KANGENS

i ran...

These few days, I didn't go out of the room. Veronica's mom used to knock on the door with food, I ignored her.

I don't want to meet who2 first. I need time alone.I don't want antonie to be by my side anymore.let alone last night I heard a Cindy voice with him, the more I wanted to go and run..

My phone kept ringing, sis vano and mia were worried about me. I told them I was sick and I'd be back to work tomorrow.

antonie doesn't care for me in the least, 'the love she's expressing is just a lie. Why do I believe it so easily until I start falling asleep.

My decision was made, I wanted to break up with him. After a few days I thought, that's the best.

this afternoon I will go to my mother's house, I have got my flight ticket to bandung. I packed up, brought some clothes and my needs, I dressed up..

I rushed away, I acted as if 2 had not happened apa2.I went down the stairs, I brought a sizable bag, because I would be in bandung a few days, want to calm down.

" non zivana, where are you going? " ask veronica's mother..

" please, don't stop me from leaving" I told him..

veronica's mother couldn't believe what I said, and she kept looking at me..

" what is non-surrender? "ask..

" it was not me who gave up but your master who wanted me to leave, ,dya was very happy with cindy, a suitable person to understand her." I said with a hint of emotion..

veronica's mother shed a tear,,

" please don't cry, "I'm holding her arm..

" only Antonie himself can heal his own wounds not me. Thank you for telling me. "I said.

Then I hurried away in a taxi, I called kak vano and mia if I was going to bandung, they said they would catch up with me the day after tomorrow. .

Bandung...

I approached my mother who was playing with my son, my half-sister..

my mother was a little surprised by my arrival, then she hugged me. I cried as much as2 in her arms.

mama kept wiping my back2

"let's go to your room. "give my mom.

Mom and I went to my room, and we sat in bed.

" why are you crying so much" asked the mother who began to shed tears.

I was silent for a moment and then shook my head to mark and nothing happened Apa2..

mama touched my forehead" you have a fever" ..

Mama put me on the bed, then covered me..

" mama's gonna call the doctor. "

I held her hand. "no need, I just need to sleep. "I said.

mama then sat by my head stroked2 of my hair until I fell asleep..

I fell asleep long enough to get to the next day..

"non..

I try to open my eyes slowly..

" bi imas." I said, I hugged her, I miss her. I haven't seen her for a long time, the cute one I've always been with, took care of me. Now I take care of my stepbrother.

" astaggaaaa.why so thin." he said, holding my arm..

" i'm not happy with my marriage bi" I said.

" yes, I want to part. "I said with tears in my eyes.

" non. eat first the porridge continues to drink the milk. rest back. aunty will keep the non. "he said.

" it's always the imas who watches me."I thought

Bi imas also came out of my room..

I ate the porridge that bi imas made, although I think I am not hungry. For 2 days I locked myself in the room I did not eat at all. After I finished the porridge and drank milk,, I went back to lying down. I saw my phone there was no message from antonie. dya benar2 evil to me, I benar2 do not want to see it again.

I fell asleep again, , the day started the afternoon I woke up. I saw brother Vano sitting near me.

"sister, he said he's here tomorrow but is here now? "my words while smiling.

"mama said you had a fever, ,brother and mia immediately went to bandung. "then kak vano kissed my forehead flash.

"i'm fine2, brother, just need a break" I said

" are you sure? "asked brother vano

" yaaa" I said convince her

" all right, I'll have mia accompany you. "

then brother Vano came out of my room, 'not long ago mia came in and hugged me..

" *you're fine2? " he asked..

I can't hide it anymore, I'm crying..

"astagaaa, zivana. You look very messed up. soon we'll go to the mall. "mia try to cheer me up..

I wiped my tears and started to smile...

"what's going on? "

"i don't know, I think I'd like to split from antonie, that's all "I said.

" just that?, there is no way there is nothing.km arrived2 wants to part from her. "said mia looking at me.

" i've tried, I don't think I can love her and I can't be with her. "

" if that's what you want, I can only support you. What you decide must be the best" said mia.

Mia accompanied me in the room, ,dya invited me to watch a Korean drama, I agreed.

we watched until night until me and Mia fell asleep.

I felt thirsty, I wanted to drink but did not dare to wake up mia. I walked towards the kitchen, I took water..

"what should I do tomorrow, I can't possibly continue lying down doing nothing.

the phone reads, It's 01:00 p.m.who sent me the message, ,no not known and send me the photo..

antonie's sleeping with cindy naked, my heart hurts more..

I'm just a human being, I can't keep holding him back. Only Cindy can understand him.

I think the antonie who sent me the message wasn't, I really expected him to call me and care about me but he didn't..

dya prefers to sleep with cindy*..

" *if I can turn back time, I don't want to know Ray or Revan, but everything that's happened in my life, the god who rules everything is not my will.

**I am just a normal human being.. not to be missed and sin***.