I'm You And The Past

Hoon's story

No more mama's voice calling just a reminder to do schoolwork. No more mama's laughs when me and nuna fight. No more complaints mama when me and papa scramble ps sticks. My house has changed, my mother is no longer home.

Iin's assistant who had been coming when little mama had dimmed, maybe she was old. But no, she felt her energy dissipate as mama lay down.

I grabbed my mama's palm, so fragile. Mama's delicate hand had already turned into a bone clad in skin. Although papa shouted and pleaded with the doctor, all this advanced equipment did not improve the health of the mother. Free papa yells hysterically even prostrate while crying.

I saw the hair of mama is running out, even though nuna brought false hair still it does not change the beautiful hair of mama. 

"What's a pretty omma?" mama asked when Eun put the wig together, me and Nuna tried to nod but couldn't. Nuna ran out of the room, leaving me and my mom.

"Is Hoon also going to leave omma?" I shook my head quickly. I will never leave my mother, I will always be with my mother.

"Omma, hurry up healthy omma, Hoon wants to be fed omma, Hoon can't be without omma." I said at the time, when it was hard to say, like there was foam filtering my voice, I said, makes the pain hoarse and tired. Omma was shedding tears, continuously from the corner of her eye.

"Why did you make omma cry Hoon!" Eun came in and she pushed my body. Making my hand grip off, mama still wanted to grab my hand, but nuna grabbed my palm.

I only noticed the nuna who kept stroking my mother's forehead. Why can mama be like this, her smooth skin so changed. There were many black patches almost filling the surface of his skin.

"Omma.." I whispered behind nuna's back.

Not long after the sound of nuna's phone rang, she looked at her phone screen and then exited the room, she let go of her hand. Eun was so in a hurry that she hit the papa who had just opened the door.

"Where are you going Eun?" ask papa worried.

"I have a little business Appa!" eun replied, she ran in the hospital hallway. I glanced at the shrinking nuna's back.

"Who put this on?" ask papa to see my mom's wig.

"The nuna who put it on" I said, papa immediately raised his head with his heart, he let go of his wig.

"do you want anything?" ask my mommy, she just pulled her lips. I've never seen lips so pale and dry. Usually the lips are always blabbering and smiling.

"Hoon, you go home for a second" Papa turned to look at me, I shook my head.

"I want to be with omma, I want to be with omma." I said I didn't want to take off my mom's hand.

"Based on the spoiled child, how long have you been here." said papa holding a small smile, he stroked my head.

We, me and papa looked at my mom, wiped away the tears that were still flowing, we shared a smile. Appa got up from the chair he could not see the condition of the mother who was getting weaker, papa left the room and closed the door slowly.

I can only see my mother like this, I can't help my mother's pain.

"Omma, let Hoon be sick. Omma must be healthy, if Hoon is sick, omma will take care and feed, and I will be healthy again" I sobbed "Omma takes care of me, nuna is also papa when sick" I tried to catch my breath, though tears and snot raced down, I kept trying to say my line "Omma took care of us all to be healthy, but none of us could take care of omma, until omma never healed. huhu hikkss.."

"LUSTYHOOOO!!!"

"OOOMMAAAAA....Y!!!!"

Silence!!

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The gurgling water flowed between silence for a moment

Risa got up from her position and grabbed the tissue box. He took some sheets. Hoon was still bowed holding his deep sobs.

Hoon embarrassedly raised his head. She shouldn't have told such a heart-wrenching story, Risa was even glazed.

Risa held out a sheet of tissue but Hoon never grabbed her gift. Risa could not help the turmoil when she saw someone sad in front of her. He raised Hoon's face by propping up the two cheeks of the man. Sure enough she was in tears, Risa gave a faint smile, Risa understood Hoon's sadness.

Hoon could not return Risa's gaze. She let Risa wipe away her tears. Risa wiped Hoon's cheeks slowly, she could see the deep sadness on Hoon's face. Sometimes this man was silly and careless, but his heart was so deep and attentive. Is it because he was spoiled until that attention came down on him.

"You have a soft heart" Risa muttered, she still gently rubbed Hoon's facial skin. Hoon opened his eyes slowly on looking at the face of Risa who was so close.

"You're so gentle, I'm sure someday the woman who accompanied you will be so lucky. You pay attention and love so sincerely, I can feel it from your story" said Risa grabbed the tissue again, she not only dried Hoon's wet cheeks, now Risa also wiped Hoon's moist forehead.

Hoon touched the hands of Risa who was busy drying her face.

"Well.." Risa could only be astonished to see Hoon's gaze so deep, his hand clasped tightly onto Risa's palm. Warm. Risa smile.

The gaze of the two met, something playing in the heart. Risa tried not to understand the meaning of Hoon's eyes, but she could no longer avoid, why can't I refuse this eye beam? inner Risa protest. Why does this man in front of me bring a variety of flavors in my life? You make me angry, upset, smile, laugh and happy. I didn't fall for you, did I? I have the perfect boyfriend. Risa struggled with her own feelings.

Hoon brought his face closer, closer. Cut the distance between them. Hoon's eyes slowly closed, he convinced the roar of his heart to keep going despite the various whips.

I should have avoided, I should have refused. This is not my first time, but my heart..

Risa could only be dumbstruck, she received a kiss of Hoon's lips, again!

Both of them are dissolved to enjoy the supple skin with a swish of elusive feeling. Just now Risa was telling me how much she loved boss Glen, but for a moment she couldn't resist Hoon's presence either. Risa follows the movements of Hoon, who was originally just sticking, sucking and tasting. Hadn't he learned before, it turns out that kisses can be as beautiful and comfortable as this. Hoon clasped Risa's hand tightly.

"I'm in love with you." whispered Hoon in Risa's ear not waiting for a second when their lips came off.