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16. like a cake

“True, the important thing is indeed his heart..,” Bagyo answered the grandson's question about “segumpal bacon”. “If it's slick, good kebawa the value of his deeds. If it's ugly, yes it's ugly, although it may look good.”

Mangosteen-grip.

Thus. As directed by his grandfather, Akas learned to read and teach al-Qur’an. Learn to read in the mosque, taught by Ustadz Jamil. If not, guided directly by the grandfather. Bagyo gave his grandson a translation of the Quran’an. I am happy, because there is an Indonesian language. So, can “more easily” understood. The shape is also nice, small as simple as a Gospel. The grandfather also gave him a book collection of hadith as a complement.

Since then, little by little, Subagyo began to give Islamic teachings to his grandchildren. At first Akas was not aware, but it was felt for a long time also that the focus of his grandfather's delivery was different from that conveyed by Ustadz Jamil on the sidelines of learning to read the Qur’an. Mr. Ustadz discussed many ordinances, if his grandfather is more about things that are inward. Ustadz Jamil discusses mathematics, Mbah Bagyo discusses literature.

“Cock different yes, Mbah?” Akas also asked.

Bagyo laughed softly, “Not different, both teachings of Islam taught by Mr. Ustadz, he called sharia. This one, it's called a fact, but it's just a theory. Not what is meant yet. Eem, what is it? Not yet alive, ghenka.”

“What do you mean?”

“Hehehe. Sharia is the nature of Islam. Rules, ordinances, laws, postulates, and all that is zhahir. How to pray, how to fast, how to zakat, how to hajj, and others. As a matter of fact, its inner part,***********sharia. Liver affairs...”

I looked at his grandfather, somewhat stunned. Heart business turned out.

Then, without ignoring the aspects of sharia, there Akas more interested in matters of the heart. You see, the first way is also a matter of the heart which is the reason for him when choosing Islam. Coincidentally, his grandfather a fan of tirakat, rarely sleeps at night, then Akas pursues the understanding of this “hurat” almost every night. Subagyo didn't mind at all, even pleased. Ngatijo story does not want to lose, follow him too. But, yes, it's bad. For a moment it has been angop many times, continue slowly sluggish on the mat. Bablas....

“Even if someone memorizes the arguments of al-Qur’an or hadith, all fluent in Arabic, if his heart is empty, yes still batil his law. Lies,” Bagyo is seething on an occasion.

“Why, Mbah?” ask Akas.

“For, he does not know the true truth of the postulates.”

“Lho, don't you know? Kan, memorize?”

“Hehehe..., different once memorized with that tofu, Le. If you know, you don't know. If you know, you must have memorized it. Memorized here do not look like ordinary memorization, huh? Memorized, meaning to understand or understand. Because you understand, you know. Because you know, you understand. Like those. Confused, no?”

“Kayak back and forth yes, Mbah?”

“Indeed. Back and forth, that too, hehehe. ..”

Acute forehead wrinkled. What is that-that too? “Lha, if you don't know? Who just memorized it, how?” he continued to ask.

Bagyo chuckled again. “Ya can't go back and forth, stuck. Just imagine, memorized but do not know the meaning..., what is it? The title, I don't know. Know what? His memorization? His words? Not using memorized words is also okay, just read it. Is there a book? What is more important is to understand the meaning.”

Akas sighed...

“Indeed it's not easy to go back and forth, Cash. Especially if it has passed back and forth, hehehe..., vanished.”

“Lho, what's missing?”

And so, Bagyo continued chuckling. “Have, that way before. This is difficult, because the originals cannot be talked about. Not Mbah do not want, can not.”

“Why can't you, Mbah?”

“Yes is. How can I say if no one is talking? What do you want to say if it disappears back and forth? Hehehe...”.

I also shake my head. Confused him.

“Already, now we discuss chapters in pairs only, yes? You see, the vanishing hard,” Bagyo back mesem. “So, born and inner should go hand in hand. Yes, his birth, his mind. Yes, the truth, yes. Don't separate. Because, the pair is sunnatullah. Inner-born, world-end, day-night, light-dark, male, shari'ah, etc. Don't worry, wong is what God wants. Kanjeng Prophet Muhammad also clearly teaches sharia and the truth, both. But, many do not realize this. Presumably, Kanjeng Nabi only teaches sharia only. He thought Islam was just an outward form. Whereas, Islam is outside in.”

Mangosteen-grip. Frankly, I don't understand.

“What taklid-taklidan earlier, Mbah?”

“Faith the taklid, if you believe in the Gusti Allah, just follow along. Follow people, even if say the person followed understands religion.”

“Oo, melu-melu kebo yo, Mbah?”

“Iya, hehehe..”.

Akas. Not including the true faith it turns out that only “follow buffalo” only. Yeah, cook that right?

“If faith is reasoned, know not?” ask the grandfather.

Akas.

“Faith is better than kebo, but still not true. Faith in that postulate, if you believe in the Gusti of God only in his postulates. The story, you read al-Qur’an or hadith, continue to believe the postulates. But, that's it.”

“Oo, still wrong too?”

“Yes is.”

“But it is, isn't it, Mbah? Believe the postulate first, keep looking..”.

“Well, kui sing real, hehehe.... Cook trust Gusti Allah only to the proposition? Yeah, it's not true yet. I have to see what it feels like. If for example cake or bread, the proposition is a recipe, the formula makes a cake. Not cake. If the recipe is eaten, it must not be delicious, hehehe.... If you want the cake, it is made first according to the recipe earlier. When it is ripe, it is eaten. Can taste. Well, whatever feels good, what a cake it is. Those who do not feel, are prohibited from commenting because they do not know. How do you know if you haven't felt? Not ah, hehehe..”.

Akas follow nyerdeh. Perceived, true also this “kue”.

“So, Le. Faith must come as the cake had. His name is true faith, or monotheistic faith. True tawhid, not tawhid kabui. If tawhid read a book, it is the same as the false faith. Especially if they just say people. Oh, no kepake. Guaranteed ora payu there, hehehe.

Advanced root of mangosteen.

“Iman tawhid that is true, if you have ‘rasa together’ with Gusti Allah. It is not I, nor does it mean to be the Gusti of God. Watch, youo! But, this is really ‘feel with’ with Him. Eem.., including this can not be said, must be felt. If you have not felt, you will not know to be scattered to the corner of the world. Man lam yadzud lam. Who does not feel, does not know.”

I fell silent, then yawned.

Grandpa smiled. “Already, enough tonight. If most of it becomes a satiety, keep the luggage sleepy. Yes, right?”

Akas who was clearly that angop denied, “Ngak ah, who is sleepy? Feeling, I still want to eat cake.”

“Already closed the cake shop, hehehe.... Come on, sleep there.”

Akas. “But, later I was taught to feel the taste of the cake was yes, Mbah,” pinta the grandson.

“Lha is it? His Kindergarten Lesson.”

“Woo, cook TK?”

“Hehe.... TK also has not passed.”

Rusty scratching head. It's pretty weird that way, haven't passed the Kindergarten yet.

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