I'm You And The Past

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POV Risa's

I don't understand how someone could be linked to such a deep relationship. For me, the layman about love is really hard to understand. I saw how Bunga cried sobbing until his nose turned red. I heard he issued curses even swearing vows, I'm sure Bunga already hated Amar very much. The relationship they have is not a day or a month or two, four years! ah not six years! perhaps more, before they also never ldr-an. What I can't understand the most is how the face of the Flower gawked when I found Amar coming back to him. His face earlier, the face that was flushed red from crying, his eyes even slightly swelled up. I could not even say a word as Bunga immediately got up from a sitting position looking at Amar's arrival. I could only watch the two get into a conversation. If an hour ago I heard a high note and emotion, the next meeting was full of tears and apologies. Amar even knelt down to let his Jeans pants touch the dirty and muddy stop floor. He was crying along with the rain. I could only stare in disbelief.

"Flower, I know I'm wrong, I'm a jerk, I********, but please give me a chance to change.." I still remember clearly the sentence that Amar said earlier. His face was clearly full of regret. I turned to stare at the tensed face of Flower who was still shedding tears, she even held back the clasping of the teeth that were clinging in fury, I could feel the feeling of what was raging in the heart of Flower. I think Bunga will be very angry, he is not often ignited emotions. Butno. I'm mistaken. Bunga asked Amar to get up from his kneeling position. Both of them were still crying and bowing.

"Gue don't know how rich you have to be, I don't know why you're this same as me!" reply Flowers tried to hold back his emotions, all vividly painted in the eyes that asked for more clarity from Amar.

"Lu know, you know, I LOVE YOU!!" Between wanting to get angry and also laughing, I felt amused at the cry of Flowers. Why would he say such a ridiculous sentence to a man who had clearly betrayed. Flowers can even check out Amar's arrival list in that apartment.

Amar grabbed the shoulders of Flowers, they hugged tightly, why am I still here anyway! Just keep my inner voice just like that, why am I here!. I was like a spectator at a live action event, an elaborate love story full of emotion. They hugged, apologized to each other, wiped away tears, re-striped a smile and left..

I breathe heavily. I'm still an amateur, I still have a lot to learn. It turns out that establishing a relationship is not as simple as being given gifts, given compliments, sharing togetherness. There are many other things besides that. That incident made me think, is my relationship with boss Glen so fragile? Seeing Flowers and Amar who are involved in emotions so deeply, seeing Flowers that cry bitterly but also immediately smile makes me lose my mind, why can it be like that? Logic does not seem to play in love.

While my relationship with boss Glen hasn't been established for long. Don't follow where he's going, I don't even know how old my girlfriend is. Never mind like Bunga, who can take a call from Amar's mother and give each other understanding, I don't even know who to talk to just ask how he is there. Then, what should I do? In fact, I still live in his apartment, in fact I still continue to imagine sleeping in his deck under the same blanket. Sometimes I imagine him waiting at the table when I cook, I often imagine that if Hoon is Glen's boss, ah but no, Hoon's reckless behavior always disperse the shadow of Glen's boss's face.

I can't imagine if my relationship with Glen's boss is over, can I? Nor can I imagine the betrayal between us, boss Glen is too perfect for me, his love, his gifts, his attention, he's almost impeccable, the man can't possibly betray, he loves me so sincerely and deeply, I'm sure of it, I believe it. Even we spent the first night together, the first time for me, and the first time for him. Yes, I shook my head, should I just think of something else? I wiped the hair that fell on my forehead, wet. Geez, I didn't even knowingly walk in the rain. I just laughed, laughed at myself, I didn't realize it was raining while I was involved with my own thoughts.

Why didn't he call me? He didn't read my message? Ah, why am I thinking back to boss Glen, this cold, wet temperature makes me remember it again. Yes, I am worried, in my heart there is a great fear, I am afraid that something will happen to you, I am afraid that something will happen between us, even so for now I have to be patient, ask my heart! Hoon said it like that. And this heart, I hold the chest, I must wait, wait, and wait for you.

Maybe this is what love says is blind, even though it hurts, cries, is upset, hates anger but still forgives, still accepts, still says I love you! I laughed to myself when I heard how Bunga shouted with his tears earlier, laughing bitterly. Love makes logic disappear.

"Why are you raining like this!" the pair of shoes at the end of the view surprised me, I raised my head, Hoon!

"Why are you showering in the rain, you're acting like a kid!" ah it seems I was wrong, fortunately I stopped praising him. Of course, Hoon must not be sincere about doing this right! 

"You should have seen the weather forecast, carried an umbrella, you troubled me this way, so I reduced my sleeping allowance on the holidays, I should also find out where to go" I don't want to hear any more of Hoon's babbling

"Hey.. Wait for me!" Hoon ran after me behind my back, I smiled seeing him who had difficulty paddling me, for what? I'm soaking wet, so it's better to take a shower. I ran under the heavy rain, I turned my head occasionally and found Hoon's irritated face, he tried to hang on with an umbrella, it seemed like he was afraid of rain, even so, his clothes were wetter than dry. I laughed at the spoiled look on Hoon's face, he was a bitch but his behavior really comforted me.

***

"Aish, everything's soaking wet. I shouldn't have had much trouble picking you up just now" Hoon still grumbled in annoyance, he grabbed a towel and dried his wet body, while Risa arranged the groceries in wet clothes, she covered her head with a small towel.

"Hey, at least go to the bathroom first!" said Hoon was annoyed to see the droplets on the end of Risa's shirt. The girl turned around and rattled her lips, so early this morning Hoon continued to nag, upsetting Risa.

Risa immediately cleared the floor.

"Heu, I said go to the bathroom!"

"Grottling!"risa doesn't care.

"You want to go to the bathroom or not!" said Hoon forcefully once again while turning his face away. Risa turned around, immediately stood facing Hoon and left her waist.

This girl is so innocent what a fool! how could he not be aware of that transparent wet shirt! Hoon let out a heavy breath, he was annoyed!