2 love you, I don't want you to go. "he said..

i'm staring..

" are you crying???" I wiped the tears on his cheek..

" please don't leave me, Zivana"

I tightened my antonie's embrace, why I'm falling out, my heart felt like I was starting to love antonie.

antonie carried me to the bed, and that night me and antonie did it slowly, antonie made me sigh and continue sighing.I reached my climax already 2x, antonie treated me very gently.. antonie finally reached the peak of her enjoyment..

we both fell asleep because of exhaustion...

mon maap yes if the novel is still lacking

I hope many people read . thank you!!!