KANGENS

Cigarette

I don't know why I can't escape the name of cigarettes and alcohol, I think I started being an addict since I was 19 years old ...eliminate sadness and loss...

every night I spent smoking on my balcony looking at the quiet sky...

my phone rang.I saw my brother's phone, yes we are only 2 brothers..

I saw a w a from my brother, I just smiled looking at my sister's w a" she told me to stop smoking and live well and find a job"

impossible for me, I am addicted. indeed all my needs are met by my mother tp right said my brother I can not depend on him and on stepfather..

my mom used to scold me for not being obedient to her to quit smoking..

I don't know the direction of my life..

I was always fragile, crying in solitude..

bi imas kdang sllu hugged me watching me...

it's bi imas who can understand me under any circumstances, "thx bi imas" said my inner

I spent one cigarette on the balcony of my house, so I faithfully always made coffee for me...

my phone rang, I saw her name oh "mia"

"what's up? " answer me

anak2 hang out tuh usual hanging out, eat2 us! "answered mia

"okay" I replied

I prepare to slide.I prepare as usual jeans and t-shirt my oblong.I let my brown hair unravel spoiled.I prepare a car tp mengedan motor only I thought...

I drove fast with my bike, it felt very challenging for me. I did not realize there was a motor that would turn..

"duarrrr"

our sound collision..

I don't remember what happened, "i fainted"

all I see is samar2 someone shakes my body in his arms, I see samar2 the guy is dressed neatly narrow eyes..

then I don't remember...

" i opened my eyes, it felt like firefly2 felt like my leg could not move.. I sounded like someone was crying and I saw it was my mom with a guy I didn't know..

I started to open my eyes very consciously and hugged me

" jeez zii, you are knp, take the ugal2an motor, son, mamah sad to hear you crash? "asked my mama

" i can't answer because my heart hurts, but after a new accident I saw me, while ordinary hari2 never wants to see me" my mind

" yes already, klo km gk want to answer. ap kmu do not2 mabok? " msh befriends your friend2? " ask mom with emotion

my tears dripping do not know answer already know his son wretched.trus talk where, free I obviously dya not believe my words. I hny silent hold back so as not to cry as be2nya, I want to take a cigarette and smoke it..

" mom already, let the mother's child calm down first" the man said

my mother complied and left my room..

"hey, I revan ..motormu collided with my bike. I brought you here" as he shook hands.

"oh" I replied flatly

" i'll take responsibility until you're healed" he said

"oh, thank you" I replied to him..

" maybe he doesn't really want to roll at the moment" Inner Revan

" yes, this is my card if there is anything2 contact me" said Revan

"yes" I replied slowly

revan left my room..

I cry as much as2nya. knp like this, oh my god. when I doubt I remember my friend2. I tried to find my hp tp not found, but I did not find, I need them to cheer me up, not my mom who blames me..

bi imas painstakingly took care of me in the hospital, took care of me. wiped my body..

" why non zii? ask bi imas

" bi kmna my mama, my sister is not here? "many

" oh his mother non has returned home again, there is a son who msh non school, "answer bi imas

my heart hurts more, hearing my mother lbh who is his stepson dbanding I gynecologist son.my heart hurts at this time.I remember the cigarette back.it feels like I want to suck it a lot2...

"non-patient there is an aunt, non-work sister is busy taking care of her clothing store.again rame klo weekend.maybe bsok ksini x non" bi imas try to calm me while rubbing my back..

oh yeah I'm starting to remember my hp, though,

"where's hpku monk? much

"dear aunt, ancur non time collision." replied bi imas.

"what are you, hmmmm... Auntie take hp, right?" much

"Ad non hp old school tpiii. "reply bi imas.

"biarin bi, make contact with the person who brought me here"where bi? "my word

" this is non. "bi imas thrusting his hp.

I dialed the number on that business card, I called him......

tuttt

tuttt

tuttt

" duh kok gk d lift ya bi?"

tanyaku pda bi imas.

"mna aunty tau non" replied bi imas while shrugging her shoulders

I tried bbrpa x, and finally connected..

" hello" he answered

"hmmmmm, it's me zivana,!answer me

" zivana who? " tanyanya

" i'm the one you brought sick, wondering if there's anything2 I can call you? "i said while annoyed

"oh, yes you.I don't know the name of km, early I know yourself cuex, jdi mna I knowu.... "

" ah ah kbnyakan say yes you, I just want to say get me out of this sick dr.mh, I want to go home gtau gmn way! "i'm breaking his shit in a fit of annoyance

"km blm healed, gk can play bibuk2 out that way" he said began to be upset

"okay, how about it? " let's start the emotion

"okay.oke" iy nnti afternoon I rested in the hospital, skrg ak lg work. "he said softly.

I close the VPN with emotion. "he said klo klo there is apa2 this talk d mekan please rich gk sincere" murmured me with lips monyong2 alaku.

he smiled to see me, though,,

"why bi? "tyaku with a frown

"gpp, non funny. gk strong pgn ng crow huh? "

goda bi imas

"hehehehe" you know aunty..

"non mkan dlu dri kmrin mlm blm mnti aunty dmarahin mama non" face bi imas memelas..

"okay bi, okay." I said as a manyun..