I'm You And The Past
This is early

POVS. Risa

Still under the same mega. Still in the cold of the wind that goes back and forth. Load slightly reduced? in all probability. I just can't believe the owner of that beautiful face and charming smile was Jung Eun. He's Hoon's brother? she's Glen's wife? geez, should I smile bitterly, or cry regretfully.

What kind of woman am I? snatch the man in the arms of that almost perfect woman? I'm not even at the end of his fingernails. She is beautiful and her attitude is amazing. Hoon, goddes Korea. She was like a queen who had a serene aura. Eun doesn't deserve Glen.

Now I'm starting to think, trying to clear my brain. How could I sleep with someone's husband. Then move on to his brother-in-law, geez. So embarrasing. It's only natural that my neighbor is cursing and cynical.

I wiped the hair that was blown by the wind.

But as Eun says, falling, falling and despair are not solutions. That woman I was with, never seemed to hate. I also cannot hate. Eun says this child is God's grace, if you knew who I was doing it with, would you be on my side?.

My slow steps lead to the front porch of the house. Mama ran and hugged me, she cried despite trying to hold back. Papa was waiting at the doorstop, although he was upset clearly his face was anxious. They never hate, even if the child is misguided, they never hate, they are just angry.

Hate it will continue to grow rotten in the heart without making peace with time. But angry no, he will subside even if it takes time. My parents are angry, they don't hate. I'm sure it is.

"Where are you, son?" ask your mother while offering warm tea. I grabbed and sipped slowly.

"Don't go out by yourself, son.." said mama. How I made this face the way it is now. How do I remove the wounds I have scratched in their hearts. How do I remove the wound, how to treat it?. I'm really mean.

"Risa, we're going to sell this house. We'll move" papa's heavy voice just at the mouth of a small nod from my head. It felt heavy even just to nod.

"Let's start a new life, with no one to know." mama whispered softly but felt hot in my ears. Make a tightness in the chest ask to be released. I grabbed my mom's shoulder, crying, spilling all the turbulent flavors inside her chest. Spill this feeling. What I was thinking. End life? I'm so stupid, what about my parents? they'll be very hurt. Thank you Eun, you made my dead-end mind come to a realization earlier.

"Sorry Risa maa.. sorryin Risaa paa.." isakku among the vibrating voice. Mama hugged me tightly, as if giving me strength. Papa today weakened himself, he came crouching and hugging, embracing mama and me together.

"Yes, yes I am.." mama kept muttering like that, the warm droplets on my shoulders made this feeling even more tossed about, making my crying even harder to stop. Maybe it's hard, maybe it's all sick. But let me get up once more, let me get up even if I have to be trained. Time..heal this wound, I promise it will be even stronger!

"We're going through all this together!" I nodded, papa's words meant so much to me, papa's words made my strength seem to return, making my spirit seem conscious.

"It's not the end, it's just the beginning of a new life" I nodded. God you're so good. Even though the person I love is no longer with me. Even though the man I expected wasn't by my side. You keep sending encouragement, you send Eun with beautiful words, you make me see how beautiful and cheerful she is. It's as if you slapped me if even the perfect woman had a failure. And this old man! mom and dad..

I can't say a word. Too good for me, this old man is too perfect for me. I won't give up, I have to be a good mom. I will be the mother my son is proud of. I can do it, I can with this great man. Papa's right, this isn't the end!

***

Eun raises her hand to see Hoon leaving her waist on the stairs of the porch. The woman smiled broadly at Hoon's annoyed face.

"Where are you from! Look at my car so dirty!" ketus Hoon is upset. He was actually more worried about his nuna than the car. Today is a bad day for Eun, she decides to split from Glen, her husband.

"So I went through a pretty narrow road and it was raining" Eun explained without a burden

"You spent most of the night, where are you actually from?" ask Hoon curiously

"Just walk, looking for a fresh breeze" Hoon clucked resentfully at his tone's reply. He muttered exasperatedly seeing his tone so relaxed and smiled loosely.

"He should have cried and cried when he found out the company was taken away by someone else. He should have asked for medicine and looked for Glen when our house went down. He instead walks the street and looks for the wind" cynically Hoon knit an eyebrow "Do I have to be happy or sad?" Hoon didn't think it through.

Hoon follows Eun's steps into the house.

"Nuna, when are we meeting director Mei?" ask Hoon seriously. Eun glanced at it for a moment.

"Will Kai come?" eun asked expectantly, she very much hoped that Kai would accompany her to meet Mei.

"Kai hyung didn't pick up the phone and didn't return messages. Maybe something happened to him?" suspicious Hoon.

"Isn't Glen here, who do you suspect, other than Glen?" Eun looked at Hoon seriously.

"Let's know, I don't feel good." Hoon hesitated.

"You have to find a partner and channel your desire to feel better and more comfortable" snide Eun laughs wryly, Hoon snorts "You don't know, I've tried all that" whispered Hoon proudly.

"You know, I met a young girl on the edge of a hill. Too bad for her.." Eun's flat face turned sad

"Why?" tanya Hoon was suspicious of the water change in her brother's face.

"I'm asking you, is there a guy who impregnates a girl and then just leaves?" tuding Eun with a look of annoyance at Hoon. The young man frowned in wonder.

"Why are you pointing at me, who did it" Hoon replied.

"Yes, that girl was abandoned by her lover while pregnant, is it crazy!" grunts Eun withholds her emotions, and when her throat dries again, she picks up a new bottle.

"it's not good that her lover is pregnant, they have no reason to part ways." Hoon's sentence got an agreed nod from Eun.

"You're right, it's just a man." praised Eun.

"The man who was irresponsible and released his lover easily was not much different from Glen. Goddamn bum!" aspersion Eun

"No, I don't feel well" whispered Hoon shuddering in horror.

"If a man has the heart to impregnate a girl and run away, let his ashes be thrown into the trash!" Hoon was flabbergasted to hear Eun's curse, his tone was clearly visibly irritated. Hoon agreed with Eun's opinion just that, Hoon could not make a sound, his mind whispered as if asking Hoon to be quiet!

"Why am I thinking about Risa?" whispered Hoon to himself

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I'm You And The PastThis is early

I'm You And The Past
This is early