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44. dewe-dewe affairs

“Where to explain it, huh?” kyai Kholil. “It is easy if you have already got the knowledge. Don't explain, you'll understand for yourself. Try, at that time your grandfather gave you an explanation of this?”

“Not there, Kyai. When I wanted the name, Mbah Cokto first said, save your question, this is not part of the question and answer. So.”

Kyai Kholil laughs. “By your grandfather too. He who opens keeps telling the others to answer. Throw stone hide hand, hehehe..”.

Nyerengeh.

“Free, how to explain it?” Kyai Kholil muttered again.

“Yaa, just a little, Kyai. Let's not be too curious.”

Kyai Kholil mangosteen. “But, please understand that for now, the real one has not been explained to you. Because this cross-border affair has exceeded the limits of words. Except for the taste, maa yahrujuu baina satan illa cue wal i’tibar. That, what comes out of the lips, what can still be said, is only a cue and effort. How's it? Want?”

Akas nodded.

Kyai Kholil sighed, then fell silent for a moment.

“Good. Note.., this you, in fact you, originally you. The existence of hijabs or boundaries is His will as well. That's barzakh. If you want the proposition, see the verse Light, an-Nuur three five. 'Your task, all of us, is to break through the veil of discovery in order to achieve perfection, al-insan al-kamil. This task is only imposed on humans who are rumored to be the noblest creation. Man, who truly comes from Perfection, is asked by Him to return to the dignity of his perfection. In Our'an, penetrating barzakh is hinted through the story of Nabiyullah Khidir faya bin malkan perforating the boat,” he said, slowly.

Akas....

“Bingung, yes?” Kyai Kholil smiled.

“Iya, Kyai. It feels, not yet clear this.”

“Hehehe. It's not like it's unclear, but it's not like you yet. Not yet a science. That feeling is always clear and always honest. Others with reason. The one that just played was your wits, not your race. But, it's okay to be confused. Prophet Musa alaihi salam was confused at first, hehehe.

Akas grimacing.

“If pursued using reason, later the boat of the Prophet Khidir so like a swipe. It's called a boat, not a yacht, hehehe.... The ocean looks like the Indian Ocean. The boundary of the meeting of sea water and fresh water becomes just a river estuary in the ocean. Wow, whipped up the movie. Ugly, hehehe.

“So, what should it be, Kyai?” he continued to ask.

“Should be, yeah like how you feel later. Later, if it is not yet so,” Kyai Kholil smiled. “Innaa lillaahi wa innaa ilaihi raajiuun, back and forth He. Wal awwalu wal endu, unlimited.”

“The picture is dong, Kyai? Just a little...”.

“Can never be described. Laisa kamisilylihi syai’un, not similar to anything. How to describe something that is not similar to anything? And, it can't be sorted out. Qul huwallahu ahad, say the only God. Not a lot, not a little. A little picture, nothing. Not much picture exists. There he is, He is His soul. End of thing.”

Nyerengeh. “Iya, Kyai. Still playing wits just now,” confesses to him.

Kyai Kholil smiled again.

Ashar adhan shahdu. This conversation is over. They perform the Ashar prayer. After that, Akas suddenly cried for no reason. He could not resist the tears that spilled themselves in his bow to the teacher. Kyai Kholil patted his student's shoulder. “Even this cry of yours, She too,” she said softly. Kyai Sanusi nodded. And so, the tears of Akas are growing....

***

That was his last question. Furthermore, Akas did not want to ask his teacher anything else, except for things related to his spiritual journey. What. what he felt in “think soul”. For, as Kyai Kholil asserts, without muttaqin and yu’minun, lies become. And, Akas did not want “ to lie in truth”. He did not want to place the Qur'an at the level of a fairy tale. He did not want to see the Qur'an as just a collection of the arguments and stories of the prophets. He wanted, those holy verses were truly a sacred clue to him. As He promised.

Many things Akas felt while running this dhikr. Among them, besides the dizziness of the head, is the easing of worldly desires. Not be crushed, or detained. That difficult.... This one, it's dropping by itself. The desires of the worldly aliyah loosen by themselves without being forced. In fact, it comes down to eating and sleeping.

Eating less, his sleep reduced. Hadith of the Prophet who advocated eating when really hungry and stopped before fullness, slowly began to be felt “adanya”. In the past, the word of His Majesty was just a rote for him without being able to apply it. Often tried, he forced himself to apply it. Can be a day two days, at most three days, next bablas again. Now, align yourself without being forced. Maybe it was said to be some kind of side effect. Akas run Dzikir Light, then the side effects include this. Therefore, do not use the previous dress.

Likewise with sleep. Frankly, there is a feeling of loss of time at night just to sleep. For it is precisely the moments of the night that he looks forward to reciting. The Light is not blocked by space and time, it can be done anytime and anywhere. However, it remained to him that the night time was more beautiful, more comfortable pervading it. Her sleeping hours she shifted to the time between ashar—maghrib. And, it turns out that it's enough for one or two hours. That is if you are already sleepy. If not, bablas is glaring. He was able to be literate for three days and three nights without so much as a person lacking rest. Uniquely, the same as eating, without coercion efforts. Really am....

In the outside world, the relationship with his friends remains well-established. I still play there a lot, or those who come here. Talking, laughing, and so on. It's just that Akas is no longer active if they are discussing the proposition. As a friend, he listened, but without any opinion. Frankly, euy's horror. Shouts he discusses sacred verse without his knowledge. For him personally, it has started to feel “ does not fit” the way it is. You see, while this wal fajri still emblazoned with the sunrise, Nabiyullah Khidir faya bin malkan As boat was still imagined bitter. Then it has not hit it, he realized he has not been able to learn it. Not “punya” true faith. So, according to the message of the teacher, he first confessed the postulates. Later opened again when already with “rasi”.

Imagine, speaking the truth without “taste the truth”, does not mean a lie to the one who talks? As someone said, “A” bread tastes sweet, but he has never tasted the sweetness of “A” bread. Don't say feel, see it yet. It just got to the prescription level. And, it is clear that the bread recipe is not the bread, let alone the taste. It's still that far, even if it has a connection.

In addition to the affairs of “resep”, Akas also refused the invitation “play ball”. Apart from being clearly prohibited by Kyai Kholil, he now feels the activity is outrageous. It is not wrong to go on a grave pilgrimage, known this activity in Islamic treasures.Cuma, his intention is you know. Cook there asking the Guardian? Lha, just because you didn't want to, right? Is there a waliyullah who glitters the world? If there is, it means just guardians. Then, the akuans can present the spirit of the guardian or his khadam. Present, do not know how. Ogah she's. However, once again, this view for him personally Akas was not about to punish others. Like the teacher's message, that state of being transcends the limits of the laws. In reality, humans are alone. Come alone, behind it also alone. So, the responsibility is alone. Mother's father is only sababiah for her descent from the realm of perfection into the mortal realm. Has God not shown the events without a father? The first two are even without fathers. Thus, in essence, dewe-dewe affairs....