KANGENS

Throes

Today I do not want to go to work, , I still want to drumah. . I enjoy my day2 at home, , I often sit on the balcony enjoying the beautiful afternoon sky . .I enjoy my cigarettes and beer cans that I have spent either brp bnyak. .bgtu also jga cigarettes either brpa rod I spent. .

I still can't believe that Ray betrayed me but by hearing the voice of the woman who picked up the phone, , my confidence is no more. .my heart hurts every time I remember that voice. .

But I can't be late. I have to walk straight ahead, , it's getting dark. I'm coming in, I'm closing my balcony door..

I went downstairs and sat down on the couch, , I smoked my cigarette. I watched the tv even though there was nothing good in my opinion. .I want to play the phone tp I'm lazy,, I turned it off 2 days ago. .

The bell rang. . I immediately opened the door, and it turned out to be a revan. I was confused to let him in or tell him to go home, , Revan brought a paper bag and handed it to me I saw it was my shirt and bag.. i'm picking it..

" i can't go in? "asked

I was silent for a while, and then allowed him to enter even though I was still angry with him.

" what to drink? " excuse me bi imas does not exist, already home.only this canned drink." I said.

Revan was just speechless looking at me which might look messy. .

" zii, "he said slowly

"iyaaa." I said lazily.

then he came closer and sat down next to me, and he took my hand..

" i realize, I was wrong yesterday.I'm not screwed I broke off my engagement with the tiara, , I don't know tomorrow msh jd director or not...I don't know what's going to happen to my company" he said, rubbing his face..

it was seen from his face since earlier implied a burden so heavy..

honestly I was surprised by what he said but I was confused what to say, I was angry with him immediately became pity. .

"km feel sorry? " i said, 'Why did that word2 come out of my mouth.

" there is nothing I regret in my decision, , I can't stand it" said Revan, looking at me. .

I think me and revan sama2 are fucked up

Revan was silent for a moment, then hugged me, I was shocked..

" now I'm the backrest, 'sorry I yesterday gk anterin km home. .sorry me, I yesterday benar2 very chaotic." he said with a trembling voice..

my heart says it can't resist it., , my hand starts rubbing 2 her back..

" i love km, that's not going to change! " said..

" van." I said softly..

" i gpp ..gak be a lover of km, but I want to always be beside km. be a backup when km need it" said Revan

I let go of her embrace, and then looked at her with sincerity in her eyes. Then I wiped the tears that were dripping down her cheeks. .

" i don't know how I feel, "I said

" i don't ask you to return my feelings."as time goes by the feeling will grow again., I'm sure it. Let me always be beside you, km, I'm sure,, tp klo it for km gk comfortable I will go. ."

I just kept staring at him, ,dya then kissed my forehead.reflex my eyes closed enjoying it. .

" km isthat, , I go home first." he said with a smile. .

" km jga, , take care of yourself km baik2" I said while stroking his arm 2. .

Revan went home. . I closed the door and locked it, then I went to my room.

The next day, ,

Today I was a little busy, , my work was left behind so I had to be right2 finish it. .hours after hours passed.. I'm starting to think about Revan, what's fine2 only.

I can't talk at noon, lbh can be silent, until you tease me..

arya comforted me, I smiled. I am grateful to have friends like them..

The hour was over, I rushed to my room. .I finished my work .tdk felt it was time to go home...

I decided to go to apartment revan, , why do I want ksana, I drive my car, stop by the supermarket for a while. I buy food and drinks for revan. .

arriving d apartment, ,revan long open the door..make me worried..some minutes later finally open jg, I see revan very chaotic. revan hnya..

" want to eat? " said

"gk need to bother2. .nnti klo hungry, I can order klo gk make your own. "

" kok gtu, gpp dong occasionally ak make km food. "

" okay" he said briefly..

I started cooking, I tied my hair up, ,

arrived2 Revan hugged me from behind..

"i am comfortable with the body of km." makes me comfortable. "he said by sticking my chin on my neck.

" hmmm. jgn strange2, I lg cook. "my words are busy cooking food for him..

"let's just say, 'km to my fiancee'" he said, kissing my neck..

"don't get rich gini please, van. "I said that I began to get nervous about his treatment but my body could not resist it. .

Revan took off his embrace, "km uncomfortable huh" he said in a disappointed tone.

I nodded. Revan also moved away and sat down on the sofa turn on the tv. .

I also finished cooking, , I called revan to eat. he came up to me and msh with his pouting face. .

I looked at him who was eating, , so sweet this man from dlu never changed, from the beginning I knew him. . My greedy soul appeared, , I wanted it.. I shook my head and stopped daydreaming. .

I light my cigarette, I sit down dsofa.revan msh eat..after I finished dya approached me. "honest, I don't like km ngerokok tp it right km, I can't deny km. "said Revan while sitting next to me

" clo don't like udh, don't have a d near me. "I said flat.

" i can't, I can't. .it's too hard for me" he said

I just fell silent, 'then I turned off my cigarette. .

" i think I should go home" I said standing up..

revan pulled my hand making me fall on his lap. .

"i want you to stay here" he said, , looking at me stroking my lips 2. .

I fell silent, my body began to melt with her treatment of me.

Revan kissed my lips, , my eyes closed. .

knpa I began to enjoy every touch. "this is my inner danger".

I can't get caught between ray and revan. I have to decide which one I choose. .