KANGENS

Messy. . .

Today I started to enter the office, , I think I was less excited... I took it heavily towards my room.andin and arya blm came, am I too early huh? " i thought...

I leaned back in the work chair, I began to daydream indistinctly, , until you startled me..

today the working atmosphere was so calm, I kept looking at my phone and there were no messages from ray or revan, so I started to miss them.. or I can't have a long distance relationship (LDR). I don't know, my mind is a little dizzy thinking about it..

Secretary Revan came, I sure call me tp not...dya call andin for his room and bring the file I learned, immediately my heart aches to hear it..I also signaled I was disappointed..

lunch hour, I only drink coffee ..my mind is upset, I have to call mia, tp with lg holiday.. I can not disturb him... I have k who?" my inner..

Andin saw me daydreaming, nudging my hand, spontaneously I was shocked. I tried to smile signifying there was nothing2..

Lunch time is running out, we all start doing our jobs2.I try as busy as possible to forget my heart problem..

The clock shows at 5 pm, the time to go home. I immediately get ready2 go home, I started the motorbike. somehow I want to ride the motorbike, andin and arya have already gone home.. just halfway, it rained very hard.I didn't bring a raincoat, I patted my bike. I took shelter at the bus stop with the others who were raining, my clothes and hair were wet.. yes I only wear a blaser, not an automatic wet jacket ..

I saw my phone. .ak intends to contact andin tp tdak so..

my body began to shiver in the cold, I saw the rain was still heavy, my stomach was hungry, I regretted not having lunch... org had started to leave the stop, while I was still silent. .

I realized, , I was already in a room ..when I was about to move.arrive 2 someone came to me, ,dya brought me warm milk and porridge.I can see clearly. .dya did not speak a word, neither did she just sit back to see him bring him some warm porridge and milk, he just put it on the table and told me to eat. I lowered my head, I looked up,, then take the porridge and the warm milk.I ate it voraciously because I was very hungry. .

I just realized my inner "clothes dmna" I wear shorts and revan's tee shirt, I'm ashamed it must have replaced my clothes..

I think I've recovered, , I have to go home. I started to stand up, and rushed to open the door, fortunately blm open. At first glance I heard a woman's voice was angry2 and shouted, ,maybe it's tiara. ak can't come out now, , 'do not have to wait for him to come home,. .

I heard no more his voice, I went out. rushed downstairs, I saw Revan sitting down. silent on the sofa, I ventured to say goodbye to him..

" i'm sorry to bother you, , thank you for helping me. "I said while holding her so nervous shirt.

Revan was still flat and glanced at me, I saw his eyes blazing red.I thought I was in danger.

Without a second thought I walked away and I opened the door of the apartment at least I've been grateful even though I didn't say2 apa2 and cold. ...I walked along the hallway of the apartment with the bare feet of short celna and t-shirts, I shed tears. I was upset.. revan helped me but ignored me for what he helped me for making me hurt with his attitude..

what's wrong with me, I've been honest and admitted to having a lover tp dya so stay away from me, without realizing it hurt..

My phone was connected to my baby without a doubt the woman who picked up my phone, it sounded the voice of a bule woman, without thinking long I cover my phone, my heart is broken.. it should be this early morning, I'm sure Ray's sleeping with the girl, I'm starting to wake up to my brother's talk,, I don't know what to do now .

I stopped the taxi and I went home. When I got home, I cried with my daughter, so I was worried to see me knock on my door, I ignored her. I felt sick at this time, so, um,,my heart is broken. .

I was tired and I fell asleep. .

The next day, I saw my phone call from ray all. I turned off my phone, I don't think today I want to work,,, I think,, klo also worked for sure my friend2 asked me with my eyes moist. ak just silent dkasur, regretting I know ray, right my brother said never seriously in a relationship.. it wouldn't be right if I was the only one to maintain this relationship. .

I'm right2 messed up, , my hair is a mess..

I'm k down, imas bbi greet me. I just smile. bi imas already know me if I'm with this situation, better d let it sit down. I sit down d sofa,, I lit my cigarette. I haven't smoked for a long time, I took a beer can dkilkas, I drank it even though imas forbid me, it won't work.. I have no taste in eating. Just drinking canned beer and snacks, without me realizing I had spent a cigarette..

then I k kmarku, soaking in bathup.. My life is ruined, how klo mama know, , I am not a virgin?must be disappointed....

most2 people married me for my property. . .

I admit that I am someone who is tp I am happy with the money from my hard work sndri. I enjoy it. mskpun mama forbid me to work elsewhere,, dya wants me and my brother to lead the hotel and resort you have..

yes..my mother is very rich, she is of Chinese descent. let alone her husband now pnya coal company, lbh rich again, but I am right 2 not trllu think of treasure. .

I am very comfortable soaking, I am getting used to it like this. until I fall asleep, bi imas shake2kan my body, , I was shocked, I was shocked,,

"non, knp like this, let's not quickly wear clothes.It's late Soaking." he said with worry..

I just smiled and then immediately got dressed..

I sat on the balcony. . .

feel the wind so calm and cool. .

I don't know the direction of my life cf. .