DESTINY LINE

36.

 Maybe he's right. I just gave up and ran away. I just wasn't ready to accept the conditions that were supposed to happen.

" Le ni kaeranakereba naranai, Sara. Anata ga site iru koto wa machigatte imasu ." (You should go home, Sarah. What you are doing is wrong) Akari looked at me. He said I was just wasting my time without knowing what my destination was, and Japan and Indonesia were not easy and close distances when traveled.

" You should go back there. It's a pity of your time, if you just throw it away for nothing. You know, Sarah. Your life isn't over yet and you still have long episodes that you have to go through." she added this time.

" But I feel guilty for leaving Abi on that day! ."

" Yes, I know, but with you lamenting like that, you think all problems will be solved by themselves! ."

" Live, Sarah. You have to move on with your life and make peace with your own heart." she explained. I was just stunned to hear Akari's words. I don't even know what I'm thinking myself, I feel scared and feel unable to get through this.

I'm really sorry I did that. How can I set my heart. Do I look weak now?

***

Mama asked me to pick Sarah up to Japan, not because we were coming back, but it looks like their family is in trouble. I was quite surprised when my mom told me that Sarah's parents were getting a divorce.

Right, I don't know what Sarah's been up to for over a year. I'm not close to him or trying to be a friend. I never even visited his house. Maybe the reason Sarah left was because of that, she was someone who was always not ready to accept reality.

Not only Sarah, I was like that when I was a kid. I wasn't ready to accept that farewell. A farewell that even Dad didn't want. That's the most devastating, and that's what keeps me from getting close to Mom.

" It's only natural that if his father wants a divorce, he doesn't even love his wife. Who can blame love!?" said Mama staring at me and Bagas. Mom just confirmed the decision Sarah's father made. I just smiled meaninglessly at Mama's words. Of course he will justify, because what is happening now is exactly what happened to him and Dad.

" Yes, I understand this the most. Justifying all wrong without thinking about what the consequences are! ."

" What do you mean? You mean I was wrong?." he asked now who looked annoyed.

" No, I just don't know why someone like that should make a commitment! ." I said no.

" Abi, watch your talk. You're talking about your future father-in-law! ." Jerky Mom.

" You did it! ." Bagas just kept quiet to see the tension between us.

" What do you know, the boy doesn't know to be grateful. Jackson, get him out of here! ." Sergey Mama fast. Bagas looked at me and took us away from there.

From there Bagas threw out my hand and lifted it in the air.

" What's wrong with you? Why you should argue. I don't understand Abi, why Sarah's messing with your mind so much ."

" I don't know what you've been through all this time, I'm sorry if I let you down earlier ." Clear Bagas.

***

The news of my parents' divorce has been heard by me. Ah no, precisely Papa who has filed for divorce for Mama in Court and will soon marry her affair.

Even more strange is when I found out that Papa's affair is a married woman and already has a daughter my age, and the woman was the same as Papa who was filing for divorce for her husband. I can't figure out why Papa did it, and Mama? What about it later?

Mama cried on the side she called me, Mama apologized so many times while I really didn't know what to do? Although I know, my feelings are sad and disappointed. I'm angry too, but I don't know who. Is it for Mom or Dad?

I arrived at the airport an hour ago. It's really like my life's game now, round-trip and so on. I saw Papa there and waved his hand at me. My smile faded away when I found out he was not alone, there was someone with him. Exactly a woman.

Papa came up to me and was about to give a brief kiss like every time we met, but before that, I immediately stepped back to get away from Papa.

" Why, honey? Why are you avoiding Papa? ." Papa asked looking at me with a confused look.

" It's okay, but I think now Papa doesn't need me and Mama anymore ." I looked at the woman. He seemed to smile hearing that.

" Oh, so you already know, the plan on wanting to immediately ni--- ," said Papa was cut off because I immediately continued his words.

" Papa doesn't have to bother introducing your woman to me, but don't see me again after this. Our relationship is over! ." Just say it. I held back my anger and tried to be ordinary. Isn't papa outrageous? He had dared to introduce the woman to me even before the divorce was over. The woman was no less captivated like Papa.

" Why did you say that to your father! ." Add a woman I'm not even interested in knowing her name. What is clear is that I know, he destroyed my parents' relationship and I hate him. I passed from there without saying anything and did not care about the cries of papa who tried to stop me.

To me, it seems obvious, Papa does not need me or my mother. I was greeted by my mother in front of the house.

" Why Ma, why would Mama Papa want a divorce? ." Mama shakes her head saying that she doesn't know anything.

" Why don't you know, didn't Papa tell Mama? ." I asked again, but Mama still answered by saying that she did not know, but whether it was as if to say, I doubted my mother a little this time, because she looked worried and tried to cover something.

But I hope I'm wrong. I immediately ran to my room, and did not care about Mama. It's both of them's fault. As mature as I am, I will never be ready to accept this. They are the only people I have the most, and I don't want to, lose both. That's why I look angry.

I decided to lock myself in my room and not open it for anyone, including Papa and Mama, even though they tried to get close to me.

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