GOODBYE

69. After the bank business is completed

So, tomorrow they meet Raden Said Jubair, Asih's older brother who is entitled to the other half of Kyai Sanusi's legacy. He used to be his great enemy eagle, neat now do not lagilah. Even the most compact with Akas among the other Asih brothers. Especially after he had diabetes mellitus, diabetes. People who have this disease do tend to like “odd-odd”, like already reluctant to live. Not everything is certain, incidentally Said including that. Hence he very demen “chat dead” with Akas. Maybe his views are felt. Understandably, the brother did not know that his sister was buzzing....

“Why sale?” tanya Said, after Asih conveyed his meaning.

“Cause, this is the most likely,” replied Asih.

Said was silent for a moment hearing that answer, then saw Akas. His sister-in-law nodded, confirming the wife's answer.

“How much do you need, anyway?” Said asked back.

“Many, Kang. That's why it should be sold...”.

“How much?” Said forced to know.

So, Asih also mentioned the number, which is clearly not a little according to their standards. “Much, right? Akang really use question,” Asih grinned.

Said shook his head at the style of his youngest brother's sableng.

“So? There I am, just wear it...,” timpal the brother, maybe provoked by his sister's sableng style.

“Keep, what's the blood wash?” said's wife snatched from the side.

Suddenly, all eyes looked towards him. Akas and Asih immediately understood that this sister-in-law did not agree with her husband about “just use” earlier. But, the reason was understandable, and it was his right.

Silent moment. Said is seen holding back his annoyance to his wife....

“Eem, look, Kang...,” Akas breaks the silence. “We came here because we felt we should have been here first, before the others. Like it or not, the house must be sold, Reasonably, this stay hope to be able to pay off the bank. I agree with Asih, rather than seized by the bank, it is better to take Akang. That is, so as not to fall into the hands of others, still exist in the family environment itself because it is the legacy of the Father. But, we also understand that there is no compulsion to Akang and Teteh in this matter. The picture is so." “What if you borrow it?” ask Said. “Do not sell...."

Asih. “I don't want to owe anymore. You see, it has not been discovered how to return it. If there is an ability, we may be able to buy again. Now, it will still be sold,” he said firmly.

Akas nodded while sighing softly.

Said also sighed. His wife looks sullen over there....

“If sold, ask how much?” she asked.

“Akang knows better. How fast according to Akang,” replied Asih.

Akas nodded in agreement.

Said looked at his younger siblings, then nodded while mesemizing a little. Asih returned her brother's smile. I'm just silent. You don't feel good about Said's wife getting frowning over there...

Four days later, the purchase transaction was carried out. Somehow Said talked to his wife, anyway so. He bought at a reasonable price, according to his market. With these additional funds, Akas can pay off his debt to the bank. There's a little more. Said also let his sister's family live in this house, as long as possible and willing. Alhamdulillahot.

When Akas and Asih handed over the home certificate that had been taken from the bank, Said asked, “Kas, when do we chat let again? Miss me...”.

I laughed slowly, “When do I have time?"

“Tomorrow can?”

“OK. I'll wait here tomorrow, okay? Bakda isya.”

And so, the sister-in-law was both smiling. Smiling too. His sister's wife was like that, but she seemed forced....

xxx

That story, in the house. Not spilling out. Akas students did not hear the inside story that was happening to his teacher's family. Of course they know that the bakery is disbanding, as many other businesses are out of business in the storm of the monetary crisis. However, because the teacher looks calm, the students are calm too. In their minds, surely the teacher still had a backup even though the factory was bankrupt. No cooking, anyway? On paper, what is left? “Gilanya”, people who want to know God even more coming. In the not too distant future, the number of tifli had already broken through the twenties.

With this increase, Akas frankly began to think of the need for a special place to guide his students. In the past, Kyai Khalil also had a place for that purpose. No need nice, just a place that “enak” to guide them. The hut is okay. Spiritual instructors are different from missionaries or ustadz. The disciples did not just come to teach, then finally. He is responsible for the spiritual journey of his students, and this is definitely not the story of “walks”. Very critical, crossing what is likened to “titian sembut cut seven”. A little careless, it is not impossible to fall into a idolatry. So, it must always be monitored, until the right comes to be released. God gave that right. The disciples only delivered them until they arrived at the first gate of Makrifat. Next, it's up to him.

However, the matter of this place is still at the limit of desire. In fact, it is not possible now, because there is no cost. The remaining money for the sale of the house that is not how much it is, has been slamming arranged Asih to meet the needs of everyday life. Meanwhile, Akas also faced the fact that he felt “ was no longer allowed to work” by Him...

How's that?

The story, after the business with the bank was completed, Akas was again trying to find income. Language “scientific”, even though the situation is difficult, children and wives will still need to eat? Thate. To return to business, it seems that it cannot be because there is no capital. Now, the important thing is to hold on first. For example, so employees again is not a problem. Maybe some of his business colleagues, who were able to survive this storm, would help him.

However, do not say it was done, because even when it was still in the form of intention, “vote” appeared in his heart that forbade it. There is no sound, no taste. If this taste is voiced, “Diam!” sounds so. Appearing intentions, “Shut up!” Appear again, “Silence!” So repetitive. And, not only that because in fact, Akas was “diam”. Unable to fight. Really unable to fight. Exhausted.

Do not be punished lazily, because Akas is clearly not a slacker. Do not also say making it up, because Akas in a state of “remembrance lasting”. His Word in the hadith of Qudsi, “I am with those who remember Me." Then, everything is Him. No exception to this one.

Known two terms, tajrid and kasab. Tajrid is a spiritual level of a person in which he “ is no longer bound" to the mundane. While kasab is the spiritual level of a person where he “still need world”, in a good sense. In the book of al-Hikam, Shaykh Atha'illah says, “When you want to be a warrior, when God still places you in the people who seek livelihood, your desire is lust. On the contrary, when you want to be a beacon, when God has placed you in the highest class, then your desire to pursue the world is a real setback of lofty ideals.” Thus.

Thus, through the signs and messages of the heart he received, Akas also realized that the Supreme Being had placed him in the category of Tajrid. Those who are “diam” in true submission. The real resignation is resigned, not just resigned. As Shaykh Atha'illah said, tajrid and kasab are not things “force yourself”. Pretend kasab, will not be strong. Pretend tajrid, let alone. Guaranteed and complaining only....

“Keep, kids' meal plan, how?" tanya Asih, after hearing her husband's exposure about the heart message titled tajrid earlier.

Akas smiled, “Don't worry. It's guaranteed.”

“Who guarantees?”

“Yang Runny...”.

Just shut up for a moment. “Allah?”

"There's something else?” Back to the mesem. “Kan, waman yattaqillaaha yaj'allaahu makhraja? Cook forgot?"

Grimacing. As a cottage down, of course he memorized the “umum” post. In the study of mothers here was diligently quoted by the call endadzah.

Yattaqillaaha yaj'allaahu makhraja. Wayarzuqhu min haitsu laa yahtasih, waman yatawakkal 'alallaahi fahuwa hasbuh, innallaaha baalighu amrih, qad ja'alallaahu likulli syai'in qadra, Whoever fears Allah will undoubtedly make for him a way out. And gave him sustenance from an unexpected direction. And whoever trusts Allah will have sufficient. Verily Allah does His business. Verily Allah has made provision for everything (QS. ath-Thalaaq:2-3)

“Where? Just asked to be careful, right?” ask Akas.

Asih.

Akas sighed softly. “All that business, truly God's business. Do not fantasize about being able to take over His affairs. He who governs, He also makes his provision. We are only asked to trust Him. That's it, don't use sajen."

So, Asih smelled a smile because it was blown by sajen. Akas smiled too. You see, uh really Kyai Sanusi's last print if it's that way, just like if you're a manyun....