DESTINY LINE
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On the sidelines of my wedding preparations with eza, a minor calamity occurred.. My son was admitted to the hospital with a lung infection caused by cigarette smoke from my father's friends and accidentally inhaled by him. For a week he was in care, unable to see him lying weak. I think the closer the wedding day the more unpleasant things happen.... I don't know, I hope it's not a bad sign, and I hope I'm strong enough to go through all of this on my own.
I had to brace myself to go through all of this, while working I took care of my son who was lying sick.. no one helped because eza was still outside the island to finish his work before the wedding leave later.Just the morning my mother came to replace me to keep my son in the hospital, while I worked. But in the middle of time that I think is crowded, it makes me feel that I am the most bothered myself with our marriage, and in addition my son whose condition is not improving. This sometimes frustrates me. aaaarrrggghhh... Oh God.. Strengthen me....
When after my son came out of the hospital the exam never stopped, suddenly there was something else that disturbed me. This time my ex-husband came after he got the news that his son had just come out of the hospital, he had a frenzy to seize custody of my son. The reason is that I'm not acting to look after my son to the point that he's got a pretty serious illness. Hhhmmm.
It was inevitable that this matter came to a trial for him to take custody of the child from me...
After the child custody issue, my ex-husband made trouble again. He said the bike I've been wearing is his... Oh my... What else is this... The fact is I bought this vehicle with my own sweat, I don't know what makes it that way. It's a mode of messing with my mind or something, I don't understand his thinking. Hobby once he messed up my life, not tired of him messing with my life.
I told eza everything, I wanted to share a complaint. But he said he could not speed up his return, because there was still much work to be done. I feel depressed, upset, tired, angry all mixed up in my heart. I just want to be accompanied, because maybe if faced together this will feel easy, I thought. Unfortunately, Eza couldn't fulfill my request. The longer I get stressed. My condition deteriorates into urgency and easily upset.
Maybe because of the many problems I face alone, and the result I feel very stressed and inescapable again I also vent my emotions on eza. We had a big fight because my mood was often not good, but the eza who understood me tried to give up. He tried to apply again for leave of all those who were the subject of my protest, He decided to return to our city and apply for early leave. Hopefully, not only now he understands me, because in the household the best man in the beginning will be able to change.
