I'm You And The Past

Disillusioned

Hoon left Risa behind his back, although the girl kept calling out softly, Hoon did not care. He stared at the cell phone screen.

'Someone preceded us, the cctv tape didn't exist, but I found someone when he came out. Here's the picture'

Hoon's eyes instantly grew as if full of lightning. That's clearly his hyung face, Glen. Yes Glen just came out of the restroom where he saw Risa lying in a bad state. Hoon turned around, looking at Risa sharply. The girl had just wanted to go to the room to clean herself up, but Hoon's gaze made her steps stop, Risa shuddered in horror. A very different look.

"Where are you going" Hoon said with a cynical look.

"I'll take a shower" Risa replied flatly, she was still astonished by her lover's tense face. The feeling was obviously not good, but he himself did not understand what was happening either.

"So you're gonna clean yourself up in here?" cynical Hoon "You enjoy the stems of others, and throw away the rest of his friction here! what do you think my house is!" hoon shouted in a cynical tone. "You think this is a brothel!" Risa was stunned to hear Hoon's sentence. The two knitted their eyebrows together, unwilling to understand each other.

"What did you say?" risa asked in annoyance.

"Look at you! you're in a relationship with anyone, and you fuck anyone!" annoyed Hoon played his hand, moving as if throwing away the item he was holding. "You're worse than *******!" tuding Hoon with a tense face.

"What did you say?" asked cynical Risa, she stepped closer to Hoon. The two clashed with sharp gazes, unwilling to lower the ego.

"Are you aware of your cheap pride! Anyone can sleep with you! look, you even slept with another man and returned to my house in a relaxed manner! you're very cheap and have no self-respect." Hoon's voice sounded stifled, he uttered his sentence fully into the dongkolan.

"Don't you ask me first, don't you believe me?" Risa is looking for justification in Hoon's very rude and bad accusation sentence. "Didn't you like me? aren't you being sincere with me?" Hoon snorted annoyedly at Risa's barrage of questions.

"Say it all to yourself in front of the mirror!" hoon said riled.

"You didn't even ask me for an explanation, are you sure you like me? are you sure you believe me?" Hoon did not answer Risa's question, he turned away, annoyed! get mad! obviously Risa slept with Glen last night, but Risa's sinless face really drained Hoon's patience.

"Alright, I know what you want.." Risa was about to step away from Hoon.

"WHY ARE YOU SLEEPING WITH GLEN!!" Shouting Hoon made Risa's steps come to a halt. The girl was empty. What is Hoon yelling! what does this have to do with Glen! Isn't the red stain on her body because of Hoon? Didn't they miss the long night last night? wait a minute, Risa is trying to remember.

Hoon again approached Risa, his index finger brandishing with a firm grasp. His teeth were trembling to withstand the emotional turmoil within the chest.

"You're cheap! you slept with another man, you slept with Glen!" Risa's raising her mouth, she just let out a heavy sigh, at least she should explain everything right.

"Risaa.." Hoon and Risa compactly turned their heads. Both of them were stunned to see the presence of Risa's parents, Bambang and Emi's mother had been listening to their debate.

"Mama.." muttered Risa in disbelief, she stepped closer to her mother and papa.

THE PLAQUE!!

A loud slap landed on Risa's cheek from the rough palm of her papa. Yes, Mr. Bambang slapped his daughter in front of Hoon. It makes everyone surprised.

"You guys live together?" ask Bambang intimidating sir. He nodded as if he could not accept the truth that was in sight.

"Yes, of course you live together. That's the style of today's children." muttered Mr. Bambang disappointed. Mama tries to embrace Risa, though disappointed she still wants to protect her daughter.

Mr. Bambang approached Hoon who was also tense.

"So you and Risa live together in this palace?" Hoon softened his gaze, he tried to hold back his ego, Hoon bowed.

"I'm sorry, I've let you guys down" Hoon said in a low voice, his face clearly looking regretful. Mr. Bambang smiled cynically.

"So what's your next plan?" ask Mr. Bambang to the point. Hoon looked at Risa for a moment then bowed back.

Risa could not hear Hoon's words. Her chest trembled violently, making her beautiful eyes glassy

"What did you say?" Risa approached Hoon, she looked at her nano man, Risa held back the sobs that instantly wanted to spill. Mr. Bambang swallowed his saliva.

"We heard everything." he muttered later, the middle-aged man left the Hoon mansion. Emi guided Risa, the girl could not shake, her eyes pleading with Hoon. The man had made up his mind.

Hoon held back his feelings until his jaw moved without command, how big the waves that hit his chest, he could not cry with all these statements. Hoon dropped down on the sofa, his strength seemed to go out, he stared at the floor with an empty focal point. Half of his life energy disappeared

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POVS. Risa on the way home to her parents.

The noise of the streets of the capital did not make me turn a blank look. One thing I have learned a long time ago is the feeling of love. Is that love? what is that, baby? like mom and dad who now have silent faces? I know they're disappointed, the girl lives and does a lot of things that are forbidden by norms and religion, but what? falling in love makes me do all that, am I sorry? initially yes. But to Hoon, I'm just a little disappointed rather than sorry.

I'm disappointed he doesn't believe me, I'm disappointed he didn't ask me all his speculations. Let alone Hoon even I myself do not understand what situation I have been in. I woke up with him by my side. Then she screamed I was sleeping with another man? is he crazy! is he amnesiac. Ah, I should have also asked earlier, did your head hit something!

I leaned my head, it felt heavy and dizzy. It feels not so foreign. My mind floated. Yesterday, yesterday, yesterday..

I'm trying to remember.

The Flower Shadow flashed. 

Something bad has happened! I rubbed my face violently, making my mother's face even more anxious.

"Calm down, calm yourself down" whispered my mother, asking me to calm down, she barely made a sound so that papa wouldn't be distracted.

How I calmed down, something bad happened to me because of Bunga. Goddamnit! he must have planned all this. Risa's stupid, stupid, stupid! it's worth Hoon wrath. I have to explain.

"Ma, I have to go back.." I muttered, papa turned his head and put on a tense face. I'm trying to stare at Papa's angry face, I'm going to beg you as long as I can see Hoon again.

"Pa, I have to go back" I pleaded. Papa hardens face. He threw away his eyes, not listening to my request. Does that mean I can't come back? I can't see Hoon again? but I have to go back and see Hoon. Our relationship cannot end like this.

"Ma, please tell papa, I have to go back.." My gentle mother kept asking me to be quiet.

"Ma. please.." The pleading look on my face was unconcerned. Both ki's parents were silent. What is this.

"Paa.." I tried again. Papa just shut up, and so did my mom. No matter how much I plead and ask. Mom and Dad changed. Just like Hoon.

Is it just like this? no more follow-up? I feel like everything just vanished. I think after falling in love, pounding and being happy, getting married and always smiling and laughing. There may be some conflicts, like papa and mama, but they can get through them well. While me? Love is not as beautiful as a shadow, why am I such a fool. Why did the principle of my life change immediately because of Glen's sweet behavior, why from Glen's embrace I moved to Hoon just like that, wasn't I stupid? 

Love is not that beautiful. Happiness is not that easy. Everything was like a shadow that was disappearing. Don't believe in a man's mouth, don't believe in a man's behavior, not even the slightest explanation he won't hear. I have to go back to my old self. Love is just nonsense.

Cclack!

Papa opened the car door. The blazing light of the sun made my eyes twitch. The sharp bias instantly made my head even more painful. I tried to push with my arm. A drop of sweat flowed down my jaw, so dizzy and heavy. Even going through feels heavy and lame.

"CHRISTYYYY!!!" My body warmly touched the floor that was splashed with the sun

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