I'm You And The Past

Goodwill

"Hoon's.. Hoon's.. Quickly take this and give it to papa!" little Pinta Eun while running away from her mother's pursuit, when they were still sitting in elementary school, Eun and Hoon were judging mama, they took a big spoon and went around the house avoiding her mother's catch. Hoon follows Eun's orders, he grabs a large spoon from Eun's hand and escapes from under her mama's chasing feet while laughing cheerfully. A beautiful warm memory, Hoon still vividly remembers the last good memories in his family. It was all while her mother was alive, when Eun and Hoon were still able to play together.

Mr. Jung and Hoon play ps, sometimes both noisily because of the unbalanced game, Eun join in the middle, messing up, until finally Hoon and Eun are engaged in a fight, and Eun, makes Mr. Jung laugh funny. Mama is busy preparing food at the table, she prepares a lot of food in her own cooking, mama calls one by one until all compact turned her head.

"Father, Eun, Hoon.. Let's eat.." Mama's soft voice kept ringing repeatedly. They sat around the dining table, sharing stories and laughter, chanting and stroking each other softly, mama who laughed cheerfully, papa who was full of words, Eun who was cheerful and Hoon who was spoiled, said, all those wonderful memories, constantly spinning in Hoon's memories, he missed all of them.

Risa picked up a spoonful of porridge that was still puffing hot smoke, shortly after Hoon woke up or rather realized. He was delirious in his sleep.

"Can you sit down?" risa asked while guiding Hoon to get up, the pleasant aroma from the bowl on the table made Hoon smile. His face was pale, his gaze still soft. Hoon tried to sit with the rest of his strength growing weaker.

Risa grabbed another spoon of porridge that had stopped her mouthful. Risa blew out the hot temperature of the slurry before thrusting it at Hoon.

Hoon smiled, he saw the look of his mother's face on Risa's face, a gentle face full of love, Hoon could not stop looking at Risa's face with her sad eyes.

Risa was unaware of Hoon's gaze, she was busy blowing the porridge in front of her mouth, this had just matured, Risa could not even hold it down the bowl, she used a cutting board for the bowl mat.

Hoon was still reluctant to turn his eyes away, he kept staring at Risa, the girl who prepared food, who was often involved in fighting, and always accompanied her during this time. Hoon was aware of a loud thump in his chest. He even came down immediately when he knew Risa would be rained. She was very worried about Risa. Hoon is willing to sleep on the sofa, even though he has never done it in his entire life, only Risa makes him do this ridiculous thing. Whatever Risa asked, Hoon tried to do even though he failed more often. Before there was no one who could tell him, no one who could rule Hoon, even Mr. Jung had to hire an assistant to report all Hoon's activities because after all this boy could not be denied. Hoon has changed a lot. Risa made Hoon feel at ease, Risa was like a lost warmth. Hoon found soft hands, chatty lips, a soothing friend. Risa is like her mama, who's long gone. Hoon could no longer suppress his feelings. All felt as if pressing on the chest, yelling out. Both of Hoon's hands were raised, he grasped the base of Risa's arms, noticing the weak touch on her arms Risa looked at Hoon.

"What's wrong?" risa is confused. "Do you feel anything?" ask Risa to panic. He put another bowl to the table, checking Hoon's forehead. Still very hot.

"I'm sorry." said Hoon weakly, like his dim eyes. Hoon brought his head closer to Risa's face, I sayu Hoon's eyes were clearly visible in Risa's eyes, he just didn't understand what Hoon was going to do, this man was very weak right now.

Cups..

Hoon landed his lips on Risa's lips, hot, hot. It's like it's taking Hoon's body temperature. Risa can only be dumb, petrified, her head arrived blank, empty! Hoon kissing? Risa did not reply but also did not refuse. Hoon's lips were dry and hot, his mouth vapour hit Risa's skin and it was hotter than his lips. Hoon's body fell on top of Risa's body. Making Risa immediately wake up from her empty mind. Hoon did not respond to Risa's movements.

"Hoon!" call Risa getting anxious. Risa tries to throw Hoon back on the sofa.

"Zzzzz" Hoon's snoring makes Risa upset.

"He's asleep?" risa said in disbelief.

"Well, what the hell is he doing!" angry Risa upset. After kissing me she fell asleep? Even the porridge I prepared has not been eaten! Risa shook her head in annoyance.

"May she kiss me!!" angry risa. "Well, if you wake up!" threatening Risa, she turned her fist towards Hoon.

Risa tidied up the house, washed the dishes and mopped the floor while occasionally paying attention to Hoon, Risa felt relieved to realize Hoon's body temperature was slowly falling. Though she had not taken medicine, but her fever healed by itself, Risa shrugged her shoulders cluelessly, the important thing is that Hoon is back to health, risa heaved a sigh of relief.

It felt so early that Risa had experienced so many events, meeting Flowers, taking a rain shower, asking sensitive questions, Hoon who picked her up and now has a fever. Risa glanced at Hoon and felt relieved because cold sweat was no longer visible on Hoon's face, the look of his face was fresher. Risa moved from the front room to the dining chair. He had already prepared some cooking to eat with Hoon. Risa flexed her muscles, spread her head against her wrists, and fell asleep on the dining table chair.

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POV Hoon

I could see clearly her labor, she was all day caring and doing housework. I am so grateful that Risa accompanied me here, I do not understand that it is not Risa. He does anything sincerely, he never thinks badly of anyone else, to me Risa is a special girl. Akh recalled how surprised his face was earlier. Yeah, I can't contain my feelings, I realize I kissed her. I realized I was in love with you. You remind me of our old house, of the warm family we've lost. You made me re-experience how to have a true friend and a life. You laugh sometimes, smile and get angry. You gave me the color of my life here. You are like my mama, she also always keeps our family together and cheerful, I miss you. Missed him so much.

I stepped closer to the dining table where Risa was asleep in an uncomfortable position, Hoon held Risa as before.

Realizing you've had a lover is hard, I want to be selfish but you love her so much. You never make a sad face, but you miss it with a look so lost, I know what kind of face it is. Papa used to be so, he was difficult to accept the departure of his mother. It was hard to accept my mother's departure. Half the spirit of life seemed to be lost when mama was no longer with us. The house turned cold. The jokes and laughter seemed to be extinguished for a long time. There was only a commotion, a fight between the three of us, until Glen hyung was present, he could win Eun nuna's heart, he could get close to papa, he tried to re-establish our long-spanned relationship. Glen hyung helped rebuild a collapsed family, although it couldn't be as good as it was at least better than the fights and debates I hear about every day. I don't know since when nuna and papa always fight every time they meet.

You must be tired of facing me, many servants give up when taking care of me first, papa up to several times looking for servants on the internet. I can't do anything, although nuna sucks but I admit that nuna is much more intelligent and successful, the annoying nuna is indeed a little proud.

While me? I think I need to find something for my future. I checked Risa's body temperature, it looks like she has extra immunity, even though I kissed her in a fever but her body temperature is normal. Risa just needed to rest, she was too tired today.

I corrected Risa's position, let her enjoy her nap. I stroked her forehead for a while, wanting to once again leave a kiss there, but I tried to hold back. Realize Hoon, Risa already has a lover! My mind keeps reminding me. Yes I have to be self-conscious. I got up from the bed, leaving behind a deeply asleep risa.

I went back, checked what I could help with. Risa had cooked and washed the dishes, she had also mopped. What am I supposed to do again? I saw a dirty laundry basket, maybe I should do the laundry? All right, I gotta find out first. Open the browser, type, how to wash clothes.

I read carefully the steps of washing clothes on the phone screen.

"All right then!" ayoo spirit!

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