Clandestine

Ambiguously

Subsequent to

‘honesty’ Reinard said that night, I tried to limit

the meeting room between us. We live in the same house, sleep in the same bed

but I try to keep my distance from him as best I can. When Reinard

being in front of the TV, I busied myself at the desk and was about to enter

room when he's asleep. As soon as morning comes, we'll meet for a while

at the dinner table before returning to our work routine.

I don't know, I don't,

what I did to Reinard was either wrong or right. I

I gave my life for him, even my heart and thought

that she would still want me even though our marriage was the result of

a parent's match. I was just thinking, why approach someone

who doesn't want me? I am his wife, he is entitled to me even my body

and of course I am entitled to him too. But, hearing that he has not

being ready to do that made me think that I had really rejected it.

Even if there's a chance, I don't know when.

As always, though,

I parked my car in front of the office. An affordable place if at any time

I want to go out. It was early morning, and not many employees

come by. I'm used to coming in early and coming home late.

Some of the new hires definitely can't keep up with my work style. In order to

some days they will come before me and come home late

than me. If that has happened, I will look for RIni to

tell them about the way I work.

I locked

the car door then walked casually into the office. But not yet

opening the door, someone suddenly called out to me.

I looked, I looked,

finding a half-century-old man in shabby clothes turned up

hand me. I've never seen him, maybe he's new here.

“Ask

mbak..” Said the man in a soft voice trembling.

Honestly I am

not so trusting of beggars. In the news, a lot of people

who work by pretending to be beggars and the fact they can

he made a lot of money from his work. You can buy a house or even a car.

But, damned I became someone who easily pity and believe with

the appearance of someone, so without thinking long I spend money

fifty thousand from my bag and gave it.

That man

smile and say thank you.

“I pray

you are happy forever with your husband.” He said before he left.

I'm raising

shoulders. Tell my father that I am married.

*****

Rini's waiting for me

faithfully across the table without saying anything. He knows if he already has

dealing with work, I will turn into the most serious person.

Especially about the strange business of divorce with additional division

a fair gono-gini treasure like this.

“Later if

there are still other documents immediately love Rin.” I held out the stopmap

it's just finished I signed.

“Siap mbak!” Rini

throw a thumbs up and hurry away.

I'd like to

flipped over the other document when my phone screamed. Name ‘suamiku’ listed on

screen.

“Halo...”.

“Jul, again

busy?” ask without further ado.

Very busy.

“Not so...”.

My mouth is completely out of sync with my mind.

“Thankful...”.

“What's up?” I

turn my chair against the window.

“Can help

go home for a second, get me the book on the room table. There is today

presentation and I forgot to bring it.”

“Presentation hours

how many?” I got up from my chair without a second thought. Suddenly a soul

super heroku is rising.

“Two hours left.”

Reinard. “Sorry to trouble you, there are still some patients in the polyclinic and

I can't leave them and make a wait.”

Herein

my role as the angelic hearted wife begins. After saying ‘wait’, I

hurry up and get the car keys and bags. Forgetting a stack of work

hanging up on my desk was also a pile of promises that I wouldn't care

Reinard. In the past, I always called working time very valuable.

I don't even want anyone to bother me when I'm busy with

job. Now, however, Reinard's plea managed to get me up

from the chair and hurried to leave the room. How magical!

Mahadaya love!

“Rin, if

client comes tell wait for me around half an hour.” I said as I passed by

in front of Rini's desk without looking.

*****

Even after

married and held the status of Reinard's wife, the eyes of the employees

snugly. Even worse, I was treated like a snatch-woman

people. They looked at me from afar with annoyed eyes and whispered.

Akh, I hate it

absurd conditions like this. But I pretend I don't care. With

confident I just walked through the corridor, ignoring all eyes

which is on me. Let's just say I'm a model who's walking in

catwalk now.

“Who to look for?”

Someone suddenly confronted me.

Oh my god.

There never was

story no, a spectator suddenly stops the path of a model who

it was beautiful on the catwalk.

That face

facing me is not foreign. Evidently. She's an internship doctor who called ‘win’

by Reinard at the time. From the name tag hanging on his chest, it turned out

the doctor was named ‘Wina’. What a good name.

“Reinard

any?” I smiled widely, trying to be friendly even though I was actually upset

with this woman who has no order in front of me.

Nothm

in reply, Vienna folded her hands in front of her chest.

“Maybe more

exit.”

I'm wrinkling

eyebrows.

“Masa?”

obviously when I called in the parking lot, he was still serving patients

his last.

“Iya.

Reinard isn't in his room.” This nyebelin girl even blocked my way.

Does he not know if I am currently in ‘ mode ready to pounce

anyone?’

“Mending you

step aside, LITTLE SISTER.” I deliberately emphasized the word ‘adik-small’ so that he knew

position now. “I want to see my husband. Want to give her valuables.”

I showed you the book that had been in my arms ever since.

Vienna twisted

his eyeballs are lazy.

“Can I already

say aunt, if Dr. Reinard isn't in his office.”

Goddamnit! I

called aunt. He thinks I'm forty years old what?

“Kan I can

wait in his room.” Keukeuhku.

“Ya can't

dongs. Kala—“

“Julia.” An

the sound of automatic funds interrupting instantly made Vienna and I turn at the same time.

How relieved

it was my heart when I saw Reinard just come out of his room and now

walk towards us.

“I'm waiting

from earlier.” Reinard said as he arrived before us,

I glanced at Vienna

and smiling full of ridicule. At least I win now, and the little girl in

this one just lied to me earlier.

“Yes, new

chat with doctor Vienna.” I smiled broadly at Vienna who was throwing away

look the other way. I swear we're not in the hospital right now

belonging to my husband's family and my husband is an important person here, I've

take this rancid girl to a fight.

“Oh...” Reinards

staring Vienna. “You're familiar now?”

Vienna grimacing.

“A little bit doc.” The answer is not enthusiastic.

Reinard laughs.

Unexpectedly, he suddenly hooked his fingers on my finger. Make me retreat

a step in surprise. Perhaps he mistakenly took a hand. Desiderate

pulled the hand of Vienna but mistakenly pulled my hand. But when I look at him,

the man was clearly smiling warmly at me.

“Come in.

You're not busy, are you?”

I'm busy

how stupendous!

“Ee—...”

My mouth and brain are out of sync.

“Then I did

make tea, huh? Or you want to eat something, we can order service between?”

I'm shaking.

Half my soul goes—it's like mas Anang but it's in shock because

suddenly my husband who a few days ago declared that he was not ready

making any contact with me suddenly touched me.

“Ayo.” Towing

reinard's hand woke up my daydream.

I just

according to her, before leaving I glanced at Vienna who was looking at me

with his bad view.

I laughed

widths. This time I won!

*****