I'm You And The Past

Contrition

Eun POV.

I don't know where to go, just down the highway. A corner of the city has a clear sky, maybe it can calm the mind there. Glen you made my life hell. You got me stuck in your love trap. You killed my friendship with Kai, you poisoned me. You made a lot of fake drugs, what is that? just a mixture of many tranquilizers that I take every day. You even deliberately arranged for my therapist and nurse. You're really mean!

Cheated on! shit, you're even worse than that. Why are you cheating behind my back? I should've slept and had a lot of adventures with Kai, but he just kissed me and made me recover.

While you! cih, you taught me how to be a savage in bed. You're such a fool, you're such a great player, and I'm one of your puppets.

Thank you for making me a stupid human being. Sorry, not anymore. Take all my power and treasure, it won't make you happy. I have all of that in the past, and I just want some happiness in the future.

What I realize now is that if my Hoon grows up, Hoon will fight for my family once again, I trust him.

He will be a great heir, he will be the next Jung, I am proud of him.

Considering all that, I regret it. The biggest regret of my life, wasn't that you enslaved me, not that you took away my share of treasure. My regret is that you made me hate papa, I wasn't even at his funeral. I'm really disobedient. I didn't even cry at the time.

Hoon's right, I've been so outrageous, it's worth it he's always hated me before.

"Pa. forgive your daughter.." I could only whisper, and hope that papa would accept my apology.

"Maa. forgive this daughter of yours.."

The day Mom died, I couldn't see everything. That day I promised to meet Kai at the park, but he never came and kept me waiting. I regretted that for a lifetime.

Kai made me forget about mom, I hate Kai. Even though he explained the reason, I still regret it. And papa's death, that time I never grieved, I was upset all day because Glen ignored me, I cared more about Glen than papa.

Although papa pleaded, even though Hoon insisted, I was selfish. I'm so sorry about all that. Regrets, those are the deepest regrets in my life. Regrets don't follow what my family says. Forgetting the love in the family, the regrets when I realized they were gone. My heart aches to realize I've missed something precious in this world. Old man, when they have no regrets it feels real.

"I'm sorry ma, pa.." Shedding tears behind the wheel of the car. Crying in silence. The first time I cried again for my family. Tomorrow I will be better, I promise myself. I don't want to regret many other regrets.

A girl was standing on the edge of a hill, she was staring at a clearly visible mountain. Maybe the air is very cool, plus a beautiful view. I turned the wheel, parked the car.

"I'll join.."

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Risa tightly closed the jacket she was wearing. He was well aware of how the neighbor was staring at him. Even if it doesn't matter, it hurts his pride. Risa wiped the tears with a tissue. It is very difficult to control the tears that keep rolling. Feelings of tightness, heaviness and fear.

Risa continued to cry and thought about the baby branch in her womb, all that made it tight and difficult to breathe, gradually her stomach will enlarge. He'll squint, leave the job and then he'll be unemployed. Expecting money from parents who only trade? Shortness, when thinking about all that. He needs money for vitamins, controls and ultrasound. Weight, if thought would be very heavy. How burdens in society when she had to give birth to an unaccompanied child, a child without the role of father. And scared. Facing all of that made Risa afraid. As if gripping, Risa could not get through the dark road that she would take.

TTIIIINNNN!!!

Risa's a little pulled over. He's daydreaming down the street, how many times he's almost been hit by a car, he doesn't care. Her path was shaken, her eyes continued to cry, although her eyes were red and swollen, Risa did not care, her pain was already more than this.

"Who's your father?" risa asked on her stomach. Her tears are melting again. That question is really hard. How can a woman not know who the father of the branch of the baby she has.

"How should I take care of you?" ask Risa to herself. "How do we live?" Risa still continues to talk to herself. He cried continuously and steadily, as if spilling all the excitement in the heart. Still, the gamang is still the same even more confused.

Thinking about how her parents who were expelled added to the mental burden of Risa.

"We shouldn't be here, we shouldn't be living in this world!" muttered Risa in despair.

He was already at the corner of the ravine, there was a clearly painted mountain. The cool air of the mountains with green trees. The cold air was no longer able to cool Risa's mind. The weight felt heavy and hot.

Risa was standing at the corner of the ravine. Ending life is the best way. He does not have to bear the burden of society. He didn't have to see his parents disappointed. He doesn't need to feel claustrophobic and scared. He doesn't have to remember his mistakes with Hoon. He doesn't have to use his heart anymore.

Risa took a deep breath, closing her eyes slowly.

"You don't need to be born to someone who has no self-esteem." whispered Risa as if to the child in her womb.

Eun shuts her car door tight, she surprises Risa. The woman followed the place where Risa was, at the corner of the sharp abyss.

He glanced at Risa for a moment who was still closed, casually Eun rested next to Risa, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

"The air here is very cold." Eun said not clear to whom, Risa did not answer. He realized someone was coming but he tried not to care. He just wants to make his grave here.

Eun looked at Risa in surprise. At the foot of the girl was already stuck on the edge of the cliff. Eun pulls the end of Risa's shirt.

"Hey, what are you doing mate?" ask Eun familiar. Risa breathed a short breath. The English question with the eastern accent just now bothered him a little, but never mind, forget it. Risa still made up her mind.

"Hey, what are you doing!" ketus Eun comes to stand, she embraces Risa's waist, trying to hold the girl's body, afraid of fearing Risa lost balance because her legs had stayed one body holding. Risa rebelled, Eun forced her to stay.

"Take me off!" gusar Risa's. He turned the body. And get Eun's smile. Who does not know if the woman has a beautiful smile like the sun. He even earned the nickname angel in every online action of his streaming. Eun's smile momentarily spread Risa's mind.

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