Clandestine

The Momongan Problem

“He wants to have a child

from you.”

The words from Ayu's mother this afternoon

still dancing in my mind. Even till tonight, when we're in

return journey to Jakarta.

I glanced at Reinard who

driving quietly beside me. My husband is younger

from me, but he was more ready to be born by accepting the presence

a child in our lives.

I did have a few times

heard some people talk about the power of a child in a

the family. The child is a strong bond between

spousal. A marriage would be perfect with the presence of a child,

didn't they?

“Rei...” My heart was slow then.

I looked towards him.

“Hmmm...” Reinard answered me without

look over. Apparently he was engrossed with the song ‘way back home’ played on

in our car.

“What do you think of

the presence of a child at our wedding?” ask me slowly, wanting to see

response from Reinard. At least I can tell if what Ayu's mother said

it has a point. It's not that I don't believe what Ayu's mother said

to me, it's just that I want to make sure. To date, for

regarding the child, I was not so enthusiastic. There was even a time where

I always asked Reinard to use safety when I was in my fertile years.

And so far my husband has always accepted it and never protested.

“What do you mean Jul?” motorcar

stop, when the red light comes on us.

My husband turned towards me with

eyebrow linked.

“Emm...”aku twisting end.

my skirt, then straightened my body to look at Reinard boldly. “What are you

do you want to have a child?!”

Reinard's eyes rounded suddenly

but a second later he laughed.

“Julia..Julia...” It's petrifying

my hair. “Who does not want to have a descendant.” Continue to relax

playing with his car gear as the lights suddenly turn green and

the vehicle in front of us started to go slow.

“Ih...kok the response is that anyway!”

my murmur was upset as I folded my hands in front of my chest, I thought Reinard would

nod with a glowing face while saying. “Jul Author.

bangeet...yok..program...yeok..

“Lha I have to respond

try?!” Reinard. His hands stretched out to turn off the music in the car

our. Maybe he was preparing for a serious conversation between us.

I didn't answer, only

throw my face towards the window. Staring at a row of swordsmen five feet in

a street with many buyers. There are sellers of catfish pecel, meatballs, fried noodles, and,

fried rice and lots of it. If I hadn't eaten at the parlor, I would have

get Reinard to stop and stop by.

“Jul....” call Reinard soft.

“What?!”

“Idih...kok his voice sewot that?”

I snort.

“Removed, real asked

the answer is even that.”

Reinard laughed.

“Why the hell, suddenly you

talking about child problems?”

I did not answer, and then looked.

“Just feel guilty about us because so far not sensitive the same

your wish dear...”.

Reinard smiled, and I admit

his smile really intoxicates me. Suddenly one of his hands

grabbing my hand and linking her fingers on my finger.

“On what basis did you suddenly

saying so dear..?”

“Emm..

me, if you want to have children. From me.”

“Ya is clear from you.

my wife is you Julia!”

I was again upset.

“Aaakh..gitu again deeeh!”

my murmur.

Reinard.

“Begin...” Reinard twists

turn left to pull over. At first I was confused as to why he should pull over

the car stopped, but after thinking about it, he would say

something at length. That's why I'm following him when he stops

his car.

“You kicked me first huh?” it

turning his body towards me, and I nodded.

“Yes name has the child

must deal we both dear.” Reinard paused his sentence. “Which Ayu's mother said earlier, I did

I want to have descendants from us. But I can't be selfish. I want you

ready, not just me. I want you to accept your situation as a mother

pregnant with happiness and no pressure. Let our baby be happy in the future too

your stomach, so that later you can also be a great mother, accept our child with

sincere without any coercion because I really want to have. How?” Reinards

I bite my lips full

haru's.

“Kok you can think that long

siii...” I hugged him warmly. “Padahat if suddenly you are pregnant

I'm not a problem either and I'm not wrong at all. We are legitimate so

husband wife!”

“Yak an I want us that

equally in line dear. Have the same commitment. Yes that's his name

wedding....” I feel her hands patting my back gently.

“Then I become more and more

love to you!”

“Same. You think I'm not?!”

I laughed while wiping the water

my eyes are on my cheeks, and then I let go of my arms.

“So how, really want to

got momongan?” ask Reinard later.

I'm nodding. “Mau..

now we try to make a dedek huh?” i laugh. “Let me also be a child

good for papa-mama. After I thought about it, I was really bad

thanks them grandchildren.”

“Totally?” Reinard raises

his eyebrows.

I'm nodding.

“I love you Reinard

soft lips.

For a few minutes, we

finish our kisses with feeling.

*****

“You why not make me

get off here?” I asked when we were walking along the sidewalk

while carrying the sugar.

“I saw you were worried

street stalls five feet keep.” Sahut Reinard while playing the confectionery

her hands. “Eh, I bargained to eat pecel catfish instead 'do not want.”

I'm thieving. “I'm not a laper

lishang….Just want to see it. Yaudah.

anything, mending we eat confectionery.” I lifted my fireworks

then bit him a little. “Hmmm...maniis...”.

“I again fantasize...” Words

Reinard.

I looked, still with

chewing sugar. “Think what?”

“Later if you have children.”

“Naaah...khan....” cengirku. “Then

what do you want a child?’

“Not that...” Reinard rubbed

the tip of my lip that might have been left over by the sugar crack. “Ngebayangin

my daughter must be beautiful like her mom..”.

I laughed at the sound of the waves

my husband's.

“Eemm..

“What's fantasy?”

“If my son is a boy for sure

ganteeeeng is really like his papa.” My smile expands. “I just saw the photos

your childhood.”

“Oh yes?”

“You're funny from a baby huh?”

Reinard smiled faintly.

Suddenly his face changed a little.

“Why you?” manya curious.

Is there a word that makes him unhappy?

“I've thought, this face of mine

descendants of who? From my mother or my father, do they still remember.

i, or...even now I thought I was not in this world..”.

I'm stunned. Why talk

interesting we suddenly turned into this. There's actually a thing

which I wanted to ask Reinard yesterday, but I don't think so

find the right time. Maybe this is the time.

 “Do you want to meet them? Old people

your bladder?” tanyaku later.

Reinard thought for a moment later

shake. “For what am I looking for someone who has dumped me Julia?”

I'm not saying. Justifies sentences

Reinard in the heart. Although it does not rule out the possibility of his biological parents

sorry for throwing away a kid as handsome and smart as Reinard, but I

understand if my husband is hurt because he was thrown away.

 Being thrown away means not being wanted, right? So for

do we need to find someone who has wasted us?

  Our

the two joined hands along this sidewalk with not much to say. Our

passing some street vendors, some food and drink vendors, and

we enjoyed our moment together.

Suddenly the cell phone rings

reinard's property breaks the mood. My husband reached into her pocket, and was a little stunned

with the name listed on the screen—that I don't know. Must be from home

be ill.

“For a while, I picked up the phone

used to.” The man rushed away leaving me.

*****