KANGENS

3 Months later. . .

Today my mood is not good, since the day of my brother's engagement, 'I have become moody. I rarely speak and become cold!! Ray there's nothing to call me, not even a goodbye. .

I'm right2 sure, he's just playing me like the other girls2 who sleep with..

Honestly I'm sorry, sorry to give up my virginity to her. knpa always regret comes at the end?? always like that. .had happened, everything has happened... I am confused what I will tell my mother....is anyone still willing to marry me??? my mother must be disappointed with my sister.. .

Mia always asks knp ak jd different. ak hnya answer me ok2 only. no more cheerful me. ak mnjdi cold, , sometimes hotel employees become the target of my anger. .

what the hell's going on?? I'm angry at myself sndri. .

As usual I k the hotel, check all the state of the dhotel.. I sit my room, I play my laptop.. arrived2 my employees knock on the door. .

" get in. " I said

" i'm sorry, ma'am, someone wants to see you" she said

" let me wait. "I said flat

I was curious, who would want to meet me. I approached them, it turned out to be andin and arya, they smiled and hugged me. "ahhhh. kangen" said Andin.

I smiled a flashlight..

" great skrg lo zii, I'm proud of you. " said arya..

" usually aza, let's sit. "I said, as I took out my cigarette..

" nothing has changed from you" said Arya

" hmmmm." I said flat.

" oh. iia jd forgot, we are here to give our invitation. anyways km d contact difficult bgt now." said andin.

"congratulations to your marriage. "I said briefly. .

" km is fine2, right? " ask andin worried.. .

" very good" I said flat..

Maybe you and Arya started to feel something different about me. .

" km came, right? andin looked at me

" yes, " I said briefly..

" yeah already we want to walk2 dlu,, may we meet lg, the heart km already better.. , we know km.. this is not the actual km. "said andin. .

I was silent, piercing andin's words.It is true, I tried to be cold to cover up all the regrets in me. .

Andin and Arya went, I actually miss them so much that my heart feels frozen. .

I turn off my cigarette and I go to my room again. .

The clock is 4pm, ,

I feel tired, I decided to go home. .

I threw myself in bed, I started thinking. I had to be my new self, not easy to fall into the arms of a man, everything I experienced because of my stupidity. .

I spend every day dkmar, watching movies or ppn drakor. I'm getting crazed with cigarettes..

Mia sometimes came to my room, persuaded me to walk2 k mall or nontton dcinoscope, I always refused it. not eager to get out, ,sdngkan mama blm know with my current attitude. .

" mama's boy how did I fuck? "mama said, holding my hand..

" mama's feelings" I said

" deady smoking, gt udh thin body still continues to smoke, , body love km. "he said while reminding. .

" yaa maaa. "I said as I turned off my cigarette

" maaa, I miss" I said

" began spoiled niii." said my mother..

" kpn we bobo together maa, kangen d elus2 sma d hug mom klo bobo." I said

" well you know, klo mama bobo together with the same km, the prince also dong, gpp! "

I immediately frowned, I didn't like my step-sister.dya stole my mom's attention from me. .

" uhh. can't gtu, it's a sister km! " mama said while stroking my cheek2

" yaaa." I said briefly.

" this.daughter mama one2nya age already want 25, tp still spoiled.meatya pnya husband let d manjain sma husband." said my mother.

" ahhh. mama.mama makah mulu..kak vano aja just want to marry tomorrow, later lg pgn own." I said spoiled

" okay. tp remember the same agreement we were 25 km blm there was a partner, mama who acted. "said my mother while pinching my id..

" ah. mama akhatt..

Sis vano and mia to see me, mama just laughed to see me..

" ordinary van, again spoiled2nya." said mama while shouting k kak vano

" gratitude deh maaa, because the end2 is a bit strange dya maaa." said kak vano.

" no. maa. who's weird. " I said evasive..

" it's not strange, msh beautiful tp kurusan skrg" said my mother meledek...

Sis vano and mia smiled at my mother's words, and I pouted!!

Mama then left, , I still sat by myself ..See my surroundings that look so perfect from the start of the decoration.and the flowers2 white roses that beautify, the gusts of wind began to resuscitate me,,, and,, I immediately moved on and entered the k inside..

yes..the concept is outdoor, deket beach.it sii mia want. .

The anticipated day arrives.the wedding of brother vano and mia.

I try to calm the nervous mia, I hold her hand.Dya looks so beautiful with a white dress that can be luxurious and elegant,, mia and kak vano walked towards the wedding altar.he said their sacred promise.until legitimately finally became husband and wife, did not feel I shed tears because trllu happy. .I hugged my mother from the side, with my forehead kissed.I was happy even mama. .

Reception in the afternoon.I walk2 look around me, I also take a glass of the best wine, , because dsini cold.may be able to warm the body a little..

Sis vano and mia dance friendly, making guests cheerfully...

I began to move away from the crowd, I stood looking from the distance.I lit my cigarette.I was indifferent and no matter what anyone said. .

From a distance I saw my mother talking to a young man around the age of 29. like a stranger to me, ,tp I don't think I know her. .

Trllu bnyak I spent the wine, already feel the heat of my body, I'm the verdict to enter k in the resort. I headed to my room and I threw myself dkasur and the rest do not remember,, because I fell asleep. .hehehehehehe...