GOODBYE

74. firmly nian

Akas continued smiling to see the appearance of “tag” in the young man who reportedly wanted to repent from this world of flirting. It may look outside like people will be angry, but at that caught also signal “tanya” in view of lathif. Not yet, still a marble....

“As of you, Gis. Every human being is alone. Come alone, go home alone. The responsibility is also self-sufficient. So, if for example you want to change, first it must come from yourself. Can't come from another,” Akas fishing “in murky water”.

“It's been from me, sir. But hard...,” sahut Agis, rada ketus.

“Oh yes? Alhamdulillah, means the first condition is in order. This is the hardest, right?” Akas.

Agis shook his head, “Niat is easy, penggejalanannya difficult.”

“Cash? As far as I know, the hard thing is to round up that intention. Next is easier, just stay istiqamah, hehehe...”.

Agis remained shaken, disagreeing seemingly.

“Then, what are your intentions?” ask Akas while still grinning.

“I want penance, sir,” sambar Agis, his eyes staring sharp but haggard.

Uniquely, Akas even shook his head with his lips set to sneer in disbelief.

“Lho, really this..,” ambush Agis. “Mother don't believe?”

“Hehehe..., old song is mah, Gis. Many people have said they want repentance, but not repentance. It's hard he said, as you said. It should be difficult because even the meaning of penance is not understood correctly. Presumably, want penance is similar to want candy. It's delicious.”

So, Agis was dumb. While his brother was mangosteen.

“So, how should it be?” chase the aviator.

“What?”

“Soal penance earlier..”.

Akas nyerdeh, “Susah ah, hehehe.

“No can do that, sir. I'm curious.”

Hearing this, Akas continued to chuckle for a moment. It was indeed his purpose to provoke the curiosity of this young man. The goal between, not the main goal.

“Where, Sir?” Agis.

I let out a breath, ending his laughter.

“Truth of faith. Faith fruit makrifat. True faith comes from knowing Him for the faith. So. Understandable, no?”

Agis shaking, “What is macrifat?”

“That was, know or know. And, to be said to be familiar, means to know the taste. If you just know his name, it means you don't know him yet. The title is just familiar. For example, like this, yesterday you liked what?”

“Like what, Sir?”

“Which he said was injected with those?"

Agis grimacing. “Morphin,” he said slowly.

“Oo, it's morphine, huh? How the hell is the stuff?”

Shocked too Agis poked this question. Mean what? So, he did not answer, quietly looking at the questioner. Akas smiled.

“Like that, Gis. About morphine, I just found out its name. Because I just know his name, then actually I do not know the item. Since I do not know him yet, how do I believe in him? Then, because I do not believe, there is no relationship between me and the goods. Yes, no?”

Agis.

“Well, since there is no relationship, then what penance?”

“Lho, do I want to take morphine, sir? There's definitely a connection between me and morphine, right?”

“Hehehe. That, you know morphine in its true meaning. Wh why? Because you know what it feels like, you also understand the consequences. Well, now I want to ask again, since you know this morphine well, you must know how to get away from it, right?”

“Where is it?”

“Should have come back to God. Cumanya, arduous..”.

Akas smiled, “Why is it hard?”

Agus speechless, thinking it looks.

“Hayo, why?”

"Maybe because I have not believed..”.

"You could say that?”

Agis lowered his head for a moment, then nodded to himself.

"Why, Gis?”

“I don't know yet, Sir. I just found out his name...”.

Then, Akas smiled again while sighing a long sigh. Thats difficult. It must be difficult when someone is asked to believe, while he is not yet familiar with what to believe. Be at the limit of reason, but it's obviously hard to swallow. Finally, forced to play. Well, that forced like this is guaranteed not to be firm in the face of the storm. When the weather is calm, let it look. However, when the storm hit, immediately fell on the intrusion. Not yet in the original storm. Threatened fear, seduced. In fact, there is something that can be exchanged for instant noodles before expiration, add three eggs and enough rice. But that is not faith, except faith. For, the true faith, the true monotheism, is unattainable to the universe. Even beyond heaven and hell. Her....

“Eem, said you have determination, Gis?” Akas broke the silence.

Agis who was momentarily a bit dreamy it dawned, “What determination, sir?"

“A form of determination...,” Akas looks at his guest.

For a moment they looked at each other, then Agis nodded. “Iya, Sir,” said.

“Where is it?”

“I want to die properly...”.

Akas mesem, “Want to really die or die on the right way?”

“Dead on the right road, Sir.”

“Oo...,” Akas further smiled. “When you die, let God will. What we need now is to find the truth. Actually, this truth is not going anywhere. Do not imagine far away, because in every human being with the real truth earlier. Just, it's not easy this business, Gis..”.

“Not easy, how?”

“You want to know?”

Agis nodded quickly, his eyes staring expectantly.

“Areally ready?”

“Ready, Sir.”

“Ready? Hehehe...”.

Agis was silent for a moment. It's not his business to die, but his hehehenya. Seriously no, anyway? But, then he replied steadily, “Siap!”

“Aalhamdulillah's. Come on, I'll accompany you to shut yourself down before you die. Throw everything. He wrote, He who erases. We cannot write, nor can we delete. Him, just Him. No other...”.

So, Akas also membiat youth who are still very much morfin because “tanya” has been enough. Of course, his sharia Akas did not understand morphine, nor did he understand medically the procedure of dealing with morphine in terms of its dependence on the drug “Kolombia”. All he understood was that He wrote and only He could erase it. That'sthat's all. He told Agis the way back to Him. What and how next, it is up to the Supreme Owner. Said the Prophet, “Really, the fire of hell shall cry out to the believers: O believers, quickly pass away because your light extinguishes my embers.”

Taufik, belongs to God. Hidayah, belongs to Allah. When God's knowledge and guidance are in place, what is the story that holds it up? Like a drought of a year, doused in rain a day. It does not take years, nor months without khatam. Just by weeks, the shift of “from a state to a non-state” has already made a real impact on an inner Agist. His heavy sakaw dance only lasted no more than the first three weeks of baiat. There is no longer a seizure event, most just shivering. Then, this shivering jogged also faded quickly. About five months later, it disappeared. In fact, joking, Agis has dared to “deny” if he is a former aviator. “What is morphine?" he smiled with gratitude.

Next, he became one of the three disciples nicknamed Pakuncen's pigeon. Bail, Soleh, and Agis. Because, the three of them are almost always in Pakuncen accompanying the teacher, alone or together. Noon can, nocturnal can. So, it is not surprising that these three buds are more prominent in their spiritual progress than the other students. Qalbu is a “home” that does not fit for two occupants. Allah says in the hadith of Qudsi, “O My servant! If you wish to enter My Assembly, then do not heap your attention on this world, to the angelic realm, or the higher realm!"

Nian resolutely....